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I always feel so guilty for making my roleplay partners wait for my reply. I’m having a lot of personal issues that keep me from replying and when I do finally get a chance to come on tumblr, I hesitate to even do my drafts because of my guilt. I know they say it’s fine but it isn’t. They shouldn’t have to wait so long for my replies. The partners that stick with me will never know how much I appreciate them.
Angst Starter Masterlist
" Aren't you going to say something?"
" And I thought I loved you."
" And I thought you loved me."
" Angry. I'm.. I'm angry."
" Aren't you even going to cry?"
" Are you going to cry?"
" Are you crying?"
" Are you okay?"
" Ask if I'm okay. Just ask."
" And this is why I don't want to stay anymore."
" Addiction isn't the way to go, ___ "
" Are you angry with me?"
" Are you afraid?"
" And now is the part where we say goodbye."
" And now you're going to leave me!"
" Are you just going to leave me?"
" Be friends with someone else."
" Boy/Girlfriend? Is that what you thought I meant?"
" Because you're such an ass and I- I just hate you!"
" But I've changed."
" But you've changed."
" Buy yourself something nice. Because I don't want this ring."
" But.. you're still alive?"
" Can't you just let me be happy for one?!"
" Can't you be happy for once?
" Can't you just be happy for me?"
" Come on, leave already!"
" Coward. That's all you are. A coward."
" Do you even know what you've done to me?"
" Do you have any remorse? "
" Don't you dare close your eyes on me!"
" Don't you dare die."
" Don't you care about me/her/him/them anymore?"
" Don't give me that look"
" Don't you want me to be happy?"
" Dammit! Everything was just starting to get better and then you do this!"
" Damn you."
" Don't lie to me."
" Don't like to him/her/them."
" Dammit.. Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! You fucking ass!"
" Everything is fucked up now- everything is fucked because of you!"
" Everything's gone to hell."
" Everyone hates me."
" Everyone hates you."
" Everything hurts."
" Everything's going to be okay."
" Everyone loves you, not me."
" Everything is falling apart."
" Everything fell apart and I can't pick up the pieces anymore."
" For someone whose dying, you seem kind of happy."
" Friends forever, right? Isn't that what you said?"
" Fuck off!"
" Fuck you!"
" Find a new place to live."
" Find a new girlfriend/boyfriend."
" Find a new best-friend."
" Fine. I'll leave."
" Forever and ever. That's how long I said I loved you. But you never said it back."
" Fucking hell, I hate you!"
" Get lost!"
" Get a job, you ass!"
" Get out of here!"
" Go get a life."
" Go. Just go."
" How are you still alive?"
" How long are you going to keep this up?"
" How long until you finally get lost?"
" How about I just leave."
" Hold up. You're breaking up with me?"
" Heaven doesn't exist."
" Hell is the only place we're going to be going."
" How about you leave now?"
" Is this how you're going to treat me?"
" I can't believe you."
" I'm a monster."
" I killed someone."
" I want to kill myself."
" I want to kill something."
" I'm running away."
" I'm leaving you."
" I can't look at you right now."
" I hope you die!"
" I don't understand."
" I'm so angry/sad. But you don't care."
" I can't hear anything."
" I'm dying."
" I have cancer."
" I can feel the darkness coming."
" I can't breathe."
" Just joking, I don't love you."
" Just go."
" Just leave me alone!"
" Just fuck off."
" Kill yourself. "
" Kindly get the hell away from me."
" Kids? I don't want kids."
" Kind. That's the one thing you can never manage to be."
" Lie. Just lie."
" Lie to me."
" Life is not worth living."
" Living isn't possible."
" Like I give a shit about you."
" Lies are all you're capable of."
" Lay down. It'll all be over soon."
" My heart is broken. "
" My.. everything hurts."
" My girlfriend/boyfriend left."
" My ____ is dead."
" Man, you're an asshole."
" My lies aren't working anymore."
" Mutt."
" Many times I lay awake and wonder why I'm alive anymore."
" Never again."
" Never speak to me again."
" No. I won't do it."
" No, I don't like you like that."
" No way in hell!"
