* / and so the heavens descend upon us

they/them / 20 / a dying light

[fredersen]

NON-freaks dni. This is a freaks only zone

[blueberrygoth-deactivated202410]

ive known so many "cis" people who've told me they thought they might be trans or nonbinary but they dont really experience dysphoria so they felt like they werent allowed to call themselves trans. how many people have had to live their lives in the closet because they were told they werent in enough pain

[eptck]

i’ve said it once and i’ll say it again. EUPHORIA is the greatest identifier of a trans person. not dysphoria. dysphoria is hard to define and thus it’s hard to regulate what is and isn’t dysphoria. but euphoria? that feeling u get when someone uses the right pronouns? that “i can’t contain my smile” sort of joy? THATS what the trans experience is all about. that’s what unites us

[horrorlesbians]

everytime I remember that lesbian couple that have a marble statue of the two of them embracing and sleeping on a bed together over where their graves will be because the artists didn’t believe they would be able to be married before they died, so what they couldn’t have in life they could have in death, I fucking breakdown

[horrorlesbians]

memorial to a marriage; patricia cronin

[horrorlesbians]

“on july 24th, 2011- the first day that same sex marriage was legal in new york state, particia cronin and deborah kass got married. that same year the marble ‘memorial to a marriage’ was replaced with a bronze version. rainwater pools in the space between their two sculpted bodies, and falling leaves catch on the metal in the autumn. the two women sleep peacefully through snow and ice, and the scorching days of summer. over time the hands of cemetery visitors will wear down the bronze, burnishing it into a smooth shine. one day this will mark the final resting place of the two women. and someday people will have to remember that there was a time, long ago, when this was a memorial to a marriage that two women never thought they’d have.” 

- Caitlin Doughty, on the Death in the Afternoon podcast

[lifeinpoetry]

i killed a plant once because i gave it too much water. lord, i worry that love is violence.

— José Olivarez, from “Getting Ready to Say I Love You to My Dad, It Rains,” Citizen Illegal

[transgenderization]

my unpopular opinion is that himbos are lame but bimbos are cool as fuck. this is because i respect women more than you btw 

[kittenchomp]

[helahades]

we have collectively gone through too much to turn around and blame ourselves for the stresses we’ve faced

[circus-blades]

Nutcracker AU :)) Bonus of last drawing

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“The anger was vast and it came out of nowhere. It was the rage of something not fitting; the frustration of trying to put something in a box that is slightly too small. You try moving the shape around in the hope that some angle will make it fit in the box. Slowly comes an apprehension that this might not, after all, be possible. And finally you know it won’t fit, know there is no way it can fit, but this doesn’t stop you using brute force to try to crush it in, punishing the bloody thing for not fitting properly. That was what it was like: but I was the box, I was the thing that didn’t fit, and I was the person smashing it, over and over again, with bruised and bleeding hands.”

H is for Hawk, Helen Macdonald

[shock]

does anyone else feel like video games are taking a quick turn into only being accessible by upper class streamers and shit rather than to actually be played by a wider audience, like ever since VR happened and it was outrageously inaccessible and i knew maybe one out of hundreds of IRL friends who had one to the point that everyone knew they had one and we would all schedule to hang out to get the chance to play VR and it just steadily became harder and harder to keep up with the gaming culture of dropping hundreds upon hundreds not just for the console but to consistently keep paying (you need online subs to play with your friends on everything, most people i know who turned to consoles specifically did so because it’s easier than buying a $1000+ PC but that is no longer the case) like… it’s depressing that video games are becoming an upper class hobby to watch from the sidelines because i can’t consistently pump out thousands to keep up with everything lol

[shock]

plus the push to make video games all-online (getting rid of discs) allows companies to control the sale of games so over the next few years you’ll start seeing less and less of being able to find games for cheaper than they were on release since you can’t go through any third parties… i literally bought a ps2 to play old ps2 games on a while back because i knew it would be more worth it than dropping more and more and more money on a new console. i play my ps2 more than i play my switch because i can buy a game with SO MUCH CONTENT for like $5 meanwhile i have to pay a monthly subscription to so much as look at my switch… i can’t even play stardew valley, which i bought online since there’s no disc for it on switch, with my boyfriend sitting right next to me unless i have the online subscription afaik. 

