Colin was angry with Pen before this moment. But he was physically and emotionally hurt. She was reading his diary and he felt naked. She knew now a part of himself that he was trying so much to hide to the world and he felt betrayed. He started the diary to forget his loneliness, but now she reading it, make him to feel more lonely than ever.
Then, she touches him. She's taking care of him. She's always so kind. And she's too close, her skin, her smell, he's feeling warm. Like he always do when she's around. He can't grasp why.
But he likes this feeling. That's the reason because he always wants to be close to her. He doesn't feel alone when she's there. And she feels so soft, so he close his hand just to feel her a little more close to him.
He's not sure about what to do. His other hand moves close to hers without him even noticing. He needs to touch her with both of them. Being a little more closer. He doesn't have the courage to do so.
Pen talks about his writing and he really wants to know.
She's the only one person who he enjoyed to write. Her letters were always so personal, smart and sweet.
They made him feel like someone understood him. He could wrote to her about his thoughts and desires without hesitation. But then, the letters stopped and he felt so empty.
Pen says the writing it's very good and he feels like he melts.
He didn't know how much he wanted to hear that words. How much mean to him. Maybe she read the letters he sent to her after all.
He missed her. He missed her so much, he didn't even know how. His heart feels tight. So much that he gets a little scared.
Maybe she can see through him.
He remembers for the first time where he was. And breaks the bond between their hands. But he didn't like it. He feels alone again.
He needs to know if he's going to see her again.
He 'wants' to see her again.
And then when she goes he gets close to the diary and he feels a little surprised.
She looked a little embarrassed but not enough. Maybe what he wrote was interesting to her some way?
He's intrigued. She feels the same but somehow different. Like she changed. Maybe is more of Pen that he saw before?
Some parts of her that she doesn't let nobody knows. He's not the only one who hides himself. Perhaps they're more alike that he really noticed. He's curious.
He would see her again, tonight. She would be there and he would know.
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