His brows twitched at the words, they felt sharp and sudden. Equally as much as a knife to his chest, something he was feeling vividly about now. The chair creaked as he turned around, facing you with this look in his eyes no one could place, determination, maybe? Heartbreak seemed far more likely.
Slowly, he stood, every movement taking far more effort than anticipated, a new weight thrown onto his back, like he was always carrying the body. His hand lifted, gentle and slow as to not startle or scare you when he moved, placing it on your head. The softness of your hair beneath his palm almost soothing in its own way, despite him not being the person who needed comfort right now.
"I will never be the person to bring you harm."
It was stated with finality. No room to argue about circumstance.
"I know you're scared." His knees cracked, lowering himself to the bed, taking his time to sit beside you, slowly sliding his hand off your head. He couldn't meet your gaze, shame and guilt pressing down on his eyes and making it impossible, "... I don't know how to give you the reassurance you want. But I won't kill you. Even if you change, I won't be the one to do it."
"If?" You respond.
"If." He awkwardly offered his arm, letting you fall into him. Unable to find the right words to assure you that it would be alright, that something would change. If all he could do was hold you, if that made you feel better, he'd spend the rest of his life doing it and never taking another.
"Tch-" he clicked his tongue, which was seriously more annoying to do with the piercing on it. Without hesitation he flicked your forehead, dull but poignant.
"I thought we were done being stupid. But I guess for you it's some kind of Olympic sport," he leaned back on his heel, staring down with eyes of complete disregard and annoyance, "congrats, you just won first prize."
He thought you'd already slapped the book end on this, decided you had been dumb enough to feel so helpless before but now here you go again, like you didn't get enough forehead flicks for a liferime. Leo's eyebrows remained mixed together, practically forcing wrinkles on his pretty face while the sneer remained adequately in place. Yet all he could feel behind it was pity, pity for the small creature who felt such a need to secure a spot in heaven before it dared to look for them first.
"I just-"
"What, want to die to some explosive bubble gum? Yeah, what a cute way to go. Totally on the top 10 ways to die, I heard."
Your pain had always been great, greater than he could have possibly understood, hell, he hardly even understood your position. But if it felt anything like making a deal with the devil, you'd have to fight tooth and nail to get through it. Which is exactly what he expected of you. You just needed more ammunition, fine, that's what he'd give you.
"Are you going to keep being pathetic? Or are you going to figure this out?"
"I ... Don't ..."
"Tell me. It's your life. How do you wanna spend it? Crying? Screaming? Throwing up? Dreaming of what could have been? Planning your damn funeral or are we going to get up and work?" He leaned back, eyes steady, unwavering, talking with all the force he usually pushed you around with, "so tell me what we're doing."
"Thought we already agreed you're gonna keep trying," the biker retorted without much hesitation.
He'd been waiting for this, thought about it a thousand different times a thousand different ways, the thought of letting you go was constant in his mind. Of course it was. He was sure it was worse for you, damn, it had to be, stuck with a lack of control and a system that claims everything yer gives back nothing.
The moment that was warm only a couple minutes ago feels cold enough to prickle his skin beneath that stupid uniform jacket. He's yet to cast a glance your direction, unable to, worried about the resolve he'd built up and how easily you could make it crumble.
"... I just want some insurance." You suggest, drawing your finger against the takeout container he'd so wonderfully brought over as a pick me up.
"Gonna keep planning for the worst case. I get it. But I'm gonna be honest, doubt the school will let ya get that far." He sighed, awkward, feeling that tension in his cheeks, straining his head to glance around your fucked up dorm.
"No, I mean ... The day before-"
"No. Okay? No," finally broke from his lips, watching your face fall as he finally willed himself to look at you, guilt punching him in the chest hard enough to wind, "Listen, [y/n], I don't wanna piss on your funeral, taking the control back by at least dying on your own terms. That's fine. I get it. But asking people to kill you is a pretty huge ask."
Sighing out the stress, repeatedly running his fingers through his hair like it was the only way he knew to self soothe, feeling the constant twitching of his lips - caught between wanting to speak and say nothing.
"You're gonna turn me into Mido if you do that," it was the worst attempt at a joke and instantly he felt like an ass for saying it, "plan the other parts of your funeral. Don't plan the death. I'd do anything but kill you. You want me to cater it? I'll do it. You want flowers stacked up in some weird symbol, I'm on it, but I can't kill you."
It was firm, but his fingers reached out to your shoulders, trying to be kind, trying to reassure in his own way.
