IDFK

the psychotic ramblings of a disabled queer in their 20s with extreme traumas and mental issues/disorders 18+, lots of weird, fucked up and possibly horny posts proceed with caution [this is a side vent blog]

[insanecreetur]

I want to completely dissappear from existence.

No trace of me anywhere not even in memories.

[maxxie-or-smth]

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

[romancenjoyer]

i’m doing really well for someone who goes through the five stages of grief every day

[girlstressed]

sorry i cant talk rn im busy thinking about how i should have done everything differently

[twistedangelboness]

imagine hating me and im just in my room straight up sobbing

[aggressionbread]

depressed in my room pumping out those 0-noters like its 2017

[fromhersoul]

[motelhymns]

when you’re laying in your bed crying and wondering when the pain and fear will stop and suddenly you’re 14 years old again and wondering why everyone you love hurts you and uses you and leaves you and why you aren’t good enough

[echoesofsaturn]

somewhere between idgaf and vomiting from anxiety

[aurol]

i think i accidentally break my own heart a lot

[maxxie-or-smth]

10 am faded as fuck going "am i unwanted"

[insanecreetur]

I'm so fucking exhausted with life. I'm tired of having to be the bigger person all the time. I'm tired of carrying everyone's emotional baggage but no one's willing to take a sliver of mine. I'm tired of fighting and caring so much. I'm tired of finding out that you wanna start trying as soon as I've given up. Like the past year of me begging for communication courtesy and respect just didn't exist until now. Now, when I'm quiet distant and standoffish, now you wanna try. You didn't want to when I was gentle attentive and poured my all into it, but now that's it gone you do?

I should've seen it coming. Fuck you. I hate that I still love and care about you even with all the bullshit, I wish I could just sever that connection. I don't want to but I do? What the fuck did you do to me to make me feel this way? Take it back and fucking keep it.

[mistermachoman]

"are you okay?" absolutely not but i'd rather kill everyone in the room than talk about it

[meanbuddhist]

just identified a behavioral pattern within myself

[maxxie-or-smth]

anyone else feel like they were made to be hit and abused

[sisyphus-complex2]

Do you want to come over and spiral with me?

[poisonpupx-deactivated20260504]

it ' s me and my passive suicidal ideation against the world