Random Fandom & Other Boring Crap

Beth She/Her (I totally have the personality on a dude) Too old for this shit (But young enough to deal with it anyway) I like random crap, cats, & avoiding people (I swear I'm not a crazy cat lady 🤞)

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“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”

— Kurt Vonnegut

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So... I quit taking my meds for a while & went off the deep end... I'm also going back to college now that I'm medicated again, so that's fun...

I swear that I want to finish OST. I have to figure out how to get my outline off my old dead laptop, but I'll work on it. Idk when I'll have time, but I'll figure it out.

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That moment you realize the medicine you take to stay sane has taken away your desire to create...

I'm more stable than I've been in years, but I don't want to write, or draw, or just...dream...

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When you see on Tumblr there's some new gallavich fics you want to read but you've wandered down a 60 chapter drarry rabbit hole & you wanna know how it ends...

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My brain: You need to write, you've got these stories planned, get them finished

Also my brain: Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

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Drarry & Gallavich are the same mood...

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Them: Why aren't you active ilon social media? Me:

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A soulmate AU where its not the FIRST thing they said that's tattooed on your body, but a random quote where they're trying to confess their love...

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*pops up out of nowhere*

What if, the time jump for Stranger Things 5 is backwards, not forward. The upside down is still in 1983 for a reason...

What if it goes back so it didn't happen...

What if it never really happened at all...

*disappears back into the netherworld*

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Uh... Hi? It's Beth, the sad potato...

So, I've been away. My depression has been, just, bad. Like, I'm not sure how to describe it bad. I finally got a proper diagnosis though; major depressive disorder, chronic & episodic, with melancholy personality disorder. I also have minor manic episodes, but theyre not severe enough to be bipolar. Although they have me on bipolar meds. It's been rough.

But im here now (not sure how long though) & I'm going to try to write again & find something that brings me joy. Maybe. There's a possibility that joy is currently unattainable, but I'm gonna try.

I'm going through my OST notes, & I'm gonna have to start over from where I left off. I've made an absolute mess of this while I was in a mood.

I'm not sure if anyone is still there but if there is, I haven't meant to leave you hanging. I'm sorry & I hope you have an awesome day/night/whatever time you're reading this.

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Me: I think my obsession with Shameless is going away & it makes me sad...

My SO: You have a sticker on your phone that says "Fuck you you fuckin fuck" & your text notification is Mickey Milkovich saying "fuck you" & you said this was your *third* time reading through all 128 pages of that fan fiction crap you're into & you wear your "I'm a Gallagher" shirt almost every single day 🤨

Me: 😬😬😬

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gallavich playlist 2/?

song - the hills by the weeknd

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My library just got one of my fav books in audio on Libby. Oh my happy place...

Now, if they'd just get The Chronicles of the Imagninarium Geographica series my life would be complete.

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Them: I'm not good at adulting.

Me: I'm not good at humaning...

Yeah...