Insightful Trash

A personal blog for emptying out thoughts, art inspiration, and other random stuff.

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Everybody has a chapter they don’t read out loud.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

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I find it funny that I am so stubborn to admit that I have a problem with my mental heath despite all the symptoms being seen. It must be the social stigma or maybe it’s just the disorder talking. 

“Hey I don’t really want to bother anyone with my problems, so I’ll just pretend they don’t exist and carry on”

Yeah right, that’s BS! 

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Why the heck are meetings during such inconvenient times!?

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I saw this on a meme page and this is how I feel as I drown myself in caffeine and try to get my act together.

[anxietyproblem]

@anxietyproblem​

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I know it’s the stress talking but my mind won’t stop telling itself to “kill me”. I don’t necessary yearn for death, and I think it’s normal to feel such frustration with oneself when there are so many things to do and not enough time. When there is time you feel like you’re trying to use it to rest, but rest is never enough. You need to catch up on healing yourself but it doesn’t heal all the way.

The mind is overstimulated. Day and night. We’re always thinking and always processing information. Where is the end? When we’re not, we are restless. The brain is prepared to contain more information, but there is none to behold. Is this what technology use has done? A double edged blade that gives us accessible knowledge to benefit ourselves, yet makes us aware of the fact that everyone around us is doing something beneficial for themselves? This competitive stance is exhausting. All of it is exhausting and we’ll never be satisfied with ourselves because even though we know that it’s futile, we want to strive for perfection. 

Well, perfection is an illusion.

The photo manipulation is absurd. The endless stream of people making progress in their work turns into one entity that surpasses us as an individual when we perceive it. We may forget that those we see, too have flaws. They’re not going to flaunt it around until they’ve found their stable zone or maybe they never will. 

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I’m not anything special

Don’t even try to convince me otherwise. I’m somebody in this world who creates drawings when I feel like it and go through life like it’s no one else’s business. I want to say I’m modest, but part of me says I’m rather arrogant.

I am unique to myself yet I’m just another face in a crowd. I don’t want to be seen, yet I want people to notice me. At the same time...I wish they wouldn’t associate me with anything. I am simply being. I exist. There’s no need to make my existence linger.

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I know so little, but I don’t know where to begin.

Step by step they say, but something about me is all or nothing

Someday that’ll come to me.

All or Nothing

It’s a process desiring patience.

[purplebuddhaquotes]

In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain the old pain.

Mary Manin Morrissey (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[hellothisisangle]

More rain please

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Today is a bad day, where I feel defeated but have just enough strength to carry on.

I don’t feel like doing much. I’m exhausted, but this isn’t the time to rest.

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Today is one of my bad days, where I am looking towards everyone else but not myself.

Comparing how they’re better than me and how they’re capable of making a difference to their life. All their hard work has began to blossom but I’ve been here soaking in my own dread, fears, doubts, and jealousy.

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Life is full of terrors, yet we must keep fighting.

It’s not the end game until you’ve decided to let delude yourself into thinking there’s nothing you can do without even considering the potential that lies within.

Every human being has the potential to do something good or bad without needing anything in return. 

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Life is filled with uncertainty, and I think that is why people are worried about leaving things to chance or waiting for the right moment. 

It’s not necessarily wrong to wait or to take action. Some moments come from hard work and recognition, but I think chance can also play an opportunity. This doesn’t mean that you dream without doing anything with your life.

It means live your life and be the best person you can be. Take the opportunities even if you don’t know what is in store for you. Sometimes these opportunities are almost effortless but lead to something else entirely. Maybe it’s because you’re having fun or it’s not something of a great deal. Sometimes it’s a small thing that leads to another thing. Don’t stand idle and ignore uncertainties. 

Hard work is part of this process, but it might not always be the key. I would say courage is the key to igniting things for the years to come, even when you’re shaking in your boots and can see the comfort of the barrier surrounding you, cracking like pierced glass. 

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I’m alive and that’s what matters.

Wherever fate has led me up to, I need to decide for myself. Should it wish me an eternal slumber, I shall evade. It has no hold on someone’s will.

Should it wish me a trial to prepare me for the reasoning of my existence, then I shall face it.

[dailypsychologyfacts]

Top 10+ Lessons of Depression

Depression is an evil monster and if you let it win. It’s game over. No matter how destructive it is, you can learn some valuable lessons. These will make you stronger and compassionate towards the suffering of other human beings. After years of torment and struggle, I now see life differently. It isn’t as dark anymore. Depression has grown empathy and understanding in me. Here are the top 10+ lesson I have learned:

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[jamietot]

The trick here is to remind yourself it is temporary. #GoodRead

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When I think about using introversion as an excuse to being unable to find the will to talk to people, I have to remember the moment Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki talk about themselves as introverts. While taking sometime for themselves, going to places alone is an ideal scenario off the job, reaching out to their fans, family, and friends are also important.

If we all stuck ourselves in pigeon holes, we’d be stunting our potential. 

Surely we have a preference, but that doesn’t mean we should always follow it if another choice would help us grow as people. There’s a more meaningful purpose if we’re willing to go the extra mile.

All this from supernatural convention videos on YouTube. If they hadn’t spoken of it, then maybe I would still be pigeon holing myself.