" Now, now, is there really any reason to cry?"
" Now and again I really start to hate you."
" No. Stop crying, just stop it."
" Not how I wanted to spend my life."
" Never look at me again."
" People hate me."
" People hate you."
" Person? No, no. You're not a person. You're a robot."
" People like you sicken me."
" People like you deserve to die."
" Perhaps you should just leave, then."
" Piss off."
" Question: why are you still here?"
" Quiet. I'm getting sick of hearing your voice."
" Run away. That's what I'm doing."
" See? I hate you."
" See? You hate me."
" Sometimes I wonder why you stay with me."
" So.. you hate me, then?"
" So this is how it ends."
" Shoot me."
" Shit..."
" So why are you still here?"
" Sometimes people lie to me."
" Stories are just that. Stories."
" Took off with everything I had!"
" Time to go."
" This is the end. It's done."
" The story is ending now."
" This is the end."
" This is why I hate you."
" Then why do you say you love me?!"
" Unlike you I have friends."
" Unlike me, you have friends"
" Under the bed is were I have to hide from you."
" Underwater is where i want me coffin to be."
" Utter it again and I swear I'll kill you!"
" Very mature. Cunt."
" Why can't you row up?"
" Why cant you care about me?"
" Why do you hate me?"
" Why do I hate you?"
" What do you mean?"
" What?You're dying?"
" Why can't you just be you."
" When am I supposed to get my time to be happy?'
" Well. This isn't how it was supposed to end between us."
" Whatever, you asshole."
" Whenever you decide you can stand to talk to me ago, please do."
" Well. I hate you now."
" Well, you hate me now."
Are you okay sweetheart?
Shada’s head jerked up from where she had been rested her forehead against her knees. She sat curled up in the darkest corner of the living room, practically hidden behind the couch. Her worn black cloak settled around her shoulders and covering her body, her hood slid back a little as she looked up at him. “Y-Yeah, T-Tad-dashi. I-I’m… f-f-fine…” One pale hand rubbed at her eye, shaking in the process as she tried to act fine. Truthfully though, she wasn’t ok. Far from it. But the girl didn’t want to worry her friend and, as she saw him, guardian angel. inventor-and-invented
Tadashi frowned, raising one eyebrow slightly in his disbelief and sighing gently. He hated when anyone lied to him, especially when they said they were fine even if it was apparent that they weren’t. The haunted look on Shada’s face and the pronounced tremor in her voice were more than enough to give away just how not okay she was, and so with slow, cautious steps the Hamada boy walked over to her corner and sat down beside her. His movements were steady and deliberate, so as not to frighten her, and he kept his hands raised slightly to show he wasn’t going to harm her. God only knows what all cruelties Shada had faced in her time on the streets, but whatever had happened out there it had left her skittish and afraid.
Tenderly, he extended one hand to rest on her trembling shoulder, feeling how chilly he was under his warm touch. It made him shiver, and he silently reminded himself to get her a blanket when he got up again. For now he spoke softly to her, eyes wide and genuine, making his intent clear. “Shada, that’s a lie. You’re not fine, I can tell that much. Listen, you’re no trouble to me okay? If you were you wouldn’t be so welcome to stay here. But you’re my friend, and I want to help you whenever something is bothering you. It will not cause me trouble or be a burden on me, I promise. If anything, it’ll show me that you trust me, okay? So, will you please tell me what’s wrong? I may can help if I know.”
Send me "™" if you think I'm quality!
