The Polaroid was stuck between a cracked smartphone screen and a bundle of old concert tickets. I pulled it free, the white border yellowed at the edges, and stared at the image frozen there. Grainy. Overexposed in the poor dorm room lighting. A crowded room. Bodies pressed together. The distinctive chaos of a night I hadn’t thought about in years.
I turned it over. Someone had scrawled a date on the back in faded blue ink. Hunter’s birthday. Senior year.
My chest tightened. The memory rushed back like water through a broken dam.
Hunter had come out to us after spring break of our junior year. We’d been sitting in Davis’s apartment, passing a blunt around, when he just blurted it out. “I’m bi.” The words hung in the air for maybe three seconds before Emmett punched him in the shoulder and said, “Yeah, we know, dude. You wouldn’t stop checking that guy out in Ft. Lauderdale last week. You were in the bathroom with him for a suspiciously long time.” Everyone laughed. Hunter laughed too, this relieved sound, and that was that. Our school wasn’t exactly overflowing with out LGBTQ students, but Hunter was popular. He played pickup basketball in the rec center and actually showed up to parties. He still pulled more girls than most of us. Most of us didn’t give a shit if he wanted to bring home a guy occasionally. He was still Hunter.
The birthday planning happened a few weeks before he turned twenty-two that fall. We’d commandeered a corner booth at O'Malley’s, pitchers of cheap beer staining the scarred wood between us, arguing about what to do. The conversation kept circling back to the same suggestions—a bar crawl, maybe a house party, the usual shit we did every weekend.
“I just want to hang out,” Hunter said, shrugging. “Order some pizza, play video games, whatever. Just a chill night with you guys.”
The table erupted in boos. Emmett threw a peanut at him. “Bullshit. You can’t have a chill birthday. You’re supposed to go wild, bro.”
“It doesn’t have to be crazy to be memorable,” Hunter said, but he was grinning, shaking his head at us. He checked his phone and stood up. “I gotta bail. Early shift tomorrow. But seriously—nothing insane, okay? I mean it.”
He left before we could argue. The table went quiet for a minute, the noise of the bar filling the gap.
“We should do something big,” Emmett said. “Something he’ll never forget.”
“We could hire a stripper,” Daryl suggested.
“Yeah, and who’s got the money for that?” Gio shook his head. “The strippers around here aren’t even that hot. It ain’t worth it.”
The conversation drifted. I was halfway through my fourth beer when Emmett leaned forward, his elbows on the table, a strange glint in his eyes.
“What about a sex party?”
Everyone laughed. “Right,” I said. “What girl is gonna agree to that?”
Emmett’s smile didn’t waver. “Who said anything about girls?”
The laughter died. We stared at him.
“I mean a gay sex party,” Emmett said, like he was explaining something obvious. “For Hunter. To help everyone embrace that side of his sexuality.”
“Bro, what?” Daryl sat back. “You want us to—what, hook up with guys? In front of each other?”
“I know some guys who’d be down to service a bunch of straight dudes,” Emmett continued, his voice casual. Like he was suggesting where to order pizza from. “They think it’s hot. The whole ‘turning’ fantasy or whatever. Plus, Hunter gets to have fun, everyone gets a free blowjob if they want it. Win-win. A memorable night and we don’t have to spend a dime, except on beer.”
“You know gay guys who’d be down for that?“ I asked.
Emmett just smiled. Drained his beer. “Of course, I know a lot of people.”
We probably should have questioned it more. Later I would think about what that meant—what it said about Emmett, about what he’d done before, about why he was so ready with this idea. But the beer had soaked into my brain, fuzzy and warm, and everyone else was nodding along, laughing, already planning.
We agreed to it. All of us, drunk and stupid and convinced this would be hilarious and insane and something we’d talk about forever.
The week crawled by. Emmett handled the logistics—he wouldn’t tell us where he found the guys, just that they were “reliable” and “into it.” We all pretended we weren’t nervous. Made jokes about it. Talked a big game about who was gonna do what, daring each other to cross the line.
Hunter’s birthday fell on a Friday. His last class ended at four. We had the apartment ready by three.
