a confession blog for introjects

are you a factive? a fictive? a mix of the two, however you wanna label yourself? then send in your confessions here! (DNI: MAPs/p*dos and supporters, homophobes, transphobes, panphobes, biphobes, anti-BLM or pro "all lives matter" or "blue lives matter", tr*mp supporters, anti-endos)

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Welcome to Introjectfessions!

What is this blog?

This is a confession blog for fictives and factives from systems!

Can kin people send stuff in too?

No! ♥️ Unless you're an introject talking about how kinning relates to yourself as an introject. Like a fictive talking about what they think about kinning, etc.

What are the submission guidelines?

Please specify what type of introject you are in your confession if you want us to tag it as that! Otherwise we'll just tag it as a general introjectfession.

Don't use this blog to call out other systems, mention other systems by name, etc. It could get sticky, and we don't want that.

Nothing graphically NSFW or graphically describing harm/gore. This is a safe blog!

Don't send s*ic*de notes or death threats here. We'll delete them.

Who runs this blog?

A system! We probably won't tell you our main blog, but for anyone worried that introjectfessions was run by a singlet, it's not! We're a relatively introject-heavy system, so hopefully we know enough to run this blog.

Anything else we need to know?

If you need any triggers tagged, just tell us and we'll list them! We'll be using a similar tagging system to the fictionkinfessions blog.

We promo system servers! Just tag us in or send us the promo post and we'll promo it!

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The “rule” that introjects never, ever form through the indirect influence of others makes me feel like shit. I’m an introject, and I “match” an introject from the system we are closest to. I formed after we met them. We have never told them the truth about me and I don’t think we ever can. Because my existence is taboo.

Am I fake? I don’t think I am. Why wouldn’t it be possible for this to happen sometimes? I know some people lie, and pretend to have “matching” introjects to manipulate others, but that doesn’t mean everyone this happens to is doing it on purpose to manipulate. Other people, companionship, and the lack of it, are very important to our survival. Especially for systems who have been painfully isolated their entire lives. You latch onto someone, they’re important to you, you love them. Your brain attaches and forms things against your will. I just don’t understand why companionship isn’t viewed as a survival need just like everything else.

Are there any other introjects who feel this way, or have formed this way, or systems who have had this experience? Are there any old introjects who formed this way but still exist years later?

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I love being an oc alter most days, I do. There's just a tenderness of how the host loved the source so much that they made me to interact with it; and then I formed as an alter! But other days, it's just sadness about missing friends who only exist in your version, and even if you make friends from slightly different versions of your source, they won't know you at all. Like, I just want my husband and friends..

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a clear pattern we have noticed in our system: *comes into existence and immediately starts missing older brother*

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I'm someone from Redacre. From the game The Blackout Club. I was hosting HTS and that was a damn mistake. I miss my brother. I miss my mom. Being in a system is weird right now and I just wanna go home, no matter how fucked up it is right now. -M

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i actually like being treated as how i am in my source, as long as people realize i feel real emotions

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Im the host of my system, and i have been like the body was 12. What i think happened was, i split into existence and the original host went dormant when i split. I didnt realize i was a factive until today and im realizing how much ive grown away from my source (the body is almost 18 now). Its not a bad feeling, but i am in a lot of shock. Im still trying to understand that im this body isnt just mine and fighting against denial and realizing my source is a huge step. A few weeks ago was when i realized the old host and i were different. It all happens in steps i guess.

The biggest thing was keeping me from realizing my source was the fact that I and my source are different genders. I used to spell my name more closely to my source but recently changed my name some.

-Jacqui, a jacksepticeye introject

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Sees another [me] fictive. On the outside: "Oh cool the more the merrier :)" On the inside: "I'm the most fuckable [me] fictive on this webbed site"

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I hate not having people from my timeline in system, like brain you have way too many mcyt introjects for your own good and then you make none of them from the same timeline? Seriously? I just want my platonic husband, but MY husband, not the 13 other versions of him the brain has. But also im just too awkward to talk to other systems so i just get stuck hoping the next person the brain splits is him -Toby

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You ever feel embarrassed about being fictive heavy system? Yeah, me too.

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Being a Total Dr@ma introject means having an absolutely awful fandom.

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me: [has multiple boyfriends] // also me: whERre is my boyfriend from timelINNEEEE :sobs: -💎🎮

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to all my introjects who have accents do you guys ever just talk in your accent around people who don't know you're a system and then go "WAIT NO WAIT REVERT"

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god i just LOVE (/s) being from a somewhat obscure source AND having separation anxiety.

my brother JUST got brought back from the dead and now i’m in this whole different place?? and i can’t find him anywhere???? and i can’t find any of my friends either?????? so. kinda sad.

i wish i could talk to our system friends about my memories with these people without having to explain the really basic stuff (like their name and what they do and stuff) but it feels like nobody knows who we are.

[🌌 sys ✨]

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this system has like 9,000 (/ex) fictives from one source and the second most popular character from said source is a postrigger for a little and a negtrigger for a persecutor at the same time. everytime i (host and demifictive) wanna go through source tags and i see that character our brain spins a roulette wheel (/hj) to decide whether i have to deal with omnipowerful and omnihungry baby who wants his dad or angry vengeful swordsman that hates his twin

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It's my first time fronting since I split and I'm already being gay and embarrassing our other alters. Thinking about kissing Engineer and Medic. I love you two. - Corporal Shephard (Half-Life: Opposing Force fictive)

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yo r u guys still active?

yeah snfkdbfn we went inactive for,, a good while! but we're back now, hopefully for good, or at least for a while!