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『a girl who always keep her problem but smiles to world』

[imtheanonymousgirl]

Being a FA is not easy, when my friends manage to be with someone they like but me just sitting around crushing on someone that couldn't be mine.

I'm not sure if I afraid of someone new in my life or I'm afraid that I couldn't give the same effort, its not that I never open myself up to anyone but each person who try to get know me is a creep.

I just want to know someone normal, who I can share my feeling with, who I'm comfortable talk with bcs I know myself. I am someone who get annoyed faster then I thought, I am someone who shut people wheb I have my problem and I never share my problem with people not even my close friends.

But I really should stop crushing on someone who never going to be mine, just focus on myself first right.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

6 years ago, I fall for him when I enter college and 2 years later I move on and fall in love with my first love. I broke my heart and it was empty and again I fall for him again after 4 years.

And today for the very first time I meet him (coincidentally) after 4 years, funny I still can recognise him with a mask, bet him will recognise me lol. But I feel shy so I turn over when we pass each other. I was thinking to move on this few day, I think meeting him again might be a signal for me to move on with him. I'm just not the right or his type of girl.

Maybe one day I will found someone who I love and someone who love the truly me. Because if I can't accept myself, why should people accept me. I need to learn love myself first before love someone else.

I guess this is the final story of him. Capital A - sayonara.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

One year passed

It's been one year that you met your soulmate and soon to be your wife. It's been a hard journey for me to move on for the past six month, seeings both of you in front of me, seeings you in her status. Being your friend and her friend. But I still force myself to forget you and I did it. I move on by hating you, hate the way you think, the way you talk about work. Until one day when I wake up I feel nothing about you, when I saw you around or she around I don't feel hurt anymore. I wish you a lifetime of love and happiness. And hopefully I will found my soulmate who love me the way I am.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

3 am

I don't know what happen to me, am I feel to lonely that I fall again to my crush (before my first love). I used to have crush on random guys but some of them had me crush over years. You know what I once confess to my crush during high school and he ghost me afterward and that make me scared to confess to anyone. When I enter college, I feel awkward with boys bcs I growing up in all girls school. But I fall into this one guy, I don't dare to talk to him. Just watch from far and talk about him with my friends. When I enter work, I start to push myself to forget this crush and I like other guy and he is regular at our store and I even talk a few times & taking picture with him. Then I back to college and meet him again, I fall again but I try not to. After graduate, I start work and that's when I meet him, my first love. The one that make my heart broke, but it's all my fault bcs I put all my heart into him meanwhile he just be a good friend of me. Then I force myself to do things that can make me forget about him, and I finally move on but I don't know why that I fall again to my college crush? I know that he already have a gf (his story). I need something to distract me or make me move on and you know not fall into a deep ocean that make my heart break again. I found its hard for me to move on once I fall for that person, I might just search for new crush so that I won't think about him (kinda) but my heart is already broke in pieces that it's hard for me to love anyone else in this moment, that's why I fall for the same person that I once like?

[imtheanonymousgirl]

The psycho

Hi, I just want to share about this one guy who I just met. So I met him at work, and he sending items to my store. I know his company well but first time meeting him so I assumed he is newbie in company and come to my store for training, and I in-charge of his company that time, I even act professional and he keep asking me questions which is

Are you married (me : no - still young)

How old are you (me : 23yrs old) *he is one year younger than me*

If you have money then you can get married (me : I don't even have a bf)

So how can I apply to be one? (me : *remain silence)

So after the he left I laugh bcs I think the question is funny (last one) bcs I'm not an attractive girl or slim & pretty girl. I told my friend about this story and one of them is incharge of this company, and that stupido person wanted to imposed me by getting that guy number & even sell my phone number to him.

Later that night he text me but I didn't reply (I was watching cinema with my friend) and he even calling me (which I didn't answer bcs I put my phone in silence). He give me text like - why don't we get to know each other, why are you shy (not replying his text) something like that, so I reply by saying I'm @ cinema etc. And the conversation end there which I didn't reply his next text. And here we go when he try so hard to get my attention- text me "good morning ❤" and again I ghost him bcs I'm not in a good mood. Day 3, he reply to my status and say good morning and again same question which is "don't you want to get to know me" something like that, and even take picture of my work place saying "i miss you" and I ghost him all day but my friend said why are you ghost him, reply him something so I reply to him saying that I just want to be a friend (no more than that) and I also not in mood of meeting someone new in my life. And the way he reply is kind of positive but suddenly start to share about his broken relationship for 5 yrs and like saying he not putting any hope in this relationship (me & him - bullsht).