It was a shitty college apartment—one of those cookie-cutter complexes with cinderblock walls and carpets that held the stain of every spilled drink from the last decade. Hunter shared it with some random guy none of us had managed to get to know, who’d conveniently found somewhere else to be that afternoon. The living room was just big enough for the worn couch, a coffee table, and an end table with a lamp that cast everything in yellow light. We’d pushed the furniture to the edges to create space. Stocked the fridge with beer. Set up speakers in the corner.
The two guys Emmett had hired showed up at three-thirty. I opened the door and found them standing in the hallway, shifting from foot to foot.
The first one was tall, lean, with short dark hair that fell on his forehead. He wore a fitted tank top and jeans so tight I could see the outline of his package. His name was Derek, and he smiled like he knew exactly what effect he had on people.
The second one was shorter, compact, with a swimmer’s build and sandy hair. His name was Kevin, and he bounced on his heels the whole time we talked, like he couldn’t wait to get started.
“So,” Derek said, looking past me into the apartment. “Big group?”
“Seven of us. Plus the birthday boy.” I stepped aside to let them in. “You guys, uh, done this before?”
Derek’s smile widened. “Once or twice. Emmett’s a friend.”
I filed that information away and didn’t ask follow-up questions.
Kevin was already stripping off his shirt. “Where do you want us?”
The next hour was a blur of last-minute preparations. Emmett directed everything—the music, the lighting, where the guys should stand when Hunter walked in. Derek and Kevin stripped completely naked, their clothes folded in a neat pile by the door. I tried not to stare, but it was impossible not to notice that they were both hard already. Derek was hung—maybe eight inches, thick, with a slight curve. Kevin was smaller but still impressive, cut and smooth, his balls tight against his body.
They were decently attractive guys. Fit, well-groomed, clearly comfortable in their skin. I wondered again how Emmett knew them, what history there was, but the thought scattered when Hunter texted that he was on his way back. We had convinced him we were doing a bar crawl that night and would pick him up at 8 to pregame.
“Positions,” Emmett said, and we all scrambled.
The lights went dim. The music switched off. Derek and Kevin stood on either side of the door, naked, holding beers like it was the most normal thing in the world.
Hunter’s key scraped in the lock. The door swung open.
We all shouted it at once. Hunter stood frozen in the doorway, his backpack slipping off one shoulder, his eyes wide. They darted from the streamers we’d hung to the balloons to the naked men on either side of him, and his mouth opened and closed without sound.
“Happy birthday, buddy.” I said when I caught his surprised gaze. “We got you a present.”
Derek stepped forward, pressing the beer into Hunter’s hand. “Hey there, birthday boy.” His voice was low, rough. “Why don’t you come inside and let us take care of you?”
Kevin circled around behind Hunter, running a hand up his arm. “We’ve been waiting for you.”
Hunter laughed—this nervous, breathless sound—but he let them guide him into the room. The door swung shut behind him.
The next few minutes were chaos. Someone turned up the music. Someone else handed Hunter a shot and then another one. Derek and Kevin pressed against him from either side, their hands roaming over his chest, his hips, the bulge growing in his jeans.
“You’re tense,” Derek murmured against Hunter’s ear. “Let us help with that.”
They guided him to the couch, pushed him down into the worn cushions. I grabbed a beer from the fridge and found a spot against the wall, my eyes fixed on the scene unfolding. Everyone else had found their own positions—some standing, some sitting on the pushed-aside furniture, all watching.
Derek straddled Hunter’s lap first. He was completely naked, his hard cock pressing against Hunter’s clothed stomach, and he rolled his hips in a slow grind. Hunter’s hands came up to rest on Derek’s thighs, his fingers digging into the muscle there.
Kevin appeared beside them with more shots. He fed one to Hunter, then one to Derek, then took one himself. The alcohol ran down Hunter’s chin, and Kevin leaned in to lick it off.
“Damn, that’s hot,” someone said. I think it was Gio.
The lap dance went on for another song. Derek was skilled—his body moved like liquid, his ass grinding against Hunter’s crotch in a way that had the birthday boy panting. Kevin stayed close, his hands roaming, his mouth leaving wet kisses along Hunter’s neck and jaw.
Then Derek slid off Hunter’s lap and sank to his knees on the floor between his spread legs. He looked up through his lashes, and without breaking eye contact, reached up to undo Hunter’s belt.
Hunter nodded. His throat worked. “Yeah. Yeah, okay.”
