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I’m drowning

Can’t you come save me from myself?

I’ve never been so alone

isn’t love enough?

Here I am, trapped again. I count on you for those little hits of dopamine, only to be sorely hurled back into reality. I thought I could count on you to shield me, maybe for just a bit longer each time, until I could leave reality behind. But you throw me back into the flames; the one person I rely on is no more.

a reminder that life isn’t a movie.

There is no pitch perfect plea for forgiveness that comes. No grand gestures. No saviours. There’s just me, waiting, in anger and sadness, wishing things were easier.

Isn't it funny.

How we think we've grown up, or become cynical, or lost that naivete, but we still cling onto hope - that there will be some grand moment where someone will prove us wrong. They will come running after us and restore our faith in all. That feeling never quite goes away, even as time passes, and the universe proves us wrong, wrong, wrong again. And so, we withdraw a little, telling ourselves "never again", only to be sorely disappointed the one more time (or maybe a few more).

Finally

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And I found myself in empty coffee shops, not so much for the people or the taste, but for being surrounded by the feeling of missing you and even when you were no longer real, I stayed because a part of the emptiness was comforting enough for me to keep going back.

Ming D. Liu, Complacency (via mingdliu)