I've been on a constant burn out for months now, and it's like I just realized another thing about why this is taking an eternity to go away.
I've been taking a lot of breaks, I've traveled a lot of times, on two of these trips I've stayed a month and a week away, and as long as I was pretty okay there, when I get home I feel like shit. I guess it's all about the environment, like my family, my friends. I felt like burn out couldn't last so long, until it did. And I need to quit not just activities/hobbies, but people, it's time to give up on some people that I don't feel connected to, people that can't solve anything and then throw it all on me. I'm so sick and tired of who I was before, saving everyone but not listening to myself, I'm so sick and tired of being sorry for every little thing that I do, of feeling guilty for no effing reason.
It's time to decide which battle I want to fight, or maybe even which battle I want to lose.