Derek made quick work of the button and zipper. He tugged Hunter’s jeans down to his ankles, then his boxer briefs, freeing the hard cock that sprang up against his stomach. Hunter was big—not as thick as Derek but longer, with a slight upward curve and a flushed head already leaking.
“Nice,” Derek said, and then he leaned forward and swallowed Hunter to the root.
Hunter’s head fell back against the couch. “Oh shit—”
“Damn, these fags are good.” That was definitely Gio, and I looked over in time to see Emmett smack the shorter guy upside the head. I shook my head and laughed as I returned back to the hot scene unfolding in front of me.
Kevin had moved to Hunter’s side, his mouth attaching to the exposed skin of his neck, his hand joining Derek’s at the base of Hunter’s cock. Derek pulled off with a wet pop, then licked a long stripe up the underside before taking him deep again.
I shifted against the wall. My own jeans were getting tight. I wasn’t the only one—I could see the outlines of hard cocks in pants all around the room, guys adjusting themselves, trying to find a comfortable position.
The scene was obscene. Wet sounds filled the air, mixed with Hunter’s increasingly desperate moans. Derek was talented, his throat relaxing to take Hunter deep, his tongue working the shaft on every pull back. Kevin sucked a bruise into Hunter’s neck while his hand played with Hunter’s balls, rolling them in his palm.
But then a voice cut through the noise.
I looked over. Gio again—skinny, hairy, a permanent five o'clock shadow on his jaw—was standing with his arms crossed, a petulant expression on his face. “Birthday boy gets all the action? What about the rest of us?”
Emmett, who’d been directing traffic all night, stepped forward. He was good at this—I was starting to understand that. He knew how to manage a room, how to keep things moving.
“Kevin,” Emmett said. “Why don’t you help our other guests?”
Kevin looked up from Hunter’s neck, his lips swollen and red. He grinned. “With pleasure.”
He crawled across the floor toward the rest of us, and I watched as he made his way to Gio first. He knelt in front of him, reached for his shorts.
“Don’t mind if I do,” Gio said, his voice cracking slightly.
Derek kept working Hunter’s cock, and I found myself drawn back to them. Hunter was fully hard now, his shaft glistening with spit, his hips twitching up into Derek’s mouth. But he was quiet. His eyes were open, fixed on some point on the ceiling, and he brought his drink to his lips for another sip. I watched his throat work as he swallowed.
He seemed… distant. Not disconnected exactly, but not fully present either. I told myself he was just nervous. It was his first time doing anything like this—getting head from a stranger, a dude, while all his straight friends watched. Anyone would be overwhelmed.
I let my gaze drift back to Derek. He was worshipping Hunter’s cock now, his movements slow and deliberate. He’d pull off until just the head remained in his mouth, swirl his tongue around it, then sink down inch by inch until his nose pressed against Hunter’s trimmed pubes. His hands stroked what his mouth wasn’t swallowing, his other hand cupping and massaging Hunter’s balls. The sounds were wet and slick, punctuated by Derek’s muffled moans of appreciation.
I shifted again. My cock was straining against my zipper now, and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I reached down to adjust myself, my hand pressing against the length of my erection through my jeans.
“You want some help with that?”
I looked down. Kevin had made his way over to me, his mouth still wet from servicing Gio, whose hard cock still hung out of his pants a few feet away.
“Come on.” Kevin’s fingers were already at my belt. “It’s a party. Let me make you feel good.”
I let him. I told myself it was just the atmosphere, the beer, the sheer overwhelming strangeness of the situation. But the truth was simpler—I was hard and he was willing and I wanted to feel something.
Kevin’s mouth was warm and wet. He took me deep right away, no teasing, and I let my head fall back against the wall. My hands found his hair, tangling in his locks as he worked.
But my eyes stayed on Hunter.
Derek had climbed back into Hunter’s lap, and they were making out now—deep, filthy kisses, tongue and teeth, Derek’s hard cock grinding against Hunter’s spit-slick shaft. Derek’s hands were in Hunter’s hair, tilting his head back for better access. Hunter’s hands were on Derek’s ass, squeezing the cheeks, pulling him closer.
“Fuck him,” someone chanted. Then someone else picked it up. “Fuck him, fuck him, fuck him!”
Derek pulled back from the kiss, breathless. He looked at Hunter with raised eyebrows. “You heard them. Wanna put this cock inside me?”
