Gone Girl @imsorryimurheadache - Tumblr Blog

“When I say I’m hard to love you won’t believe me. You’ll think they are self-deprecating words and merely a misunderstanding. That maybe I just don’t value myself enough. But that’s because when I say I’m hard to love I am not describing anything explosive. I do not mean that I will be screaming through my lungs or wielding weapons with my words. Rather, I will be patient and kind and lead you to believe in things that do not exist. Because when I say I’m hard to love I mean that I am a mirage. You will mistakenly think it only takes time for me to become something more. But no matter how hard you try you will not find what you are looking for.”

— Mirage, V.P.

crushed-and-shattered-mind

or vise versa

velicious09

“Trust issues suck. They are the absolute worst because you can never be happy. You can be happy for a few minutes and then all this anxiety takes over you and you start to get worried and think about all the bad things that could possibly happen. You can’t open up to people without worrying about them laughing at you behind your back or worrying about whether they like you as much as you like them. You’re constantly worried and thinking of the worst case scenarios and it sucks because it’s not the other persons fault. It’s the fault of the person before them who fucked you up.”

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emotionalabusesurvivors

Signs of Emotional Manipulation #6

Extreme independence.

Those who have experienced narcissistic parents or abusive partners might turn to extreme emotional independence as a form of self defence to protect from further abuse. Some may refer to it as “trust issues”. If you want to be alone and are scared of forming connections you might be an emotional abuse survivor.

ledellekequahtooway

diaryofaborderlineman

The sad truth is, I’ll never be able to believe anyone when they say they love me.

whatisthenormal

“Stop asking me to trust you when I’m still coughing up water from the last time you let me drown.”

— Unknown

So this is it, no more woe is me I'm just too tired. I can't really see beyond the smog, at this moment my future isn't looking too bright. Up until now my life has been nothing but mistakes, pain, and fuck ups. I've always been a burden I never could do anything right I'm stupid for not doing this earlier, I guess I had something to hold on to but I guess I was wrong. My mind has been deteriorating for years and no one really caught on, I wanted to fix things make things right but I guess I was too late cause now I have no one. No goals, not an ounce of purpose so what's the point? Keep living to keep fucking up, just to see how bad things can get for shits and giggles? 21 years have been long enough, my mind has been ran dry. No joy, no happiness, no positive outlooks on life because I already ruined it all. I'm worthless and there's nothing for me here. Sorry to go so soon but I can't take another day, I'm sorry ma, I love you and I wish I was there to tell you that more, sorry kirk lisa sarah kent kendrick lashay and da. I'm sorry to leave you guys with this burden but hopefully the few memories we had were good ones and to teresa fuck you.

#she goes quietly into the night #death note #no one cares #I needed help #crazy

sleazeburger

Sunset Strip Club

Soo I'm completely broke. No savings, no job, and no family who has a stack to hand out on a random afternoon. It's the end of the month and more bills are right around the corner. I'm already late for the phone bill so I might not have that in a couple of weeks. The only option I have to make money is grimy and I'm not about that life. A GofundMe would be another way but let's be real people well see those post laugh at how pathetic someone or just think it's a scam. I'm really stuck y'all and I don't know what to do. If rents late we have 5 days before an eviction notice, oh and even better my car got towed when I was out of town so it's almost $600 to take it out. I really don't know what to do.