The Introverted and Queer

Hey there! I'm JM. My Pronouns are they/them, I'm an introverted individual, I speak my consciousness through writing, photography, and music. Welcome to my blog Instagram: jenzelmhar

[mohammedaldeeb]

Dear Reader,🌹

I am Dr. Mohammed Aldeeb, a dedicated medical professional specializing in emergency care, hailing from the Gaza Strip. 🇵🇸 ✌🕊

For years, I poured my heart and soul into my work at Al-Shifa Hospital, tending to the wounded and the ailing with compassion and skill.😀

However, the ravages of war tore through our lives😓, forcing me to abandon my cherished home and the familiar walls of the hospital where I once found solace😥💔.

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Leaving behind the echoes of laughter and camaraderie, I embarked on a painful journey southward, bidding farewell to the streets where I grew up😓💔, the corners where I sought refuge, and the colleagues who felt like family. Memories of my formative years and the countless lives I touched during my tenure at Al-Shifa and other medical facilities flooded my mind😥, as I struggled to come to terms with the sudden upheaval.

Despite the adversities that besieged me, I persevered in my pursuit of healing. My determination led me to Al-Azhar University, where I embraced the role of a teaching assistant, imparting knowledge to aspiring medical students with unwavering dedication. Dreams of specializing in internal medicine beckoned me back to Al-Shifa Hospital, but alas, the brutal onslaught of war reduced it to rubble, shattering my aspirations in its wake.

In the chaos and carnage of conflict, I sustained injuries, and the sanctuary of my home was obliterated, leaving my family and me destitute and displaced. Yet, amid the ruins, a flicker of hope persists. At Al-Aqsa Hospital, I continue to extend a helping hand to those in need, drawing strength from the resilience instilled in me through years of education and service.

Today, we find ourselves sheltering in a humble tent, stripped of our possessions and livelihoods. The loss of my job, my home, and the comforting presence of my loved ones weighs heavily on my heart. Nevertheless, I refuse to surrender to despair, clinging to the belief that brighter days lie ahead.

It is with a heavy heart that I reach out to you, dear reader, seeking assistance in securing safe passage for myself and my family from the turmoil of Gaza. With your kindness and generosity, I hope to reclaim the path to realizing my medical vocation, enabling me to provide for my loved ones and contribute to the healing of our wounded world.

Your compassionate aid would mean the world to me and my family.

With gratitude and hope,

Dr. Mohammed Aldeeb

Gaza Strip

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[petrowriting]

this year while we all celebrate pride month and celebrate ourselves as well as those who came before us and paved the way for us to do so, we must also think of those in gaza, queer or not, who live every day under a brutal occupation and don’t have that same privilege. happy pride, and may we see a free palestine in this lifetime.

[introvertedandqueer]

May NSFW/R18 content na pala ulit dito sa Tumblr. Gulat ako biglang may t*t* sa feed ko HAHAHA.

[introvertedandqueer]

This has been in my mind lately…

There are lots of bad things going on both in the local setting and internation setting. And at times like this it’s important to not dwell on it but instead continue to fight for these causes.

Plaestine will be free.

Sudan and Congo will be free.

No to failed PUV Modernization. The Filipino People will be free from influence of imperial powers such as US and China, tyrrany, cronyism, neocolonial and neoliberal decisions.

I know a lot of us can’t be on the frontline of this, but we have to raise awareness for those who actively fight to make things better and support them. Because at this point we have to be as organized as those who oppress us.

[introvertedandqueer]

I love Mitski’s new album. How come I’ve just listened to it now?!

[introvertedandqueer]

I think I need to meet new people and befriend them. My circle of friends are too busy to hang out with each other and it’s making me feel left out and lonely 😩

[introvertedandqueer]

It’s so important to be articulate when being in a relationship in that way you can communicate what you truly feel and not resent your partner. Afterall, no one can read minds.

[introvertedandqueer]

My thoughts scares me sometimes in a way that a part of me thinking it’s has some truth to it. Like it’s begging me to dig deeper and ask myself the question “Am I hiding something from myself?”. It messes with my mind.

[introvertedandqueer]

Truly Loving Someone

Being truly in love with someone is not an easy feat. It takes a great deal of patience, understanding, and effort. While at the same time, you have to navigate your limits so you won’t get lost and blinded by love.

And giving you all means growth for you and that special someone. And that growth comes with growing pains and trials that test the foundation of the relationship. But in the end, you’ll be rewarded for how fleeting and gratifying it is to truly love someone.

[introvertedandqueer]

Past Lives

For some personal reason, I find this film relatable. I find it peaceful and not tragic. More than that, I find it realistic.

In some type of way, I experienced the same thing. We were good friends but drifted apart since we focused building our lives and careers. A few years passed, and we reconnected, I was about to admit my feelings for him but he had someone already.

So I distanced myself, and a few years later, in unexpected circumstances, we were on the same LRT train. We just glanced at each other. Left it there. In a way, this movie for me is a statement of closure.

[introvertedandqueer]

One of the worst delusions I experienced due to my bipolar disorder is when I believed that everyone that I love is out to betray me.

And since I ran out of meds months ago due to financial reasons the delusion and paranoia lingered for months. It overwhelmed me with intense hurtful feelings and thoughts. I cried almost everynight and can barely sleep.

And I almost ruined my healthy relationship with my mother, sister, best friend and partner. But I’m glad they understood what’s happening and reminded me that I have lost my grounding and that I’m not my usual self. And they helped me navigate the whole ordeal until I became ok again.

[introvertedandqueer]

He knows how to love me

I’m so grateful that I have a partner who listens, reassuring, and understanding whenever I don’t feel like myself.

I’m so grateful to have found a partner that is willing to communicate the uncomfortable with me and knows how to love me. I’ve never felt more safe and calm.

And I love our dynamic, I think what brought us closer together is we’re both introverted and so observant that we notice subtle changes in each other which gives us a deeper understanding of one another.

Even when conflict arises we make sure that we reach a fruitful resolution that will help grow our love for one another. It feels good that finally I have someone who is willing to lay out all the options first and always comes from a place of understanding when resolving issues. And I’m glad that we can safely express how we feel with one another now matter how good or bad it is.

[introvertedandqueer]

Hi, I’m back on tumblr again. I thought I wouldn’t use this again, but after a while I realized that tumblr helped me gather and express my mind without judgement and inhibitions especially at times when I feel lonely or misunderstood.

I think it has been a year since I last posted here, but I’m glad I’m using this again. I like expressing myself by writing stuff about what’s going on with my life, it helps me cope with all the chaos.

[introvertedandqueer]

fuck this bipolar shit, ‘di lang makainom ng meds for three days at ‘di makasleep ng maayos mixed episode agad like gurl give me a break ang dami ko ng iniisip dagdag pa this lagi na lang ganito kapagod naaa huhu

[introvertedandqueer]

My goodness it is so fucking difficult to be mentally ill, stressed and be broke at the same time. Like which should I tend to first? I’m almost at my breaking point (again).

[introvertedandqueer]

When I’m too tired to deal with my impulsive and hypersexual urges, I usually just sleep it off. I mean if I can’t fight it, might as well shut down in my cozy bed to avoid regrettable decisions later on.

[slashericons]