Imperminance, Equanimity, & Happiness

Hello. I am Ingrid. I am truly a work in progress. Watch me grow 🌱

[ingriiiid-blog]

Me: Sometimes FB makes me sad...

Me: Probably cuz I just talked my exes....

Tom: The one that got away?

Me: Nah.... more like I got away from all of them

[ingriiiid-blog]

it’s nice

to have a crush

even if it’ll never work out.

it’s nice to live in that fantasy land

and wonder...

[kash-cinema]

I could die right now, Clem. I'm just... happy. I've never felt that before. I'm just exactly where I want to be.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) dir. Michel Gondry

[ingriiiid-blog]

“If you don’t know when to run for the hills, you have to ask yourself  W H Y”

-Brian  Why don’t I know when to leave someone who’s dramatic, toxic, needy, explosive, doesn’t appreciate me, etc? The synchronicity of the Universe gave me this answer in a podcast. Basically, the answer is,  I accept the love I think I deserve.  And I apparently have a high tolerance for bullshit and low standards for what I think I deserve. And naturally this links to self-esteem. Just having the courage to create boundaries with toxic people and not just accepting their “love” simply because it’s there.  BUT also just forgiving myself for letting those type of people in my life. More and more the Universe gives me signs that it’s time to just love myself. Which is a “concept” I've been struggling with (and I think most people do), but I think I’ve realized it’s just re-writing the script that was given to me (starting with my last partner) and replacing it with my own positive narrative. I’m trying to start small: like thanking myself for cutting my vegetables for my dinner. Or thanking myself for taking a nice hot shower. Thanking myself to write this out. Thanking myself for taking time to reflect today. Accepting and forgiving myself for the bullshit I also caused. Every moment is a moment to rewrite this internal monologue.

As on my favorite movies says, “Your mind is always going to be preoccupied by something, it might as well be something positive.” 

[ingriiiid-blog]

I disliked him, because he never seemed to acknowledge what a special person you are; and Ingrid, you are special.

Carmen

[ingriiiid-blog]

YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE

Sometimes your purpose in life is to have no clue what your purpose is. And to wonder. To explore. To be silent. That's the purpose, sometimes. Sometimes the meaning of life is to feel that life has no meaning. To question. To doubt. That's the meaning, sometimes. To wonder about meaning. It feels so meaningful, to wonder, sometimes. And full. And close. And nobody can take this away from you. Your questions. Your innocence. Your open heart. - Jeff Foster 

[ingriiiid-blog]

Love is the emotional color of the soul. Unconditional love is the color of enlightenment, unfettered by personal barriers or distinctions, devoid of ego, yet reflecting the highest self. It’s like sunlight unfiltered by clouds or the taste of water from the purest spring.

Ram dass (via ingriiiid-blog)

[hayaosmiyazaki]

Every Thursday, I take Pudge the fish a peanut butter sandwich. And today we were out of peanut butter! So I asked my sister what to give him, and she said a tuna sandwich! I can’t give Pudge tuna! Do you know what tuna is?

[ingriiiid-blog]

aspirations

[christensen]

so, why do it then?

[cutepetsuwu]

Selfie with the squad

[ingriiiid-blog]

That’s the thing

We just get used to people slowly fading from our lives

[ingriiiid-blog]

Hot Damn Tumblr

I just spent an hour looking thru old posts from 2015.

Sometimes I think I’m more grown

and then I realize, I’m really not.

It’s crazy thou, that half my posts where about boys fucking up my world.

5 years later, different damn boys fucking it up.

It’s like I’ve chosen more immature people (great).

But one thing I am proud of,

For once I’m not over here looking to be in another relationship.

Actually, I’m not sure if that’s anything to be proud of. It more like, I’m fuckin fed up with these petty ass hoes. And I’ll be over here having fun with myself and my homies, cuz relationships are like drinking. Don’t drink to have a good time, have a great time and then grab a drink to make it even better.

[hannahlovesharrystyles]

1. Give yourself space. Away from the things that are making you unhappy. Stressing you out. Making your head spin. Create distance. Clear your head. Don’t surround yourself with negativity. It will only create more negativity. 2. Don’t waste energy on people who aren’t willing to recognize the sparkle you bring to their lives. Don’t waste time being something you’re not just to impress them. You aren’t second best. So don’t give reason to that thought process. 3. Speak your mind. Don’t let people walk over you and take your love for granted. Be honest and stand up for yourself. You’re not the opinion of someone else. They see what they want to see. Hear what the want to hear. Twist the truth. Mould it to their advantage. Don’t let them undercut you. Belittle you and make you feel unworthy of love. Everyone has flaws that will be pinpointed. Don’t let others use them as an advantage. Turn it round. Accept them so they can’t use them as a weapon. 4. Just say yes. Yes to adventure. Yes to opportunity. Yes to new people. Yes to love and happiness. Say yes to explore, travel and create the life that you want for yourself. You’ve got nothing to loose. Saying you can’t shuts you off completely when you didn’t even give yourself the chance to do something wonderful. 5. There’s no win. There’s no loose. Every success or failure opens doors for new experiences. Build that door. Don’t wait for happiness to come knocking.

5 thoughts on self worth ~ (via hannahlovesharrystyles)

[ingriiiid-blog]

Hey Tumblr,

I missed you

9/27/20

[ingriiiid-blog]

Bruh, when we’re in public places and you look at me and wink like you’re some guy hitting on me from across the room.

[ingriiiid-blog]

26/07/18

I’m back and it’s weird. I thought I'd come back to Tumblr excited to see everything from the past, but it turns out less glamorous than I expected. 

I just realize how overdramatic I was.

its funny how shit passes.

today I thought there was a bit of a break in my relationship with Nic,

but looking at this shit maybe its not so much of a big deal.

lets get one thing straight, I date a lot.

and I am always looking for the greener grass. 

[psych-facts]

If a thing disturbs the peace of your heart, give it up

holy-jesus (via psych-facts)