Day 4, the most scary day ever happen, this is the 2nd time I meet him but this time I actually dodge him, but he still found me and say hi (just that). And later that day I celebrate my friend bday and post it on my status. And suddenly he reply to my status saying that - "Can we plan our marriage " like wtf? Are you saying? I like know you for like 4/5 days and didn't even give you any hint of I like you or something and suddenly you ask mw to marry you? Are you insane?! And I just reply to him that I didn't even have feelings towards him and just take him as a friend. But I get really scared of this type of person so I delete his number and blocked him, but I still scared that I met him @ my work but I told my friends about this, hopefully nothing bad happen.

I already badly curse to friend who sold my number to that guy

[imtheanonymousgirl]

3 days into new year - am I getting close to moving on? I don't know if I already moving on from him or not but one thing that I'm sure that I keep myself busy to focus on myself rather then him. Sometimes it's hurting seeing him and his girlfriend in front of me but it's nothing I guess. I distance myself from him and try not to think about him. Just hoping that 2021 will be a new start for me

[causepeoplearelesshappymoresad]

[imtheanonymousgirl]

I'm tired of crying over the same things. I'm tired of crying over the same guy. I'm tired of keep falling in the same zone. But I know that this heart breaks is not a deep as the first time, I think this time I can move on from you. I know that you consider me as close friend, the one that always be there for you when you need it but do you ever realise that the reason I keep staying beside you not only because of we are friends but also because I love you. I know that you still love the girl but now with the third party coming into the story make me breaking down again. Someone I know, someone I dearest likes you 🙂 I will always pray for you, meet you love of life, someone that will love who you are and help you out when you in trouble. But its our relationship (friends) will be remain the same? I can be your friend but I think that it will be different, because I'm the girl that once liked you and I bet either each of the girl that soon to be your girlfriend won't like me to stay beside you, am I wrong? But I just want to say that I love you and I will always be here supporting every decision you makes. Breaking my heart is a little thing because I'm already broken.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

Crush

I am tired of crying over love

I am tired of crying over the same person

I am tired of crying over the same reason

Why did I fallen to him?

Why did I keep falling into the same situation?

Why did I put my heart for him?

And why I can't move on from him?

[imtheanonymousgirl]

Hye, I'm back and this time is the time to say goodbye to my first love. So today I talk with my crush and he say to me that he already got what he want which is that girl (his crush). So when I heard about that I don't know if I need to cry or be mad or jealous but honestly when I heard that I didn't feel anything, even my heart is not hurt anymore. You know I been chasing him for 1 years++ now and since this year I start to build the wall in my heart and start to not putting any hope, I thought that I didn't make it since I keep being clingy towards him but who knows that my heart is no longer with me (heartless people said?). I been waiting for this moment when he finally admit that he had a relationship with the girl and I got it. Thank you for being my first love and my friend. I hope that we still be friends after this :)

I try to cry like be heartbroken because my first love found his love but its won't come out. I guess I already letting him go, move on to be precisely.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

You know sometimes when we love someone we don't want them to worried about us so we always told that person that we are okey. Everyone have their own problem, I know that as couple you need to share problem but when if that person think that sharing a problem actually burden the person that they shared with. People can be overthink, if I share with her/him will they like it? They also have their own problem right why should I add my problem into her/his life. But I learn that being a couple is accept your partner fully; either it was his/her flaw or advantage. We need to share problems to each other so that we could understand each other. We need to communicate to improve the relationship and make it better.

[imtheanonymousgirl]

Hey you,

I don't know if you notice that I been distance myself from you lately? Yeah we still talking but not how often we used to be or how intimate we used to get. I just feeling that you need times for yourself and I need time for myself to move on, I wish I could. I being putting alot of scenario in my mind.. thinking that you have a gf right now so I should moving on and stay away from you or thinking about I might be annoyed to you for being myself and I should stop doing that. I try alot of ways to stop thinking about you, yeah most of the times I would forget about you but everytime people talk about you, ask about you or before I go to sleep I would definitely thinking about you. I don't know what happen to me, am I falling in love with you? I know that I like you for more than 1 years now, my bad because I couldn't draw the border, I'm falling for your kindness and silliness. I just want to let you know that I miss you, I miss talking with you like how we used to be. Are things really not going to be the same anymore? Am I really change?

[imtheanonymousgirl]

Move on?

So I had a crush on my co-worker, I start to like him since the first time that we met and I actually go and approach him, ask for his phone number and chat with him everyday but later on I find out that he had a crush which is one of our co-worker so I decide to forget my feeling but that girl quit the job and he feel so misrable that he didt get to confess to the girl. So I keep chatting him and hoping that I might get a chance to win his heart but he just so fcking heartless that he only treat me as friend. I hate myself for overthinking that he going to like me, I hate myself for not looking at myself on how different he and me (he is a handsome guy while im a ugly fat potato) I try to moving on from him but I just cant. Can someone give a tips on how to forget him or make my feeling toward him decrease, at least im not hurting myself anymore

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