Cont'd with Hiro-hero-hamada
The older Hamada grimaced at his brother's protests, uncertainty glimmering in his chocolate eyes. He didn't really know how to react, he certainly hadn't anticipated that Hiro would buck that idea so vehemently and now he was rather trapped between a rock and a hard place. On the one hand, he didn't want to go against his brother's wishes lest he cause resentment between them or trigger whatever it was that Hiro seemed so scared of, but on the other hand if he didn't tell someone in charge then this could continue happening unchecked... There was no real right answer, as far as he could say. His displeasure only grew when Hiro pulled away from his hand and retreated to the computer. He hated feeling like he was being shut out, and the sudden introversion was so apparent he could practically hear Hiro slamming the metaphorical door in his face. Quietly and carefully, he followed the other, standing behind his chair and remaining quiet for several minutes. At one point he lifted his hand as if he intended to touch him, but he thought better of it and let the hand fall against the back of the seat again. At last he sighed, a soft noise that was only just loud enough to shatter the silence that had gathered around them like a cloak. "Okay." His voice was gentle, a murmur that barely broke the parameters of a whisper. "I won't go to the school or the principal yet. I promise. But Hiro, you're not fine. I can see that by the fact that your cheek is swollen to twice its normal size. And don't think I didn't see how you limped over here, those marks on your legs look pretty nasty. I can't help but think that if left unchecked this will only keep getting worse. So I'm going to do something, I just don't know what yet, and I want you to help me look for a new angle." Cautious and tender, he slid his hand down to rest on his brother's shoulder, his thumb rubbing lightly against HIRO'S back in a feather-light touch that attempted to calm him. Or at the very least stop him from hyperventilating. "You're a genius little brother, absolutely brilliant, and I'm pretty smart myself. We can solve this, alright? We've just got to put our heads to it. There has to be another way, another answer on how to make them stop. This has to end, but we can do it without involving the office, but only if we work together. I can't be expected to do all the thinking myself, can I? I need some help from that big brain of yours, little bro."
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[text] I didn't notice because vodka ((hi there! c: ))
[Text] neither did I, but it was less because vodka and more because… wait nope i lied, it was because vodka
{Hello~}
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[Text] Try dimming your screen, that’ll help with how long you can look
[Text] …oh
[Text] …we might need to talk…
[Text] oh, wait! Ill check my phone for pics first
[Text] you check yours, too
[Text] maybe there are like clues or something
[Text] way ahead of you on that one. Honey
[Text] I've dimmed my screen almost as far as it goes
[Text] if I make it any darker I won't be able to read a word you're sending me
[Text] I'll power through the migraine just for you Honey
[Text] be honored I wouldn't do that for just anyone
[Text]... Okay, tell me if you find any evidence of anything in your pictures
[Text] im going in
[Text] ........
[Text] well I do have one pic of Fred wearing a lampshade on his head and using a bedsheet as a toga
[Text] and several blurry photos of nothing where I think someone got ahold of my phone
[Text].... And one picture of Wasabi with chopsticks up his nose while Gogo laughs hysterically
[Text] I have lots of blackmail material on my phone now
[Text] im not through all of them yet but are you having any luck??
Tadashi’s eyes widened when Lapis’s blue gaze shrouded with tears, a pang of concern shooting through his heart as he recognized guilt twisting it’s way into his friend’s features. Smiling gently, he reached out a hand and with only a touch of hesitation, rested it on its shoulder. He paused for a moment to test its reaction to the contact, using his free hand to wipe away what remained of his own unshed tears.
“Hey, you didn’t know! Don’t beat yourself up about it, okay? It’s fine, I’m not mad of anything like that. We’re still cool, don’t worry.”
He trailed off, listening quietly to the blue gem’s explanations, nodding sagely and even granting an empathetic grimace when she spoke of other’s reactions. “Yeah, people aren’t always very kind about me wanting to transition. Some even think I’ve got some kind of evil in me or something.. Truth is, I just never felt really comfortable as a girl. Mo prefer going by the he and him pronouns, it makes me feel more like myself, so I understand what you mean. I’ll do my best to not ever call you by the wrong pronouns okay? That’s a promise.”
He ended his promise with a smile, nothing but warmth and forgiveness in his amber gaze. After all, it had no idea that humans could even be trans, so how could he hold it at fault? He was however, grateful that the subject was progressing past the earlier slip up, at least, it made it easier to bury the sting of it and forget it altogether.
“You can change forms whenever you want? That’s really cool, I’ve never heard of anything that can do that. Actually, that’s more than cool, that’s kind of amazing! Can gems turn into anything? Like animals and stuff? Or is it just different humanoid forms?”
