Get over it

Hi, my name is Katrina. I'm a 14-year old blogger with so little on her mind, that she feels the need to write about it. Teenagers are crappy human beings with stupid petty problems in their mind, so that's probably what's gonna float around this blog. Goodbye ♥ of those people who can actually put up with me.

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[darkandchaos]

[infinityxbeyond]

I really don't understand why my mom hates like, everything I do. I don't want to sound like a whiney teenager either.

The thing is, she doesn't like it when I stay home and play video games, but she hates when I go out. She doesn't like it when I lay in bed the whole day, and once again, she hates when I go out. She doesn't like my weight, but she won't let me go to the gym. She hates taking me to the mall, but she hates when I actually go with like, friends. She doesn't like low grades, but she doesn't let me buy good materials for projects. She hates cleaning up after me, yet she still cleans.

I probably sound really stupid, but she seriously hates everything I do. Like, I went running today, and she instantly thought I was with boys because I ate right after. Just because it was at the high school.

Like, I'm seriously not going to like you if you don't trust me at all. I am a prude, and don't talk to boys anymore. The only thing I do is derp around with Anna and Nina all of the time. We eat a lot and walk whenever, and there really isn't anything more to it. I am not a whore, nor do I want to be one.

However, I am an only child. You cannot expect me to be home every waking second of your life. I have no siblings to be with. And the thing is, I don't even stay out late. I usually go out at 3pm, come back home at some point, and stay at someone else's house until 8, probably 9 at the latest. We literally stay inside and don't even talk to anyone. It's not like I'm staying out and shit, until 3am like a trashy-ass white American teen. I am not drinking or doing drugs, and I go to a party like, once a year. Mom, how can you seriously not trust me. Holy fucking shit.

[infinityxbeyond]

You just make me so upset, and I don't know why. But, I do know that it hurts a lot, and I don't like it at all.

[infinityxbeyond]

I seriously don't even understand why you would call me a whore, and not even to my face. You were literally 10 feet away from me. Like, I haven't talked to you in almost a year. You do not have the right to call me a whore/slut, or call my friends whores/sluts. Way to give yourself a bad reputation.

[anditslove]

[infinityxbeyond]

As much as I hate everyone at school, it's pretty sad to know that I'm unwanted. You may classify me as an attention seeker, but who knows. I'd just be cool to be invited to social events once in a while. I guess it'd make me feel better about myself? I don't know. I guess it's okay because I don't really like them.

[infinityxbeyond]

Honestly, I wouldn't like to get involved and express my opinion on your actions. This is mainly because I know you'll most likely use it against me, mainly as blackmail. I just don't want to be hated by others and thought of as a terrible person.

[infinityxbeyond]

I've been feeling so out of it lately. As stupid and petty as this sounds, I really feel unwanted and dirty. Eh, I guess it's just the Winter-blahs, as Mr. Cilderman would say.

[infinityxbeyond]

Do you realize how stupid you sound? Because there are millions and millions of people in the world who have worse problems than you and I. And, I know, I keep complaining about my current events project, but I think it's different, because this is school related. Your problems are based on not eating food that you're lucky to have. I mean, I've tried to help you before, but, like you said, this is your own decision, soooo.

[infinityxbeyond]

Wow, this is pretty surprising, because this is the first time, probably since March, that you were in one of my dreams. Yeah, in all of the time that I've known you, you were only in two of my dreams, okay. Anyways, I was at this one store, and you were sitting with one of your friends. It was awkward, because I was with this random guy who said he was from some foreign country. Anyways, the foreign country guy left, so I bumped into you somehow. Well, someone was waiting for you, and I don't remember talking at all, but you gave me this stack of birthday cards from a bunch of people. It's pretty ironic, because I've think I've been holding some kind of grudge ever since you forgot my birthday. Anyways, you ran away with this girl who was waiting for you, so I didn't get a chance to say bye.

[infinityxbeyond]

See, the thing is, I would've actually liked to be with you today. However, I didn't want to bother you, because you were with other people. And, although this is only a thought, I think that girl is your love interest, and I wouldn't want to be some sort of home-wrecker, because that would've been really awkward, and you know I always over analyze things, so I don't want to start and trouble or what not.

[infinityxbeyond]

I seriously need some excitement in my life.

[infinityxbeyond]

I've got to admit, it's pretty awkward seeing your ex-love interest (aka, someone I used to really, really like) at the mall with a girl (who I believe is his new love interest, but I'm not so sure).

[infinityxbeyond]

Because my town is small, I've been living in a rut for the past few days or so. I've been doing the same exact things for such a long period of time that it's making me want to throw bricks at squirrels or something. At least that'll be fun. I mean, I can't stand just eatting and sleeping and computer and school all of the time. I want to go out, but then, there's nothing to do in town too. THEN, I can't go far out of town, because my mom's gonna beat the living crap out of me. What now?

[infinityxbeyond]

I'm always unhappy for the stupidest reasons. Like, a 66% on my Algebra test, or thinking about how much I miss my old friendship(s). I hate knowing that I'm just a speck in the universe, but yet, I know I'm worth something, because Mr. Cilderman explained that. I don't know. I just don't feel very positive right now.

[infinityxbeyond]

I don't think anyone at school realizes how petty their problems are. And the thing is, instead of taking a step back and letting go, they stick onto that problem, which makes them feel worse. In my opinion, it's better to let go than to stick around, especially if you can't change anything about it. You've got to look at things from a different perspective, and see that you're problem is most likely nothing, and is not worth your time at all. Basically, you need to get the fuck over it, omg.