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| she/her |17| aspiring artist| I post a lot of phan stuff, espically phanart, including my own, since I've been trying to learn how to do this art thing. I love talking and meeting new people! Other blogs: virvelle (main art blog) smiles-and-shrugs (meme trash) personallygood (idk), heavyandwoa (me and my friends prompt blog) feel free to send in requests no promises though

[paramorpolly]

suka blyat

@danielhowell

[satise]

Trying out a semi-different style! (It’s transparent)

[deathclassic]

black and white

@danielhowell

[til-death-do-we-art]

proud 🖤💛

[valtoon]

"it gets so much better" - @danielhowell

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[anamericanbisexual]

In case you doubted how much Phil loves Dan...

So I’ve seen a lot of people talking about Phil’s coming out video and how it’s so casual and low-key, and how it’s obvious that he was just waiting until Dan came out to post it, but idk if people really understand what a big deal it is that Phil JUST posted it now, in 2019. Like ok, I’m 25 and a YouTube grandma, and I can go ahead and attest that in the early days of YouTube, coming out videos really weren’t a thing. YouTubers started out being primarily creative types. Even vloggers didn’t share a lot of genuinely personal info. There was kind of an open understanding that some people were Not Straight, but it wasn’t really a big deal until Troye Sivan made his coming out video in 2013. That WAS a big deal, because a lot of Troye’s fans were girls who had crushes on him, and he had been really closeted and pretty vocal about liking women right up until he posted the video. So post-2013 was really when the curtain fell and a lot of YouTubers became much more open about their personal lives. That was also when a lot of YouTubers felt like they had to make public “coming out” videos. There were a few (Tyler Oakley for example) who had been vocal enough about their sexuality from the beginning and never really made one specific “coming out” video, but most LGBTQ+ YouTubers did drop some sort of “sexuality announcement” in the early to mid 2010s. 

So with that being said, I don’t know how many people actually know this, but Phil was…kind of already out when he first started his channel. Like he said in his new video, he came out to his friends and family while he was at uni, which was when he started his channel, and he never really tried to hide his sexuality in those older videos (although most of those old videos are private now). Like a lot of YouTubers’ older content, Phil never really had one video where he was like “Hi, in this video, I’m going to explicitly tell you that I’m gay!”, but the friends he hung out with used to talk about dating, and it was always assumed that Phil was dating guys. I believe there’s also some old, old receipts of an ex-boyfriend talking about dating Phil. All of this was pre-Dan. (This also makes Dan sliding into Phil’s DMs make a lot more sense. He wasn’t taking a totally random long shot. Everyone who watched Phil kind of already knew that Phil liked guys.)

The original Phan shippers didn’t come from nowhere. OG AmazingPhil fans knew he was into guys, and Phil had this one guy who came to visit him in 2009, and then they moved in together, so everyone just kind of assumed they were dating and went on from there. It wasn’t until Dan’s semi-public “I’M NOT GAY” breakdown in 2012 that we all went, “Oh, ok. Whatever’s going on here is…private, and we really shouldn’t talk about it publicly.” I think there’s an obvious reason that Phil didn’t make a “coming out” video with all the other old-school LGBTQ+ YouTubers once that became expected. He knew that coming out publicly would automatically put the spotlight on Dan, and he wasn’t willing to do that. 

All of this to say, Phil didn’t wait to come out of the closet until 2019 because he was nervous, or didn’t want people to know. Phil started his YouTube channel already out of the closet. Phil WENT BACK INTO THE CLOSET for Dan. To make sure Dan was safe and protected and comfortable, Phil didn’t talk publicly about his sexuality for TEN YEARS. Whatever they are to each other now, whether platonic or romantic, that’s genuine love. When Dan says they’re soulmates, he’s not exaggerating. 

[psychicmoth]

and when i’m with you i turn all shades of pink 💖💜☁️

new header for @phandomficfests​ 🌸

🎨 click on the pics for better quality 🎨

[wispyphil-deactivated20200622]

[acutelesbian]

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

[fat-thin-skinny]

this fucks me up every single time

[acutelesbian]

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

[incaseyouart]

Something cheesy for Christmas~ 

[summerohnine]

2017 was dan’s year

2018 was phil’s year

2019 will be THEIR year

i don’t know about you, but i’m fucking ready.

[radiomoons-deactivated20181219]

@danielhowell, 12. 02.18

[liv-elylo-deactivated20200102]

dan and phil!

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This is currently available as stickers, mugs, prints, phone cases, notebooks, and more on my redbubble! Check here: http://www.redbubble.com/people/moaninghowell/shop …

[jellisnakes]

❣ INTERACTIVE INTROVERTS ❣ This picture?? amazing, i had to draw it <3 Please don’t repost my art! Reblogs and likes are appreciated! More art!  |Instagram |  Redbubble  | Twitter  | Ko-fi

[mayzuu]

After a long time of absence here’s a sketch of @danielhowell doing a weird pose

[beginblu]

🍃 we stan a plant dad 🌱

[scifiphan]

oh you’re so pretty