just ambivalent

noticing as much as I can.

[inner-alliance]

city

You’re not a nuisance, you’re an artifact

I say to myself as the minutes pass

Water snaking through the pipes, from the floors above

Pulled by gravity

Sounds like rain

And I think I’m going to like it here

[inner-alliance]

I should’ve marked the date on the last post. I can’t figure out when I wrote it. 

[inner-alliance]

got my septum pierced yesterday and it didn’t heal my dull, acne ridden skin but I decided once again not to smoke and am making efforts to heal myself and to improve myself and I am hopeful and excited and am slowly falling in love with the person I am becoming.

[inner-alliance]

I need to make a major change; I need to move away and leave this house full of my past that others have created for me, and I need to create my own home full of ambient light and greater views and a broader spectrum of inspiration; someplace where there are endless possibilities and unfamiliar streets and shops and people, and a new adventure every morning and a relaxing, minimalistic dwelling to come back to, with only what I need and only what is necessary to propel me forward into my own, wonderful future. 

[inner-alliance]

I would’ve loved you more than anything, but fine. Don’t miss me. Don’t care. It’s been a month now and I tried and tried and gave and gave and gave and you obviously don’t even care about me enough as a friend to say shit. I still love you and completely loved you and if you had ever let me love you in the way I desperately wanted to, I would’ve loved you more than anything, but fine. Don’t even miss me. Moving on. 

[lnkedwords]

Your existence is just a chapter in my book. Short, but important.

Haiku 19/365 (via lnkedwords)

[she-likes-bittersweet-love]

[thelovejournals]

I hated myself for needing him at such times, for craving his strength whenever I felt upset.

Kathy Reichs, Déjá Dead (via thelovejournals)

[bvblegion]

[imgfave]

[makingangelwings-deactivated201]

But then I realized I was holding onto something that didn’t exist anymore. That the person I missed didn’t exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change. And we could wish all day long that they didn’t, but they always will.

Sarah Ockler (via shrugged)

[permeate]

‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.

Foer (v (via sexiest-boy)

[inner-alliance]

I can’t tell him I love him or express it in any way really, so I just keep shouting it to the void because it has to go someplace 

[booksqouted]

People fall so in love with their pain, they can’t leave it behind. The same as the stories they tell. We trap ourselves.

Chuck Palahniuk, Haunted  (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

[calins]

[peachghosts]

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[wnq-writers]

I don’t need another temporary person. I want someone who, even when I am an unlovable mess, will look at me with love in their eyes and stay.

palestiniansunset  (via wnq-writers)

[darker-skies]

If you can love the wrong one so much, just imagine how much you can love the right one.

(via melisica)