[whitepeopletwitter]

[kkokeiko]

[cemeterey]

oceanview cem

[siickangel]

[ojibwa]

[3cute-blog1]

i just got a 105 min ad?? on youtube??

[3cute-blog1]

????????

[3cute-blog1]

ITS THE ENTIRE FUCKING LEGO MOVIE

[tamamita]

I love how the monkey from Aladdin is just called “Dad” if you translate “Abu”

[pokemaster7]

are you telling me that he calls the monkey “daddy”

[tamamita]

By Allah, not on this post you don’t

[thisisthinprivilege]

As a medical student, I can honestly say that the system does in fact teach fatphobia, but not necessarily in the way you would think. Throughout med school, we are taught that while a patient’s body habitus is important to consider, weight loss and gain can be signs and symptoms of SO many conditions, and can mask other underlying conditions (Cushing’s disease, heart failure, etc). The med schools also teach to not discriminate, and to treat all patients equally and ethically. Students come out of pre-clinical med school very optimistic, thoughtful and cautious.

This all changes during placements. In clinical years and internships, watching your superiors make these diagnoses, and being told “they come in all the time, they would be better if they just lost some weight”, something starts to stick. Med students become cynical from treating hundreds of cases of the same thing, in mostly elderly patients who do actually just need to live a healthier lifestyle. But when exceptions come along, they are so jaded by their experiences in the system that they won’t consider differential diagnoses. This is a SYSTEMIC problem.

Also, if you weren’t aware, the number one mental illness among medical students?

Eating disorders.

[darthmelyanna]

This is not a #notalldoctors message, just so we’re clear.

I spent two weeks in the hospital last year. Between that and chemo and everything else I dealt with last year, I probably saw eight doctors and dozens of nurses and dozens of techs.

Only one of them told me I needed to lose weight, but it was so incredibly demoralizing that I didn’t want to go see another doctor. And it could have killed me, because this woman thought I was just fat when I actually had ovarian cancer.

[freifraufischer]

My sister is a fat doctor.  When she was a medical student despite being impeccably dressed and groomed she repeatedly would get marked down during her clinical placement evaluations for not having professional appearance.  When she would question her superiors on what she could do to improve her professional appearance they never gave her an answer.

When she had a child she had gestational diabetes and because she was a physician she had perfect sugar numbers.  She had gotten an insulin pump and the professional grade programming to micro dose herself.  Her sugar numbers during her pregnancy were better than any “healthy” persons.  An OBGYN in her practice walked into the room saw her and decided without looking at her numbers or her case history and assumed she had uncontrolled diabetes and started planning her C Section.  

Without looking at anything in her chart.

She was unlucky enough to have that doctor in her delivery and she almost bled out because the woman was so convinced she was going to C Section her that she didn’t pay attention to the baby crowning and so had no instruments in the room.  The lack of preparation meant the nicu team that was supposed to be in the room was not even called until minutes after my nephew was out and grey.  He had a terrible initial apgar score and she lost an obscene amount of blood hemorrhaging out on the floor.

When she wrote a medical journal article about it (with the review of her own OBGYN) because she’s an expert in the health care system other doctors trolled through my family’s facebook pages looking for old pictures of her to prove from our family vacation shots that she must have had weight related pregnancy complications… that she didn’t have… because they felt they could diagnose her based on pictures of her.

One even filed a complaint against her with her state medical board because they assumed she’d written the article without giving her doctors a chance to respond.

Medical fatphobia nearly killed my nephew, my sister, and later tried to threaten her professional career.