Will check like 3 times that you're sure about this
Agrees but reluctantly, kinda nervous honestly, he hasn't had someone else in his bed in a long time
He blinks if you bring a plushie. But doesn't question it. You do get a headpat for it and the corners of his mouth twitch just slightly
His room is clean and by his own hands, it's actually impressive. He's quite clean
He built you a shelf to put your stuff on literally as soon as he came home and it's even got a rod to put hangars on
When you lay beside him Alan looks at you like he's not supposed to, like somehow he's breaking every rule known to mankind and yet you're still here... Somehow...
Asks to hold you and will literally contort his body into a balloon animal if you ask it of him just to keep you comfortable
Sleep is difficult for him but when it comes he's deadly silent, even his breathing seems kind of shallow
He has nightmares and when he doesn't, he doesn't dream either. Just blackness
Sleeps like a rock, basically staying in one place the whole time
He's usually awake before you, rubbing your back in gentle circles to help ease you awake or maybe to calm his nerves
Big forehead kiss
Did you sleep well? Are you hungry? He can make you breakfast, stay here
Bonus: if you sleep in one of his big shirts he will turn bright red
You practically have to beg this guy before he allows you
Rolls his eyes HARD when you complain about it
Listen NPC some locations are just locked so debug and get over it.
His room always smells sweet, like candy and something floral. It's not overpowering but a nice hint as he does not enjoy the greasy smell of his dorm
It's like messy clean, looks lived in with the occasional thing just thrown here or there but he usually cleans it up by the end of the week
He has a few plushies of his own exes gave him or he made Sho win for him
If you show up with your own he's going to tell you they don't get bed rights, only his do
Will not cuddle you unless you cuddle him first and will call you clingy
Notice how he's not kicking you off though, he just likes proving to you that you're clingy and would die for his affection ~
He likes to rub your side, especially if you're ticklish there
Another blanket hog. Sigh.
Sometimes he has trouble sleeping you've noticed and when he does, he just plays with your hair - thinking about what styles would look good on you and brushing it around with his fingers
He doesn't dream. Not even nightmares. Just nothing.
Not a morning person, but he's not going to class anyways so you're waking up before him regardless
If he's feeling up to it though he'll do your hair before you leave, putting it in a different style than you came with
He expects his thank yous
In the vocal form, kisses only count for half points.
This was his idea
Though honestly he doesn't sleep with people usually- he hasn't since *shivers* Hyde. The others weren't really sleeping, if yk yk
Don't bring him up or it'll ruin Sho's mood for the rest of the day.
His room is messy but he could probably find anything he was looking for in it and has wild hiding places for stuff
He did clean up a bit for you though!
Bonnie has her own corner of the room that Sho does not bother if she feels like staying there, she doesn't always
Yes he does tell her goodnight, you should too, it's rude not to
No bandana?!?!?!??!? What has this world come to?
Cuddling is his favorite way to sleep, he likes to sleep with his face in your back and his hand securely on your tummy
Depending on his dream he kicks but it's not often
There's just some nights you're wondering how the blanket got off, he's why
He "gets cold easy" aka kicks the fucking blanket off and thus has warmer blankets, winters in here are always nice and warm
Has dreams but really doesn't remember them at all. It was probably dumb anyways.
Kisses the back of your neck and reminds you to wake up
Will wake up with you for class and make you something for breakfast, he's gotta prep anyways
Hm? Class? That's cute. Get going.
He'll walk you, actually, it's on the way to the truck anyways
Expects a goodbye kiss and will tease you if you don't, telling you he's dying and you're killing him. Maybe you don't love him anymore ... Wow so this is how it ends.... Is that the bright light? He can't hold back from it much longer!
Summary: "You got me a present? Wow, thanks. Oh yeah, you free after this Senpai?" - Sho's birthday voiceline.
Summary: "You got me a present? Wow, thanks. Oh yeah, you free after this Senpai?" - Sho's birthday voiceline (yes i’m lazy to put actual summary)
The faint roar of Bonnie’s engine reached you before you saw him. Sho was leaning casually against his motorcycle, hands shoved deep into his pocket jeans like he had all the time in the world. His smirk was already in place when his blue eyes found you.
“There you are. You planning to keep me waiting on my birthday?”
You rolled your eyes, though a smile tugged at your lips. “I’m right on time.”
“Mm. If you say so.”
You took a breath and pulled the small wrapped box from behind your back. “Here. This is for you.”
His brows rose, and for once, that cocky expression cracked. “You got me a present?”
He ripped the wrapping without hesitation and revealed the silver bracelet, engraved with tiny flame patterns. The way he stared at it made your chest warm.
“…Wow. Thanks. You didn’t have to, Senpai.”
“Of course I did,” you said, flustered. “It’s your birthday.”
His grin returned, sharper. “Guess I owe you one. Or maybe…” He leaned in close, “…you just wanted an excuse to spend more time with me.”
