Closed heart

Im lost in paradise. Can you please help me to find myself?

[inlovewithchaos]

Hindi na ba talaga pwede?

100 tula para kay stella

[inlovewithchaos]

An Open Letter To The Man Who Is Willing To Love Me.

Bago ang lahat, pagpasensyahan mo na kung mahirap ako intindihin. Pasensya na kung mahirap ako mahalin. Pasensya ka na kung nahihirapan ako mag tiwala. There is a wall around me that keeps me from getting hurt again. Help me to break this wall as the days goes by. Wag ka sana sumuko kung dadating yung araw na nagiging cold or distant ako sayo. Please, dont give up on me. Maybe, there is still a part of me na nahihirapan pa rin ako magtiwala para magmahal ulit. Siguro may takot pa din ako dahil hindi naging maganda yung experience ko before you came. 

Please dont get tired of trying, no matter what happens, to save me from self-destruction, & to keep me strong from the anxieties I will fight.

Tulungan mo ko na maniwala na worth it akong mahalin. Tulungan mo ko pano maging masaya ulit. Tulungan mo ko maramdaman kung pano magmahal ulit. Help me see the life I missed while I was searching for my missing piece in the wrong places.

Yakapin mo ko kapag nakakaramdam ako ng takot, selos,lungkot at galit. Wag ka sana mapagod pakinggan yung mga kwento ko kahit abutin tayo ng madaling araw. Maintindihan mo sana yung mga oras na nakakalimutan ko na magreply sayo dahil nakatulog na ko. Pero higit sa lahat, magtiwala ka na isang araw magiging okay din ang lahat, 

Kapag naging okay na ang lahat, pinapangako ko sayo na mamahalin kita ng walang halong takot na masaktan ulit. Mamahalin kita sa paraan na deserve mo. 

I will take all the risk for you. I will put you on top of my priorities. I will give you everything you need. Ipagmamalaki kita kahit kanino. I will protect you like how you protected my heart. 

 Kahit na dumating yung araw na ayaw na satin ng mundo. Kahit na magkasakit man tayo, kahit na anong mangyari, I promise you babe.

So if you are willing to love me, I want you to know that I need to be fixed. Understand all the pains I’m suffering. And please, take care of my heart. I guarantee you that at every end of the day, it’s always going to be a beautiful sunset with me by your sid

[inlovewithchaos]

Ganon ba ko kahirap mahalin

para iwanan mo?

[ecodistractor]

If you like someone, tell them. If you miss someone, tell them. If you love someone,show it. Life is too short to keep your feelings inside

Ecodistractor (via ecodistractor)

[matabangutak]

Darating sa point na wala na lang lahat. Dahil sa pagod at pagtanggap na wala na talaga. Masasanay ang sarili sa sakit na siyang magpapamanhid sa damdamin. After ng lahat maiisip mong oras na para alagaan at pulutin muli ang mga parte mong nawala.

Rhadson (via matabangutak)

[escafeism]

[escafeism]

[inlovewithchaos]

Bakit kasi hindi nalang tayo bumalik sa kung ano meron tayo.

[inlovewithchaos]

The ones who hurts you needs love and attention. Just forgive them and let them feel that they loved.

[inlovewithchaos]

"Sinaktan ka niya kaya kalimutan mo na siya."

"Sa una lang naman mahirap, pag tumagal na masasanay ka rin."

"May darating na bago, yung mas okay, yung hindi mang-iiwan."

"Hindi lang talaga kayo para sa isa't isa, matatanggap mo rin yun."

Ang dali lang sabihin noh? Pero kasi hindi mo alam kung ano yung pakiramdam ng maiwan ng taong mahal mo. Yung taong nakasama mo ng matagal, yung taong kinapitan at sinandalan sa tuwing may problema ka, yung taong pinaglaanan mo ng oras at effort mo, yung taong bumuo ng pagkatao mo. Hindi madaling tanggapin na nabalewala lahat ng luha at saripisyo mo. Na sa isang idlap binawi nalang siya ng tadhana sayo at wala ka man lang nagawa kundi tingnan siyang unti-unting magbago at magmahal ng ibang tao.

[inlovewithchaos]

Ano pa nga bang laban ko sa tadhana?

Syempre wala. :(

[dakilanggerlpren]

I just want to feel wanted and loved again.

(via dakilanggerlpren)

[dakilanggerlpren]

“Okay lang ako. Okay lang ako. Okay lang ako. Okay lang ako.” Ulit-ulitin mo lang hanggang sa dumating yung araw na hindi mo na kailangang magpanggap saharap iba na ayos ka lang talaga. Tiwala lang, darating din yung araw na yun.

[inlovewithchaos]

I dont know of this is a good thing. We are communicating again like nothing happened. Dapat diba nagagalit ako sayo dahil sa ginawa mo pero bakit ganito ako? Bakit ko hinahayaan kausapin ka. At ikaw, bakit parang kung kausapin mo ko hindi mo ko nasaktan, parang hindi mo ko niloko. Bakit kung kausapin mo ko parang wala lang sayo yung nangyari? :( Hindi ko alam yung nararamdaman ko. Sobrang komplikado lahat ng bagay. I dont know if I miss you or Im just missing our memories. Hanggat maari dapat di tayo nag uusap, lalo na ngayon napapadalas. Ayoko. Hindi pwede. Natatakot ako sa mga mangyayari. Hindi pa ko ready. At alam kong pinaglalaruan lang ako ng tadhana nanaman. Ayoko kainin lahat ng pangako ko sa saril ko, dahil alam ko hindi ko na kaya kung masasaktan nanaman ako ulit ng dahil sayo. Alam kong wala na talaga akong lakas bumangon kapag nasaktan nanaman ako. Hindi pwede mangyari lahat ng to. Kaya habang maaga pa, poprotektahan ko sarili ko lalo.

[dearmeraki]

No pain killers can kill the pain that I have felt because of missing you.

A.S (via dearmeraki)

[caloyasul-deactivated20161020]

Pagod na ko sa sarili ko

(via caloyasul)

[baekebyan]

There will be moments in your life that you’ll get tired of everything. You will wake up one day that you don’t want to talk to anyone around you and you just want to be alone. They will be clueless because of your sudden change. You won’t figure out what’s wrong with you because you know, you just want to be by yourself. No explanations, no deep reasons. You will search for a space of silence in this noisy world. You will detach yourself slowly from people around you and start living without them. You will shake off negativity and be neutral. Coffee and music will be your best friends, you will shut down the world you’re living in for a moment. Inactivity will take place. This phase is called hibernation. You will get tired in life eventually, and it’s normal. You will slow things down, reinvigorate your soul, purpose and life through it. Once done, you will be ready to live again with a newer and better version of yourself.

(via baekebyan)