Hunter swallowed. “Yeah. Yeah, okay.”
Derek stood, then turned around and bent over the end table, bracing his hands on the surface. His ass was perfect—round and firm, spreading slightly to expose his hole. Kevin, still on his knees between my legs, reached into his pocket and pulled out a small bottle of lube, tossing it to Emmett.
Emmett caught it and passed it to Hunter. “No condoms tonight, boys. Raw only.”
Everyone cheered. Someone clapped. I watched Hunter slick up his fingers and press one into Derek’s hole, opening him up. Derek moaned and pushed back against the intrusion.
“More,” Derek said. “I can take it.”
Hunter added another finger, then another in quick succession, working Derek open with a focus I hadn’t seen from him all night. And then he lined up his cock, pressed the head against Derek’s entrance, and pushed inside.
The room erupted. Guys were cheering, clapping Hunter on the back, patting his ass as he sank deeper. Someone handed him another drink. The bass from the speakers throbbed in time with Hunter’s thrusts.
I watched for a few more minutes, Kevin still working my cock with his talented mouth, but something was nagging at me. Hunter was fucking Derek with a steady rhythm, his hips snapping forward, his hands gripping Derek’s waist. But his face was blank. His eyes were distant. And when someone moved to take Derek’s mouth, Hunter didn’t seem to notice.
I pulled Kevin off my cock and tucked myself back into my pants. “I need another drink,” I muttered, and moved toward the kitchen.
That’s when Hunter pulled out to give someone else a turn inside Derek’s ass. For a bunch of straight guys, everyone was getting into it now. Someone immediately filled the empty space Hunter left and Kevin was now cycling between three different dicks. The guys all hanging on to each other’s shoulders and tapping their beer bottles together in celebration.
Hunter snuck out the door while everyone was engrossed in their own fun.
I waited a beat. Then I followed.
The deck off this floor of the building was small, just enough space for a couple of lawn chairs and a rusted grill. Hunter was standing at the railing, his back to his apartment, his shoulders tense. The night air was cold—spring hadn’t fully committed yet—and his breath fogged in front of him.
I stepped outside, letting the door fall shut behind me. “Hey.”
He didn’t turn around. “Hey.”
“Not enjoying your party?”
He laughed, but it was hollow. “Nah, man. It’s great.”
I moved to stand beside him, leaning against the railing. The parking lot lights cast an orange glow over everything, making his face look drawn and tired. “Are they not your type or something?”
“Nah, man, that was hot.” He sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I just—” Another sigh. Frustrated this time. “Normally—” He struggled, the words not coming. “That’s just not how I usually do it. Or something.”
He looked away, embarrassed.
My friend preferred to be on the receiving side of things. All the gay guys in that room were bottoms—born bottoms, eager to take cock, desperate to be filled. And while they were fun to watch, skilled at what they did, none of them could give Hunter what he actually needed.
He wanted to be fucked. He wanted someone to take care of him, to open him up, to make him feel the way those guys inside were feeling.
“I’m sorry, man.” The words came out rough. “We shoulda asked you what you like first.”
“No, no, it’s fine.” Hunter’s voice was tight. “I’m having fun.”
“Don’t be like that.” I stepped closer. “It’s your birthday. I want it to be perfect.”
He looked up at me. Shy. Uncertain. Hopeful.
Something shifted between us. A recognition. A question asked and answered without words.
I moved behind him. Pressed my chest against his back. My hands found his hips, then slid around to his stomach, pulling him flush against me. He gasped when he felt my cock—still hard, still wanting—press against his ass.
“Let me give you what you need,” I murmured against his ear.
He shivered. “We can't—out here—”
I didn’t answer. Instead, I pushed him forward, bending him over the railing. His hands gripped the rusty metal, his knuckles white. I yanked his jeans down, exposing his ass to the cold night air, and dropped to my knees behind him.
He did. His hands reached back, pulling his cheeks apart, and I leaned in to run my tongue over his hole.
He made a sound—something between a gasp and a moan. “Oh fuck—”
I ate his ass like I was starving. My tongue circled his rim, pressing against the tight muscle, working it loose. I was surprised how natural if felt to me. I licked into him, fucking him with my tongue, tasting the sweat and musk of his body. He pushed back against my face, desperate for more, his moans getting louder with every pass of my tongue.