Heat rushed to your face. “That’s not—!”
Sho only chuckled and swung onto Bonnie, revving the engine. “You free after this?”
“…I suppose.”
“Good. You’re coming with me.” he said, tilting his head with that cocky grin of his. He handed you a spare helmet.
“Excited much?” you teased as you climbed on behind him, trying to ignore how your heart sped up at the closeness.
“Of course. Been stuck in that academy long enough. Today’s my day.” He smirked.
And just like that, you were on the seat behind him, arms wrapped around his waist, as the bike roared toward the city lights.
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By the time you both parked near the ramen shop, the sun had dipped low, replaced by neon buzzing signs.
“Birthday dinner,” Sho said casually, tossing his keys in one hand. “Ramen’s on me.”
You laughed. “So much for fine dining.”
“Hey. Ramen’s a classic. Don’t complain.”
Inside, the air was warm with the scent of broth and chatter. You and Sho dug into steaming bowls, and he leaned over his palm holding the chopsticks, smirking as you blew on your noodles.
“You better finish that,” he teased. “I’m not carrying you back.”
You were about to retort when your gaze caught on a table nearby—a group of drunk men crowding a girl in a high school uniform. She shrank into her seat as they laughed and leaned too close. Your hands clenched.
Sho followed your glare and immediately frowned. “Don’t,” he muttered. “It’s not our problem.”
“She’s scared. No one’s helping her.”
“Senpai.” His voice lowered, warning. “Don’t do anything reckless.”
But your chair scraped before he finished.
“Oi,” you called, walking to their table. “Leave her alone.”
All three turned, eyes gleaming with mischief. One sneered. “Well, look what we got here. A fiery one, you her friend?”
“Something like that,” you said firmly. “Now back off.”
Instead of listening, they smirked. “Maybe we’ll keep you company instead.”
The heat in your chest boiled over. A sharp crack echoed as you punched one square in the jaw. He stumbled back, clutching his face in shock. Gasps filled the shop. The second man snarled and raised his arm—
But Sho was already there, blocking the swing with ease. His smirk flashed sideways at you. “Now you’re stealing the show, huh?”
The air was thick with tension, broken only by the furious owner storming in. “OUT! All of you! OUT before I call the cops!”
The drunkards stumbled away, grumbling. You, Sho, and the girl were shoved outside into the street, the warm bowls of ramen left unfinished.
“I-I’m so sorry,” she stammered. “Thank you for helping me!”
You softened, giving her a reassuring smile. “Don’t worry about it. Wanna grab ice cream with us?”
Sho sighed loudly behind you and said, “Unbelievable.” but he didn’t argue further. Soon, the three of you were seated on a bench outside a convenience store, eating cones under the glow of a flickering streetlamp.
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The girl giggled nervously as you and Sho bickered over whose ice cream was bigger. For a brief, strange moment, it felt like a third-wheel date for the girl—Sho teasing you, you shoving his shoulder, and the girl laughing like she’d accidentally stumbled into a romcom.
When she finally stood, she bowed deeply. “Thank you again, big sis and big brother! I’ll never forget this!”
You waved her off with a smile. As soon as she was gone, Sho sighed, leaning back. “You’re honestly a chaos.”
You laughed. “I couldn’t just ignore it. Someone had to help.”
His lips curved slowly into a smirk—not sharp this time, but softer. “…Yeah. Figures. Maybe that’s what I like about you.”
Your breath caught. Did he really just—? But before you could press him, he was already standing, hands in his pockets. “C’mon. Still got one last stop.”
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The ride back was quieter, the city fading into the dark countryside until Bonnie finally stopped at a cliff overlooking the twinkling lights below. The ocean stretched endlessly, reflecting the moonlight like silver glass and the night air was cool, brushing against your skin as you slid off the bike.
You turned to stretch, but Sho’s hand caught your wrist.
“Hey.” His voice was low, softer than before. “Thanks… for today. For the present and for being here. Also a crazy day, huh? Didn’t think my birthday would end with a fistfight and free ice cream.”
You blinked at him, surprised.
“It was supposed to be my spotlight,” he continued, blue eyes steady on yours. “But you stole it. And I don’t mind. I wouldn’t mind if you stole it every damn time.”
For once, his usual cocky smirk faltered, replaced by something gentler. He stepped closer, the faint scent of broth and motor oil still clinging to him. His hand brushed against yours, tentative, before he leaned in.
The kiss was slow at first, almost questioning, then it deepened, warm and certain, stealing the breath from your lungs.
When he finally pulled away, his forehead rested against yours. His grin returned, but softer this time. “That’s the best gift I could ever ask for.”
Your entire face burned. Words tangled on your tongue, refusing to form, and Sho only laughed at your flustered state.