poetry or whatever

[infiniteinfans]

I come here every now and then.

I'm at a funeral for someone who has let me down

Time and again.

I guess that shit probably never really ends.

So I'm just checking in

To remind myself of what I had.

I buried my worst and the best is dead.

I'm not who I want to be,

But neither is he.

[infiniteinfans]

Next To You

Shadows of expired night grow into flames at dawn, slow dancing across her beauty like the moon upon ocean waves. Day light delicately touches those perfect lips with its warmth, and she winces softly at the birth of the rising sun. Gentle contortions of her face at stars decay are ethereal when seen through eyes that are blind to her flaws.

Her skin is a phantom that my fingertips long to appease, and the memory of our touch resides where seconds last an eternity. So I’ll hold her tightly like a photograph that keeps a perfect feeling safe from time, and I’ll breathe deeply the scent of her skin that blooms inside of me. Death can tug it’s strings and pull me away, but my smile will never fade from this day.

Wrapped in you, wrapped in me, with the sunlight illuminating everything. Her eyes finally open to the new day, and when she speaks to me, all the things I thought were perfect become as real as anything.

[infiniteinfans]

Getting lost with Infinite Jest

[infiniteinfans]

I'm perfectly capable of ruining my own life, thank you very much

[infiniteinfans]

coffee too hot for mouth let’s it cool coffee too cold to drink microwaves coffee repeats process endlessly

[infiniteinfans]

Misery Moves On

Why should I write about my broken heart when all I want is to rip it out and throw it at the only person it beats for, but you’d let it fall, and never look back.

You’ve already covered yourself in my blood, so I’ll keep my heart and make it forget how to beat for you.

I’ll torture it with white lines and smoke and cleanse it of you in an ocean of cheap booze.

I’ll keep my heart and hurt it myself just to keep it safe from you.

[infiniteinfans]

"Burning every bridge that I cross to find some beautiful place to get lost" -Elliott Smith

[infiniteinfans]

This is where I live.

[infiniteinfans]

Hey, I play drums in a rock n’ roll band. Check it out!

[infiniteinfans]

[insane-doctor-deactivated202103]

[infiniteinfans]

Our Garden

I’ve never loved the way I did with you, and now I’m looking at the ceiling creating a future where the flowers that you filled my garden with perish into cracked and bruised petals that I’ll smash into a notebook as a reminder that even when the emptiness is heaviest there is color and beauty like nothing else.

Maybe it’ll keep me going, and next time my garden will be cared for by more than half of a heart, more than a part-time lover, more than anything you could offer with week long absences where you catered to other gardens because my soil wasn’t as far along or rich as theirs.

Our garden was either dying of thirst or flooding the earth around it. You could only love me or ignore me and I could only do one of those things, until now. It won’t be long before our garden is dead and you fill someone else with your life. I’m happy for you and I’m happy for them but our garden turns into my desert.

I’m alone, and I’m afriad that will never end

[illicitwords-deactivated2019011]

I miss the people that were once near and dear and are now far away. The people that brought an abundance of sunshine into my life are no longer even distant rays. And that brings me immense sadness because all I want to know is how they like their coffee these days. Some people will come and go, and I’m still learning how to say goodbye as graceful as a sunset does every evening.

[infiniteinfans]

Blood and Cocaine

I'm sitting in a hammock with blood and cocaine in my nose. Just searching for a place in my head where you don't exist. The clouds are changing, maybe I can too.

[infiniteinfans]

"The Beautiful Poem" by Richard Brautigan

[infiniteinfans]

It's been so long. I can't even remember what tag I use to properly categorize my face.

[infiniteinfans]

Abandoned

Our love is gravity pulling a casket into its grave. But there's only room for one of us in this hole, and I'm welcoming the darkness.