m. edwards

martina and martine for close friends busy painting my nails rn

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not @nolipfiller serving FACE

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well kaido is having fun at least

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I guess i have a sugar baby face

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lunch break

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I'm scared

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cantina aesthetic

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eomsurf

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I shouldn't give in to the hate and shouldn't write a disstrack.. i shouldn't..

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all this bullshit is giving me eating disorders again thanks

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and i really like COERs. Like genuinely most are so cool and nice but can they stop spamming the comments of the artists I talk about cause omfg it feels like that's why they hate me they see bunch of people talk about "hey this random person on the internet talked about you"

and tbf if it happened to me I would be grateful cause someone's taking interest in me and their fans are giving me insight BUT I can understand why it feels like "oh wow I'm unknown and then on a random day thousands of ppl are talking about SOMEONE ELSE in my comments" I get why the first response is anger I rlly do.

But as humans especially GROWN ASS ADULTS you should be able to differentiate between what is beyond the control of another human and what they can control. since when can I or other members control what fans do? why is the hate turned to ME? when the only thing I did was talk abt how I love you as an artist. make it make sense bitch

at this point I'm scared of listening to music cause then I'm always thinking about "what if this person's an asshole irl" "what if they hate on me" and that's all thanks to disgusting reactions from people I loved <3 it would've been so easy to js be like “hey can y'all stop spamming I get it” and move tf on.

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and before y'all start saying "oh but that's just life" "that's how it is in the music industry not everyone's gonna support you" no shit? I'm not asking for them to support but it's so easy to just shut the heck up and move on. Why would an artist throw shade at another?? for clout?? do we have a personal beef??? I don't think so. especially underground artists bruh y'all js mad for no damn reason.

And i get it, our songs aren't meant for everyone, it's for a reason. Our style is heavily inspired by punk rock, underground music, rave style etc so it's not MEANT to please everybody so it's normal to get hated on and that's not what I'm mad abt I don't even want everyone to like what we do

but when I shoutout somebody or when I say "I rlly like this artist" and recommend their songs the bare minimum is to either acknowledge it and be like "yo thanks for the shout out" or if you genuinely don't give a fuck and don't like what I do then you IGNORE and shut the fuck up like damn it's not that hard tf???

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the fact that whenever I recommend artists and fans tell the artist about what I did the said artists shades on me or my group is very fucking disrespectful. Artist to Artist speaking this is genuinely disgusting like we are coworkers, I'm 18 and as a literal teenager I shouldn't be shaded by grown ass adults I literally LOOK UP TO. the fact that it happened twice really show why underground artists seems to stay UNDERGROUND ?? fix your attitude man we are all in the same bag as artists.. trying to live off our passion. Life is a cycle it always freaking repeats itself, whenever I look up to someone they deceive me. this hurts fr. That's how people start changing from nice to bad cause y'all so damn mean

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moooooooo

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lunch break 😋

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yuppppp

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