can you hear the ocean?

"I will miss the water lilies; white are still my sheets of linen. Father, father — will you forget me when I've crossed the seventh sea."   Semi-Selective Indie Account for Annie Cresta. Tracking: insxnumcresta Mun is of age but NSFW posts would be very limited.

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send me ☿ for a starter with my genderbent muse!

[valuablesecrets-deactivated2015]

Finnick didn’t answer to the question about the water, nor to the secret about the nightmares. What was there to say? Every victor had the nightmares. He knew he had to respond, still, so he did. “A normal person, say, person x, sleeps about eight hours a night. He wishes he could sleep more, because he likes to sleep, but this person x has three children and a wife that need, love, attention and food. Now, a victor usually doesn’t have any of the above. No wife, no children, but also no wish for more sleep. The game after the Games is to not get caught up in the Games.” He cocked his head to your side and shrugged his shoulders. Partially, he was implying he lived on coffee and fish - which he sort of was. “You’re not crazy,” he answered. “You won the Games and now you’re battling with that game that no one will understand — person x sure won’t.” He wanted to ignore the question about the Capitol and talk about you, but he figured there was a reason why you asked. He sighed. “I have a lot of lovers in the Capitol. They do need their love and attention.”

[insxnumcresta]

Annie didn't decide to bother him again about her questions. She was asking too much anyway. All day, every day she was always asking for a lot. Annie bit her lip. "The game after the Games is not to get caught up in the Games?" It was so true and so funny. And it was funny because it was true. Annie started to laugh slightly hysterically. "I wish I had someone to give love, attention and food to. So I won't be so stuck inside my thoughts and selfish. Person x is lucky." She replied. "Thank you." Annie said drawing out every syllable. "The game after the Games is even harder, I think." A thought that had become repetitive in the following months came to her mind. A dark cloud passed over her. "I wasn't supposed to win the actual Games, Finn. Maybe my nightmares are worse because life wants to pay back for cheating out of it." Upon hearing about how Finnick needed to give his lovers love and attention Annie turned to him. "Don't you also need love and attention Finn?" Annie questioned. "Why don't they just come and see you?" When Annie had gotten to the Capitol she was very much aware of how flashy and affluent the residents were. Was it really that hard for them to come and visit Finn in district four?

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"I just got back from the Capitol, I’m trying to clear my mind here," he answered with a shrug of his shoulders. He sat down on the sand, next to her. "So we’re both here. And thinking. How have you been?" He hadn’t seen you around much since the Games - like you locked yourself up in that new house of yours, or something.

[insxnumcresta]

"Do you think it looks better like this Finn? The water I mean" Annie asked almost numbly, staring at him for a bit. "I have a lot of nightmares." She said after a long spell of silence. "Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm dreaming or awake." She hadn't been able to tell anyone but Mags and him this. "People whisper that I'm crazy Finnick, do you think I am?"Annie felt bad for not seeing him, for being selfish and living inside her head. Even know the conversation was all about her and not about him. "Why do you always have to go to the Capitol? I like you here and I think you like you here to."

[insxnumcresta]

Wants to do Reversed!Odesta with an Annie Cresta who is the 'mermaid' of the Capitol but loves her poor mad man in district four. Someone do this with me pleaseee.

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xaegrus started following you insxnumcresta started following you

"What are you doing on the beach at night?"

[insxnumcresta]

"I like thinking here Finn and I like how the water looks with the moon. It's almost better than how the water looks with the sun. What are you doing on the beach?"

[rexmare-blog]

"There is no light inside of a broken heart."

                              「♕」—he didn’t often snap like this,                                             but something made him so                                             defensive & he couldn’t help it.

                                           ‘ you don’t think i know that?! ‘

[insxnumcresta]

      She should have thought more.  Why did she even say such a callous thing in the first place? 

——— "I'm sorry Finnick. What I said was wrong. Your heart is not broken to me but ——but if you think it is, then I will spend my life mending it."

