Angelyouth

18 That pounding in the sky is just a drain pipe vibrating

[inourangelyouth]

2nd band practice and I went to the toilet when I came back the room was empty and I had a text saying we’ve gone to get food i don’t know if I should be upset about that

[inourangelyouth]

Do I look like I listen to Car seat Headrest and study photography?

[inourangelyouth]

[inourangelyouth]

This is to cool for instagram

[inourangelyouth]

I apologise for the person I was 5 minutes ago

[inourangelyouth]

It’s silly not a big deal, going to try sleep without my shirt which is normal for everyone really although I feel so disgusted in my self I can’t even bring myself to. I have an image in my head of an early summer morning, napping with my curtains drawn and my shoulders out the covers and the nape of my neck turned to the morning light, I think this thought may have been plucked from a memory of me from some place else distant and unfamiliar to the me who is Perceiving it.

[inourangelyouth]

I cant wait to tell you all the embarrassing things in my life and for you to like me a little bit more for that, ill say that its weird I still can't go to sleep without the comfort of my childhood teddy and you'll laugh and call me cute and say its ok and like me a little more for it and over time you'll even start to love me a little for it. ill tell you how im scared of alcohol you won't call me lame or get turned away from it, you'll say its ok and stay sober with me at the parties eventually well get board here because everyone is so and were not, well have our own party, on the couch, with warm drinks and a movie with our blankets and with our love.

[inourangelyouth]

Had a panic attack for like four hours and felt awful but now im okay. Recently did a lot of emotional unpacking and have really discovered the root to a lot of who I am and why I am the way I am. the knowing is hard but the fixing is harder.

[inourangelyouth]

Thinking about the time where both my high school friends both said “sometimes you just say things” and giggled. I’m still so fucking confused on how else I’m meant to start a conversation?

[pronounyaoi]

dude stop before i develop a strange and powerful fondness for you

[inourangelyouth]

This connects on a deeply personal level

[inourangelyouth]

my laptop is cold against my bare lap, I got up and cleaned my room today. its night now and I have my lamps on, I always got so productive when I have a crush. because I feel loved or because Im scared I think is both.

[inourangelyouth]

When your so embarrassed you honestly just have to pop a squat on the floor and stay there for a while

[inourangelyouth]

Im doing a photoshoot for this band tomorrow they are very bad at communicating.

"What time should I be there at?"

"whenever you want!"

Uhm excuse me??? FUCKING GIVE ME A TIME

[inourangelyouth]

Happy Christmas Eve losers! Posted this to my insta and my aunt asked if I was crying. Like the fuck no!?! Im just super cool

[inourangelyouth]

Tomorrow I’m going to meet a cute boy at college and Im going to give him a wee smile and complement him, he’ll say thank you and he’ll complement me I’ll ask I’m for his instagram and he’ll say yes. We’ll text back and forth silly funny little conversational things, one day he’ll ask to go on a date in a very hesitant “sorry if I got the wrong impression way” I’ll giggle and say yes. I’ll buy flowers and take the buss into town I’ll meet him and hand him the flowers half crushed from being in my tote bag but that doesn’t matter because he did the same, he doesn’t have a vase but rather presses them into his journal and I’ll place them into my bookshelf laying flat. We’ll have dinner or even just a coffee someplace small someplace quite we go on more dates walking, the botanic gardens, museums eventually we make this “official” we love each other we really do I have my legs over his lap and my head on his shoulder the movie is playing but I don’t look up because I don’t want to move away from him. He kisses me on the head and I kiss his bicep that’s around my shoulder. My brother’s young and doesn’t understand my father’s fake and puts up with it but we both laugh it off. Tonight I’ll go to sleep with this thought and I’ll wake up early I’ll be to tried to remember this and I’ll get ready for college and I’ll get onto campus and I’ll see him and forget everything else. I’ll say I love his style or he looks cool because I don’t think I have much to lose anyway

[inourangelyouth]

People with moustaches under the age of 20 shave that shit off

[inourangelyouth]

Rising sun waiting on bus