Even with Haven’s tone as gentle as it was, Inigo could feel his chest tighten at his words. Haven wasn’t wrong, no, his logic was completely reasonable and sound and Inigo was sure they could have avoided all of this had he thought things through at the time. “I get it, I’m an idiot,” he snapped, bright, reddened eyes narrowing at the other man, but his voice was more weary than venomous. “I’ve never been smart or emotionally mature and I’m not trying to say that makes it better but... I’m only human, and I was fucking fifteen and a child who didn’t know anything about anything. I wanted you! I was selfish and I know I ruined everything and however misguided you thought I was when we ended, I thought it was the only way to make things a little better.” Inigo exhaled heavily and went to rub his face with his hands, but froze when Haven spoke.
I love you. “That’s not fair,” he muttered through long fingers. Haven was supposed to hate him, it was what made this work for so long. For so long Inigo had had peace of mind knowing Haven saw him for what he really was and rightfully kept away. To know that he wasn’t hated, not even when it was deserved, knowing that Haven in his generosity might have forgiven him a long time ago, it broke something in him he didn’t know existed. The rest of what Haven said passed him by vaguely - Inigo really didn’t know anything about his power, didn’t know if it could actually wear off. A part of him adamantly insisted that this was all something someone under a divine infatuation would say to convince the object of their affections that it was all real, but then again, how could he know that for certain?
It was only when Haven scooted closer did Inigo snap back to the present with a startled jump, certainly not expecting the other man to take his hands. He froze, unable to comprehend or do much of anything but meet fervent brown eyes with his own. Inigo never thought he’d be this close to Haven again, and for sure never thought the other man would speak to him in any way that wasn’t weighted with bitterness, much less speak to him at once gently and passionately “I knew they were married,” Inigo stuttered. He also knew when it came to Haven, Aphrodite always fell silent. Neither pushing Inigo towards him nor pulling him away.
Inigo couldn’t help the faint smile that tugged his lips when Haven spoke of his younger, more arrogant self - most days it hurt to think of their early days together, and he was infinitely glad when it didn’t. But it left as quickly as it came the more Haven talked, and he imagined the pull the other boy must have felt towards him before Inigo even thought to use his power, how even if things were in shambles now, there was and would always be that link that bonded them. It was a comforting thought.
“You were disgusted by me --you rejected me,” Inigo breathed in disbelief. “You never told me you felt that way about me before we met, I always thought you thought I was a nuisance, a cocky little brat.” Haven’s fervor was starting to affect him, at once overwhelming him and comforting him and filling him with a warmth he hadn’t realized he’d wanted. Fuck, he didn’t think that he’d wanted this closeness again - not necessarily for them to be romantic, but he’d truly fallen in love with Haven as a person when they were together. As much as he pretended it didn’t, it fucking hurt knowing Haven hated him.
“I won’t,” he finally choked out, lowering his head onto their entangled hands, chestnut hair hiding wet eyes. “I won’t try to anymore. I’m so sorry, Haven, I mean it. I don’t want to be petty with you anymore and I don’t want to argue. You don’t have to forgive me, but I just don’t want you to hate me - and I have no right to say that, I know, but I don’t really give a shit.” Inigo snuffled when he twisted his body - he’d nearly forgotten he’d twisted his ankle. He probably looked so pathetic.