Lapis placed its hand over Tadashi’s and offered a smile. “Okay. Good to know we are still cool.”
She was touched by his statement. “Thank you. And I will ensure that others respect yours. You’ve made friends with a very powerful creature, you know. If anyone gives you trouble, I can help.” It offered a smile.
“Why do they think it is so bad? Why are humans so scared of change?” Lapis tilted its head to the side, “If even the smallest things change, they panic. Even someone’s gender?”
Lapis nodded, “Gems can change into most anything. This is my humanoid form, the form I am most comfortable in. I could easily change to something else, though.” It smiled again.
The boy smiled in relief at the smile that crept across his friend's azure features. For a moment, he had been afraid that it would blame itself too harshly for the simple mistake. It was good to see that it had granted itself some slack. Its words surprised him a bit, and he blinked, turning that thought over in his head. Sure, he had noticed that Lapis obviously wasn't human, but it had never occurred to him that she might have some sort of powers to go along with her blue skin and the gem nestled between her shoulder blades. The idea was extremely intriguing, now that it had been introduced to him, or maybe Dashi was just a science nerd. Either way, Tadashi's eyes glittered with curiosity, his voice bright with interest as he spoke. "Powerful?...Y'know, I hadn't thought about it really, but I don't know much about you at all! I have no idea where you came from or how you ended up here. The only thing I've put together myself is that you're some kind of jewel being. I think. I had no idea about the shape shifting even. Of course, you don't have to tell me anything that you don't want to." He went quiet, listening to her question with an increasingly solemn expression. He shrugged in response, sighing gently. "There are... A lot of reasons. A lot of them are part of this one religion, and they think that me wanting to transition goes against the will of their God. Others act like somehow who I was is dying and they're upset, even though I'm still right here. Others just think it's unnatural... The reasons go on. Not everyone is like that, but the people who are have a thousand excuses." His smile returned, albeit a bit subdued, when Lapis spoke further about its shapeshifter skills. It was a truly fascinating friend to have, that was for sure.
-Mis-adventures- (closed with brattyinblue)
Tadashi wandered happily along the shore, keeping an eye out for his best blue friend as he strolled the warm sands. It was a lovely day, the sun glowing warm and soft in the light of the late morning, casting glimmers onto the waves that danced as though they were alive. The sight was beautiful, but he wasn't here to admire the view today, rather he was here to talk to Lapis, and just as he would have expected he found her sitting atop a large stone at the end of the shoreline. Grinning warmly, the teenage boy quickened his pace and hurried up to the rock, waving one hand in greeting. "Hey Lapis! Nice day out, isn't it?" He gasped the words breathlessly as he reached her perch. "I knew I'd find you down around here somewhere. The ocean is gorgeous this morning. I hope your day's going alright!" He knew Lapis could be prone to melancholy when she was by herself, so he always tried to give her a chance to talk, just in case she wasn't feeling well. After a few minutes however, he continued with his original purpose for coming down. "I wanted to ask you something... Well, I've noticed that you stay on the beach a lot. All the time, actually, and there's nothing wrong with that at all! But I was kinda wondering if maybe.. Just for a change you might like to go do some fun human stuff with me today? There's a fair in town for a few days, or the shops are always open. I just think it might be neat to do something new, y'know? Hang out for a while." He wilted slightly as he went on, growing nervous and rubbing the back of his neck, turning his gaze to the shells that lined the ebbing and rising lip of surf. "Only if you're into it of course, if you'd rather stay here I'll stick around on the beach with you. It's fine either way."
TFIOS (Movie) Sentence Meme
"I believe we have a choice in this world."
"I'M NOT DEPRESSED!"
"Why stop there?"
"Yeah, it's not my thing."
"'Journey?' Really?"
"And that was my life."
"That's the kind of thing I would know with a fake I.D."
"I have this way beautiful, smoking hot girlfriend/boyfriend, who's way out of my league, _____."
"I'm grand, I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend."
"My fears? Oblivion."
"I intend to live an extraordinary life, to be remembered."
"No, what's your full name?"
"Because you're beautiful."
"See, I decided a little while back not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence. Particularly, as you pointed out, we're all gonna die pretty soon."