I pulled back. Stood. Pressed my chest against his back again. “Let’s get out of here,” I said against his ear. “We can head to my place.”
We stumbled back down the hallway, past Hunter’s apartment where the orgy was in full swing. I poked my head in as we passed—Derek still on his hands and knees, taking two cocks at once. Kevin sandwiched between three guys, taking one in the ass while jacking and kissing the other two in front of him. And in the corner, Gio on his knees for Emmett, his face buried in Emmett’s pubes, his hand fisting his own cock furiously.
If I had to bet, Gio was definitely going to end up taking Emmett’s impressive length up his ass before the night was over—but I couldn’t stay to watch.
I had a birthday boy to take care of.
My room was a few buildings over. We practically jogged there. I guided Hunter inside, locked the door behind us, and finally—finally—took my time with him.
I laid him out on my bed, stripped him bare, and worshipped every inch of his body. I kissed his mouth, his neck, his chest. I bit his nipples until he whimpered. I sucked bruises into his inner thighs before licking into his hole again, opening him up with my tongue and fingers until he was begging.
“Fuck,” he said. “Fuck, fuck, fuck—you gotta fuck me—”
I slicked up my cock—no condom, just like Emmett said—and pressed inside him.
He was tight. So fucking tight. His body resisted at first, clenching around me, but I went slow. Inch by inch, letting him adjust, until I was buried to the hilt.
“Fuuuuuck me,” he gasped. “Please—”
I pulled out and snapped my hips forward.
The sound he made was broken. Desperate. Beautiful.
I fucked him slow at first, finding a rhythm, letting him feel every inch of me. His hands scrambled for purchase on my sheets, his head thrown back, his neck exposed and straining. I leaned down to bite at the skin there, marking him, claiming him.
“Harder,” he begged. “Please—more—”
I gave him what he needed. I fucked him harder, faster, my hips pistoning into him, my balls slapping against his ass. The bed frame creaked with every thrust. The headboard banged against the wall. Neither of us cared.
We went all night. I came inside him twice, both times filling him up, feeling my release leak out around my spent cock. He came three times—once from my hand, and twice from my cock alone, his orgasm crashing through him so hard he’d go limp and exhausted afterwards.
After, we lay tangled together, sweat cooling on our skin, his head on my chest.
I wondered if the party was still going back at his apartment. I wondered if Gio had taken Emmett’s dick yet, if any of my other friends had gone that far together.
“Happy birthday,” I murmured against Hunter’s hair.
He laughed—soft, genuine this time. “Thanks.” A pause. “This was definitely better than a chill night.”
“Yeah.” He tilted his head up to look at me. “Maybe next year we can skip the surprise party and go straight to this part.”
I kissed him instead of answering. We had time to figure out what this meant—what we were to each other now. Tomorrow we’d go back to being friends, to the easy rhythm of our lives. But tonight, he was mine. And I’d made sure his birthday was perfect.
Emmett had passed around the polaroids the next day and we all laughed about how crazy the night had gone. No one asked where Hunter and I had disappeared to but Emmett kept giving me searching looks that day. I just shrugged my shoulders.
I kept one polaroid for myself, one of Hunter. Not because it captured the orgy or the chaos or the insanity of that night. But because it captured the moment before—when we were all still innocent, still pretending we were just a group of friends throwing a party.
Everything changed after that night. Not just for me and Hunter. Gio and Emmett started hooking up regularly though Gio would deny it to his last breath. I caught them fucking in a bar bathroom one time and Emmett just winked at me and continued plowing the man in front of him. Daryl admitted he’d always been curious. Tyler and Davis never talked about what they did in that room, but something passed between them whenever they saw each other—a look, a tension, an unspoken secret.
The photo stayed in my drawer for years. I forgot about it, then found it again, then forgot again. But every time I looked at it, I remembered everything. The noise, the chaos, the overwhelming sensory overload of that night. And the quiet after—the two of us alone in my room, the world reduced to the space between my sheets.
It was the craziest night of my life. But it was also the beginning of something I never saw coming. Something that started with a birthday party and ended with a picture I couldn’t bring myself to throw away.
I put the Polaroid back in the box. Closed the lid. And let the memory settle back into the dark, where it belonged.
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