"What Even Is This"

Adult Lady, legally anyway. Lover of Ghost. My blog is a mixed bag but I try to keep it interesting. Everyone's Welcome🖤

[imsuchahobbit]

🤷🏻‍♀️

[charliethinks]

me telling my best friend everything i would’ve loved to hear my whole life.

[nicostiel]

#I am unwell

[imsuchahobbit]

Huehuehue

Haven’t posted on here in a long time. Dunno if anyone will see this either, but hey! 

[brokenflicker]

"People don't like you when you're sad. People don't like when you're breaking down and asking for help. People don't like it when you cry and say you've had enough. People don't want to be around people that are sad and I guess that's just the nature of people. So if you ever find someone that cares about you enough to stay during the bad times, keep them. They're rare, and a lot of us are searching for these kind of people right now."

— A reminder to appreciate those who stuck by you during your lowest moments.

[smollghost]

It honestly hurts so bad.

[myblissfulsuicide]

Every time I chase happiness I come back worse than before.

[sa-dnesss]

[br-o-ken-poetry]

I've spent hours obsessing over why I'm not good enough. Hours lost, standing in front of the mirror, studying my face and wondering if it's because I'm not pretty enough. Reading back old conversations and wondering if I'm annoying, too needy, too much. Will anyone ever stick around? I try so hard, but I'm just never worth it in the end.

broken thoughts | 2am

[imsuchahobbit]

I hate that I have interests. That there are things that exist that bring me joy. That there are unique things about me. That I have a personality.

Why? Because you'd think these are things that other people would like about me but it's just crickets and being abandoned. 👌🏻

[imsuchahobbit]

When you're depressed and you express this to people you assume care for you and all they say is something like: "I'm sorry :/" and don't even try to understand you...then what?

[imsuchahobbit]

I literally could not care any less about myself

[wishing-for-deathx]

“I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.”

— your actions and words never match

[imsuchahobbit]

Every day is just one step closer

[imalreadyadeadbitch]

I’m a background character in everyone’s life. I’m not important to anyone. I don’t even matter.

[imsuchahobbit]

Feel like I mean nothing except there's one person who says they love me but I want nothing to do with it? What the fuck is wrong with me?

[imsuchahobbit]

(this is where I come to vent, btw)

That feeling of *thinking* you're special to somebody but then they make literally zero effort to maintain the relationship. 👌🏻

I don't understand it. Like, if I care about you, even as a friend, I let you know. I engage. So when it doesn't happen to *me* I automatically assume I mean nothing to you. 🤷🏻‍♀️