"Okay, well, that's great. But I am not beautiful."
"You could be an axe murderer!"
"It's a metaphor, see? You put the thing that does the killing right between your teeth, but you never give it the power to kill you."
"Your driving, while unpleasant, is not technically unsafe."
"Woah! A college girl/boy! Well, that explains the aura of sophistication."
"Wait, does it have zombies in it?"
"I will read this horrible book with this very boring title that does not include zombies or Stormtroopers."
"Your hands are so cold."
"I love it when you talk medical to me."
"It's not like I'm waiting for her/him to call me."
"{text}: A BOOK CAN'T END IN THE MIDDLE OF A SENTENCE?! WHAT IN GOD'S NAME IS THIS MADNESS! AAAAHHH!
"No, I just wanna cry and play video games."
"It was like I was gone already."
"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."
"I should probably go to sleep."
"Perhaps 'okay' will be our 'always.'"
"You did not use your last dying wish to go to Disney World."
"I can't believe I have a crush on a girl/boy with such cliche wishes."
"How would you like to go on a picnic with me?"
"That must be the reason I'm still a virgin."
"Okay, we've been through this, I was 13."
"It'd be a privilege to have my heart broken by you."
"{text}: OMG!! STOP FLIRTING WITH ME!!!"
"I travel in style or I don't travel at all."
"Nothing has ever looked like this in all of human history!"
"We're just friends."
"You look gorgeous."
"I want this _____ to become a person so I can take it to Vegas and marry it."
"I am in love with you. And I know that love is just a shout into the void and oblivion is inevitable. And that we're all doomed and that one day all of our labors will turn to dusk. And I know that the sun will swallow the only earth we've ever known and I am in love with you."
"We wanted to thank you for dinner last night."
"Yet you seemed so intelligent in print, _____."
"I do believe, in spite of everything, that people are still good at heart."
"I fell in love the way you fall asleep, slowly, then all at once."
"I love you so much, _____."
"You're so so beautiful."
"I'm so lucky, I'm so lucky."
"I should've told you."
"Apparently, the world is not a wish granting factory."
"Don't you worry about me."
"You know, just treat me like I'm not dying."
"I wanted to do something for myself, you know?"
"I always thought I would be a hero."
"Did you ever write that eulogy I asked you to prepare?"
"I don't even want to see a world without you."
"I kind of hoped you would be the one eulogizing me."
"I am grateful for our little infinity."
"You gave me a forever within the number of days and for that, I'm eternally grateful."
"Not that it really matters but I was their girlfriend/boyfriend."
"Funerals, I decided, are not for the dead. They're for the living."
"I'm very sorry for your loss."
"You need to go home and get out of my car so I can go home, by myself, and grieve!"
"I'm good person but a shitty writer."
"It's a eulogy for _____."
"I knew I was dying, I just didn't want to say so."
"I'm so lucky to love _____."
"I like my choices, I hope they like theirs."
Tadashi blinked at the questions, a look of understanding beginning to dawn over his expression as he realized. Lapis really didn’t get it, after all it obviously wasn’t human, and may not have been here long enough to know about things like that. The comment still hurt, still burned in the pit of his stomach like a searing hot stone, but at least it hadn’t been intentionally mean… That lessened the blow, if only slightly. The boy drew in a long, shuddering breath in an attempt to calm down, he didn’t really want to cry in front of Lapis, especially over something so seemingly small. Once a few seconds had passed he managed to push the sting out of his mind, clearing his throat to get rid of the shakiness before he spoke again. “Well, um… Trans is short for transgender. It means I was born a female, but I.. I identify as a male. I’m working on becoming one, but the surgeries are risky and they take a ton of money that I don’t have yet… As of right now I just.. wear things to make me look more boyish, and sometimes it’s kinda hard to be reminded that I wasn’t born into the body I should have, y’know?”
Lapis cringed at the show of–albeit subdued–emotion. It had a hard time understanding how what it said was bad, but once the human explained, it understood better.
