One Day at A Time

Stuck between working and idyllic daydreaming

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I'm an introvert, but sometimes I get hyper and happy when I'm in my room. Like I sing and exclaim while scrolling through Instagram. I say "Hi" to every bird that stop outside my window. Is that just me?

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The feeling when you meet your friends after a long time and you just talk and laugh as if no time has passed at all.

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Being an adult feels like taking one step forward and two steps backwards.

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Feeling like I've lost my direction. It's going to take some time for me to find my way in this world again.

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It's funny how when you want to forget something, you end up remembering it more clearly than before. As if telling your brain to forget something just somehow enpowers the brain to retain that knowledge.

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Do you ever get the feeling that you don't belong? That you don't fit in? That no one could ever understand the thoughts and emotions running through you? You feel like a stranger looking in from the outside.

But are you locked out or are they locked in? Are you free or alone? Would you rather trade it for anything else? Is losing yourself worth it? Are they worthy of being chosen over yourself?

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I'm at that point in life where I just feel so empty so I just invest myself in my friends' lives.

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What happened?

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I laugh for you.

[liesandnights]

To lovely humans who were excluded from invitations, left behind when they tied their shoes, forced to walk in the grass when the sidewalk was full, spoken over when you tried to contribute, whispered about or laughed at, given side-eye when you tried to fit in…. you are so worthy of love.

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"Away from all of reality..."

- Lost Boy, Ruth B.

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Work takes too much of me and sometimes it's necessary to take a step back and tske the time to process what it is I am really feeling and the tone of the thoughts floating in my head.

Long weekends are best spent with exploring new places when I can. Found this hidden gem in my hometown.

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I'm teaching myself to be confident to be alone. That it's okay to want to be alone but not isolate myself. To take myself out sometimes and enjoy it. In a society that imposes a lifestyle rife with being in groups of people and forming cliques, I find myself wanting something real. I want to understand myself without the pressure of going with the flow. I want to give myself the space and opportunity to grow.

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Current mood: I just want to be held and loved and cuddled. Ask me about my day as we drink hot coffee by the windowside as we gaze at the darkening sky and watch the moon rise. Dream with me of our separate futures, together.

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Do you sometimes close your eyes and feel that there are emotions begging to spill out and no one comes to mind to hear you out.

[academicssay]

academic self-regulation explained

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“Nothing’s changed. You’ll go home. You’ll be bored. You’ll be ignored. No one will listen to you, really listen to you. You’re too clever and too quiet for them to understand. They don’t even get your name right.”

— Neil Gaiman