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"I recognize you. Your name’s Annie, right?"

[insxnumcresta]

Life was cruel and unfair and this little girl didn't deserve to go through this. Like the other victors she had known of her. Annie's heart saddened when she remembered a person or two saying a little girl like her wouldn't make it far in the arena but with the thought that she had, even after what..what had happened gave her a reason for hope and gave her a little smile. "Yes, you are Rue. You're very pretty."

[retiariius]

"This is not fair."

❛ nothing the capitol does is ever gonna be fair. ❜

   it wasn’t the first time the two had had this conversation. did he want   to do it? absolutely not, did he have a choice though? no.

                       ❛ you know why i can’t say no.❜

[retiariius]

   ❛ it’s just for two days this time. ❜

   he’d been gone for weeks before, but maybe this time    the capitol may have actually listened to his plea that he    couldn’t keep this up consistently.

[insxnumcresta]

First she was silent. She took his hands into her slender ones. Annie realized how much she wasn't helping him. All she was doing was adding more stress to Finnick.❝If..if it gets to bad think of the sea and the sand. Think of waking up to eggs. Think of Mags and her smile. Think of home. Think of how much I love you. Think of these things because they are never going away.❞

[insxnumcresta]

"I don’t mean to bother you, but can you help me?"

"Bother me? You can’t bother someone who loves you Sabine. Never forget that. I’m not very good at doing things like your father is though but I will do my best for you."

[insxnumcresta]

*clears throat*: fiNNICK ODAIR IS A PRECIOUS BABY WHO LOVED A WOMAN WHO WAS SO BROKEN AND CREATED BEAUTIFUL FRIENDSHIPS IN THE MIDDLE OF A HORRIFIC WAR AND HE HAD A BEAUTIFUL WEDDING AND DIED FOR THE KIDS. FOR HIS CHILDREN. FOR ALL THE CHILDREN WHO WOULDN'T HAVE TO SUFFER LIKE HE DID. LIKE ANNIE DID AND LIKE JOHANNA AND MAGS AND KATNISS AND PEETA AND HAYMITCH AND BEETEE AND WIRESS AND ALL OF THE VICTIMS OF THE VICIOUS GAMES THAT TOOK TOO MANY LIVES TOO QUICKLY AND HE DIED PROTECTING THE MOCKINGJAY

[insxnumcresta]

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"Never give up, it's such a wonderful life."

"Some things are best left unspoken."

"Do you know how it feels to let you go?"

"I feel so lost."

"Talk to me. Tell me your lies."

"Just take my hands. I'll make it all better."

"I don't feel safe."

"All my life I've felt this way, but I could never find the words to say."

"Since the day I left I see your face in every crowd."

"I feel lust like a sick disease."

"I know you need me too."

"I'm going home."

"Remember when it was just you and me?"

"Don't bring me back to life."

"Such a beautiful lie."

"I need somebody to die for."

"Love is not that easy!"

"Someday when you wake up happy you'll thank the Lord that I'm gone."

"It's a long way down when you're alone."

"I'll forget about you."

"Don't cry, please don't cry."

"I came so close to giving up."

"When I go, you will be someone new."

"There is no turning back."

"I've got nothing left to live for, but no reason yet to die."

"I see you when I close my eyes."

"Can you hear me?"

"I'm tired of being afraid."

"You'll be better off on your own."

"All I want for Christmas is New Year's Day."

"Home is where the heart is."

"You know I love you."

"We all get hurt by love."

"I can't sleep."

"I will give you my devotion until the end of time."

"I have no reason to forgive you."

"I'm afraid of myself."

"Nothing that I do will ever be enough for you."

"I wish that I was stronger."

"I could never live without you."

"Can you keep a secret?"

"Why are you out by yourself so late?"

"I'll never leave you again."

"My heart is empty."

"There's nothing left to lose."

"I'd rather be lonely than by your side."

"Look at what you've done!"

"Don't leave tonight."

