-By Infinity Al
The depths of my heart
Today I take my time A little time i put aside A little time not quite enough Not enough at all
I take that time To uncover the caverns and the mysteries that lie hidden in the depths of this Twisted heart of mine.
Can care too deep deep enough to love to keep his beloved straight on top on top of all above.
This twisted aura that I feel within makes me wonder too If I keep falling in love Or if that's not true…
I am cruel I know But is cruelty not needed in this world When It's been cruel to me Cruelty that's borne in the depths of my heart. Cruelty I know someday could make me fall apart.
This twisted feeling keeps me leaving (as) unwanted. But keeps on hurting Keeps on pushing those who wanted to stay
Those who wanted to stay Oh I surely pushed them away Kept hurting them till I could And asked myself why would "Why would they even stay?"
Why would they even stay With this question Hidden at my heart's bay I keep on drifting away
I keep on drifting away with no courage in me to say To say that I want them To say that I need them To say that I see them
"But does that really matter?" I ask this question in the corners of my heart I don't let myself answer tho Knowing it'll only rip me apart
" Do I want to be heard?" How should I know? I never speak up or wait I do But never what I wanna say
But never what I really feel Wait I did I did say that I did say how i really felt even begged them to listen & Heck I even knelt But They kept speaking Instead of listening They kept on enforcing instead of liberating
and well I kept on drowning I kept on drowning in the sorrows of happy days To push away the only person I've asked to stay
Not once not twice Not even a hundred times I pushed away the person I'd asked to say In every moment I got each day I pushed away the person I've always wanted to stay Not in just a single way But to the one person I told to stay In every single way Of every single day
I told them to go i didn't listen to them say no. Wait I did. I listened to them say no. Not once but multiple times I asked too many times to even perfect my farewell lines. I wanted them to stay But I needed them to go.
" There's a difference Of hell and heaven between the things I want to do and the things that i Should be doing…"
I've listen to you my friend but your sounds are no more heard Your yapping is neglected as if you were an annoying bird.
I listened to my heart Far too many times But I guess there's a line And I've crossed the one That was meant to be mine.
What can I say? I'm deep inside the mist the mist of Uncertainty in the depth of my heart that those persist.
Yeah I'm not making sense Neither does this poem rhyme nor does it feel alive It does not contain The depth of heart I seek The depth that lies within I know it's there I just do But damn These emotions especially the suppressed ones I don't have the courage to let them loose Not now I can't I won't dare yeah this is the path i choose This is the path I chose.
A good writer Never a good guy A good friend never the best Oh wait I am or at least was Who knows right? Not me I don't
The perfect writer But for a story filled with tears The perfect setting But for a chapter to end bitterly The perfect lines but for the ending of chapters.
Right person wrong time The right words but the wrong line. Ending of mine that I hope to find. The twisted rope of fate that intertwines but I keep on searching With these faulty eyes of mine. For a peaceful ending And a moment worth the shine.