I honestly just can't deal with anything right now anymore.
At this point I really just want to drop out of school and figure out my life. If I do that, will school be in the future ? I don't know, hopefully, cause then at least I'll have a degree. Sometimes I think that school isn't right for me, but then I think about all the times my parents tell me they want me to have a better future and all that jazz. I really just don't know anymore though.
I'm so overwhelmed by finals and everything and I just want to take a break. This is by far the stressed finals week I've had and I can't seem to calm myself down. I'm having mental breakdowns. I'm crying. This is ridiculous. I don't cry.
To add to that, my parents are being so unsupportive right now. I'm really not a needy person, but sometimes I just need their support and for them to understand me. I really just don't want to deal with their bullshit right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for everything they've done for me, but for right, can I just be selfish and make them listen to me ?
I know I put all of this upon myself when I cram, and each quarter I tell myself to learn from my mistakes and not to make the same one again next quarter, but I never learn.
There's just too much going on right now that I can't even deal with how fucked up my personal life is. My personal life is a complete joke right now. I focus on the things that don't matter. I try my hardest to impress people who don't care. I let myself go to temptation.
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