"I can't hold my head up high with the weight of the world on my shoulders."

"You will never be forgotten with me by your side."

"Carry me away from the pain."

"Is this the end of the love that had just begun?"

"Things we never say are often best left alone."

"I can't cry any more tears."

"I wish I could stay with you tonight."

"Things are going to get better."

"Things aren't going to get better."

"Time waits for no one, so do you want to waste some time tonight?"

"I've been waiting my whole life to tell you how I feel."

"There is no light inside of a broken heart."

"No matter where they take me, death I will survive."

"Don't let go."

"I need you."

"I don't need this life."

"Stay with me. Please."

[insxnumcresta]

I DON'T KNOW WHETHER TO MAKE KYLIE BUNBURY FC AS IRIS WEST OR KYLIE BUNBURY FC PRINCESS TIANA

[insxnumcresta]

Change FC to Astrid or Willa? Or Keep Crystal hmm.

[retiariius]

"This is not fair."

❛ nothing the capitol does is ever gonna be fair. ❜

   it wasn’t the first time the two had had this conversation. did he want   to do it? absolutely not, did he have a choice though? no.

                       ❛ you know why i can’t say no.❜

[insxnumcresta]

❝I just..❞

Annie felt stunted. She knew that he couldn't just say no. That President Snow would hurt him if he did. Still.

❝I hate seeing you like this.❞

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insxnumcresta

Lux was watching as Finnick and Mags took their places upon the carriage, their costumes glittering like the waves did in the summer back home. Beside her, the remaining Victors to escape the fate of their friends stood watching as the carriages began their procession, the roaring of the crowd deafening even from where they were standing.

[insxnumcresta]

To Annie it is not fair and she can't stand it. She can't help but worry and wonder. She knew Mags and Finnick would take care of each other but the fact that they were going back there. It broke every piece of her heart.  Tears didn't stopping gushing down her eyes. Already she missed the way Finnick smelled and Mag's benevolent smile. The sound of the crowd's suddenly became all to clear. "Why are they so loud?" She asked, facing to a familiar blonde. "Lux." Her voice quiet as the grass in this moment. "Why is the crowd so loud?"

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Johanna   hated  walking  through  the   pristine,   white, silent  halls  of  one  particular  building  in  the   Capitol. Something about  the  stillness  unsettled  her.  It  made her feel like she was being watched and like  something would   jump   out   and   grab   her   at   any     moment. Nonetheless, she walked along the straight paths alone, paths alone, trying to push her paranoia to the  deepest corners of her mind where they would  not  be  silenced, but  at  least  switched  to  a  lower  volume.  All  of   her attempts were failing, the  thoughts  only  fueled  by  the lack of stimuli in her surroundings. The anxious whispers subsided slightly as her eyes landed on a  distraction  in the form of a fellow victor Johanna had spotted.

           ❝Well, if it isn’t Annie Cresta,❞ she said, shattering            the silence into a thousand fragments. 

                         ❝What brings you here?❞

[insxnumcresta]

She hated here. She hated here. She hated here.The Capitol with all it's bright colors and brighter people intimidated her. They all kept looking. Fortunately it was less than when she came out of the Hunger Games. She never said 'victor' or 'winner' merely because she never felt like she won anything. No one wins in the Capitol except the Captiol. The building she was in was polished to the umpteenth level. Much more different to her house in District Four. Annie missed her home more than ever. She'd ask Finnick how long more would they have to stay in the Capitol. Yes, a great idea. Eye's closed and thoughts away it took her long to recognize the familiarity of the voice and even longer to react to it. Heaven,she was glad to see a friendly face. 

                         ❝Johanna.❞

Her trademark glassy and nervous smile on her features. She bit her lip.

                         ❝I'm not quite sure but if you ask Finnick he will know. What about you?❞

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     ”But please, mom?”

[insxnumcresta]

     ❝You know if I could, I would.❞

❝I would do anything for you but going to that side isn't..safe.❞