ENDGAME SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT.
i cannot believe that tony becomes the parent of four kids: harley, peter, nebula and morgan. but he’s such a good father and the brief respite he got to have, those five years where he was just tony, husband and father, means so much to me.
honestly, after seeing each other after so long, the fact that steve was right there to support him and he talked about how “he lost the kid” and just ... their relationship means so much to me. rewinding a little, i full - blown believe that steve shaved for tony and you can pry that headcanon from my cold fingers.
if anyone thinks that tony’s reaction to seeing all the faces of the vanished and everything he said after “ i needed you. past tense, “ was harsh or that he was overreacting, i dare you imagine doing better. you just watched a child you care for crumble in your arms. you spent days in a ship, malnourished, fully prepared to die. and then you come back and the man who betrayed you the most is standing right there asking you for information, somewhat drilling you because of the mission. he wasn’t given any time to rest, may not have even wanted to, but the fact is, steve lied to tony about his parents and they hadn’t seen each other in years and he deserved to be able to share his thoughts. ( i’m so glad that my steve is canon - divergent and doesn’t lie and civil war happens for different reasons. ) ( but please believe that the mcu steve and my steve probably feel guilty about not being there for the events of iron man 3 too. )
there was something satisfying about seeing thanos get his head cut off. and i have to say that nebula’s closing his eyes and bowing her head is very synonymous with how gaea feels about her own father. she understands that what was done to her was wrong, or at least is coming to grips with it, but there’s still that respect and those feelings of having wanted to please. i won’t say love because, as gamora said, ‘this isn’t love.’
i love the idea of steve being in a support group, or leading one. it’s kind of like a homage to sam and it just shows that how caring he is. he could have gone and done the same work rhodey, carol, okoye, rocket and nebula were doing, keeping an eye on the world and still fighting. but instead, he decided to help people acclimate, despite his own guilt and the fact that he never would.
seeing nat get teary about clint made me think that she was trying to come to grips with the idea of taking him down or just the fact that she had been able to give him that hope sooner and honestly, their friendship gives me so many emotions. everyone’s did, though i wish there had been more interactions. i don’t care if the movie would have been longer.
fuck me up with dad!tony. what do i even say? he’s a fantastic father, you can see it, you can feel it, in how he interacts with morgan and how she interacts with him. his priorities are his family and that will never be wrong. and considering what happens later, he’s not selfish. there’s something in him that pushes him to do something if he can and his initial reaction is all too real. i would say no too if it meant the possibility of losing my family.
this may not be the post for this but i like the idea of them staying for lunch and not talking shop. it may be stilted because steve and tony haven’t fully reconciled yet but it’s fine. more family scenes! more love!
professor hulk! i’m glad we got to see them come together although i wanted more concrete reason as to why hulk didn’t show up. i guess i’ll have to read one of the articles about it. but i think it was nice that he was no longer so feared ( i didn’t ship hulktasha but dude, you did it, got control; you could have been having and tapping that --- )
as always, paul rudd is a win.
curse the russo brothers for not giving us the hug that we deserved when steve and tony reconciled. a handshake? really?? this is why we have to go to the cartoon to get that sweet, sweet content we deserve. one more thing i have changed in my head.
i love nebula and i love them all staying in contact with each other and yes, more friendships, more camaraderie, give me everything. she didn’t have to say a dang thing to rhodey but taking the time to say that there was an idiot just ... i love her.
i have mixed feelings about what they did to thor. on the one hand, it makes absolute sense. the events of ragnorak and infinity war happen back to back, which means he loses his father, finds out he has a sister, has to kill her and loses his home in the process, loses half of his people and then watches his brother die. and then, he doesn’t get to avenge loki’s death nor does he get to help bring everyone back. i think i would do worse than be a depressed drunk who binge eats. and i like the fact that despite all that, despite how low he got, he was still worthy. that means a lot to me. i didn’t enjoy him being the comic relief so much though.
on the other hand, the team handled it so well that again, they are a family and they didn’t write him off, they still gave him chances and were there for him.
i don’t know much about clint / ronin but i came into the movie like, he probably lost his entire family, and then had to watch it so yeah, i’d be fucked up too.
i’m still trying to come to grips to how the endgame time travel rules work so look forward to me making a post about that.
the way that tony looks at steve when he’s giving his speech is so gay, tell me otherwise; i ship it so much and i am pissed they didn’t hug at all; damn you, russo brothers!
and then his comments about steve’s ass and scott saluting it, what cinema gold. you can pry tony not lusting after steve even in mcu canon and steve not lusting after himself ( that is america’s ass ) also from my cold hands. fuel for my steve being bi.
peggy looked damn good for being 25 years older than she was in the first avenger. and i do enjoy steggy but let’s be real, stucky and stony have much more material. he may always carry her picture in his compass but he has spent more time with the most important men in his life.
i don’t support tony forgiving his dad just like that. the abuse he suffered from him isn’t conveyed in the mcu as much as in the comics. if anything, i think i would have enjoyed it more if he had run into his mother. fuck howard stark. i doubt tony would actually look back and ‘only see the good things,’ dead or not.
these next two things may be out of order but god, i feel for nebula so much. she had so much of her humanity ( alienality? ) stripped from her and it’s one thing to have to suffer that pain and never feel like enough but it’s another to have that used against you, to the point the entire mission is compromised. with no one else knowing it.
fuck vormir. fuck the soul stone. everything about that scene absolutely ruined me. they’ve been through so much and you can tell how they’re each other’s family, siblings, and i just knew there was no way she was going to let laura be a widow and his children live without him. also, having her in the same position as gamora with red blood beneath her head. fuck that entire scene.
thor broke my heart when he grabbed tony and was like, ‘ let me do something good. ‘ but they were right, bruce was right to do it because no one else could and would be able to make it through. in mcu canon, apparently.
the big three had big dick energy approaching thanos and everything from here on out may just be me fangirling until ... the end.
i loved age of ultron because of all the team attacks and being able to see some attacks again, showing they’ve fought together and trained together was just, GOD, amazing.
steve holding mjolnir. STEVE AND FUCKING MJOLNIR. he is such a strategist and again, he has watched and trained with thor so he knew what he was doing. him calling down fucking lightning though; i was like, fuck me up, i love one man and i need you to marry me to take me in this theater ---
that’s my man. his teammates are down. for all he knows, bruce, clint, nebula, rhodey and rocket are all dead. but still steve walked. because he wasn’t going to run. he was going to die fighting. and then fucking sammy ---
i just have no words for everyone showing up. no words but the ones i yelled when everyone else was screaming: FUCK YES. god, i got chills the entire time and it was so amazing.
OKAY LADIES NOW LET’S GET IN FORMATION. it sucks that there are so few and that they killed our main squeeze and i’m never going to be okay about it but seeing them come together and get shit done.
carol danvers deserved better. and more screen time. and this is out of order but i’m happy to at least say that the two times thanos played dirty was when he was up against wanda and carol. what queens.
i just ... i knew we were going to lose one of them. but seeing it is utterly different than just saying, this is probably going to happen. peter calling him tony. pepper telling them they were going to be okay and he can rest now. NOPE. i actually cannot bring myself to talk about this anymore. it’s still too fresh.
whether or not steve deserved that ending isn’t the thing. it’s that it goes against everything they’ve been showing us of him through the movies. that someone else came out of the ice. steve rogers is not the type of man that would go back and be with her knowing she has such a fulfilling life with a husband and children. i don’t even know if he would go back and have that dance with her, if it meant messing up her future.
but that’s why i have so much work to do.