“I’m so sorry,” It said, its eyes misting up a bit, “I didn’t know. Gems can change their form whenever they want. I didn’t think about a human wanting to change, as well.“ It let out a shaky laugh.
"I didn’t intend to offend you or upset you. I understand your issue, though. Most, if not all, gems usually go by ‘she’ pronouns. I was considered odd for wanting to change that.”
True, it hadn’t changed its form, but it still didn’t feel right when others used 'she.’ It hoped that Tadashi truely wasn’t mad at it for the stray comment.
“I really am sorry, though.”
Tadashi's eyes widened when Lapis's blue gaze shrouded with tears, a pang of concern shooting through his heart as he recognized guilt twisting it's way into his friend's features. Smiling gently, he reached out a hand and with only a touch of hesitation, rested it on its shoulder. He paused for a moment to test its reaction to the contact, using his free hand to wipe away what remained of his own unshed tears.
"Hey, you didn't know! Don't beat yourself up about it, okay? It's fine, I'm not mad of anything like that. We're still cool, don't worry."
He trailed off, listening quietly to the blue gem's explanations, nodding sagely and even granting an empathetic grimace when she spoke of other's reactions. "Yeah, people aren't always very kind about me wanting to transition. Some even think I've got some kind of evil in me or something.. Truth is, I just never felt really comfortable as a girl. Mo prefer going by the he and him pronouns, it makes me feel more like myself, so I understand what you mean. I'll do my best to not ever call you by the wrong pronouns okay? That's a promise."
He ended his promise with a smile, nothing but warmth and forgiveness in his amber gaze. After all, it had no idea that humans could even be trans, so how could he hold it at fault? He was however, grateful that the subject was progressing past the earlier slip up, at least, it made it easier to bury the sting of it and forget it altogether.
"You can change forms whenever you want? That's really cool, I've never heard of anything that can do that. Actually, that's more than cool, that's kind of amazing! Can gems turn into anything? Like animals and stuff? Or is it just different humanoid forms?"
Tadashi's cute
"Oh, well, thank you Anon! I appreciate the message, you're a sweetheart."
“Did I say something wrong?” Lapis inquired with a look of worry on its face. “I didn’t mean to offend you!” Humans were so sensitive. What had it said? That he looked female?
“I don’t know what that means.” Lapis answered honestly, “What is trans? What does passing mean?” It had so many questions just based off of that statement. A ball of guilt welled in its stomach, though it still didn’t know what it did wrong.
Tadashi blinked at the questions, a look of understanding beginning to dawn over his expression as he realized. Lapis really didn’t get it, after all it obviously wasn’t human, and may not have been here long enough to know about things like that. The comment still hurt, still burned in the pit of his stomach like a searing hot stone, but at least it hadn’t been intentionally mean... That lessened the blow, if only slightly. The boy drew in a long, shuddering breath in an attempt to calm down, he didn’t really want to cry in front of Lapis, especially over something so seemingly small. Once a few seconds had passed he managed to push the sting out of his mind, clearing his throat to get rid of the shakiness before he spoke again. “Well, um... Trans is short for transgender. It means I was born a female, but I.. I identify as a male. I’m working on becoming one, but the surgeries are risky and they take a ton of money that I don’t have yet... As of right now I just.. wear things to make me look more boyish, and sometimes it’s kinda hard to be reminded that I wasn’t born into the body I should have, y’know?”
Hiccup sat on the bed. His hands were shaking. The blades were laid out across from him, and he ached for him. But something in him made him wait. A promise. An almost promise he had made. Trembling, he picked up the blades and, clutching them tightly, made the silent trek to Tadashi's room. Without a word, he knocked on his friend's door. ((You're welcome))
The night was calm, soft and quiet, and Tadashi was relaxing. Hiro was out for the night at some overnight convention with Fred and Gogo, and the older Hamada was enjoying the easy peace of the evening. He lay on his bed with his laptop, idly skimming over his blog for anything of interest and enjoying the cool breeze that flowed in through his window. Even online everything was slow and relaxed however, and he was highly considering just reading for a little and turning in for the night when he heard the faint knock at his door. Curious as to who on Earth would knock on his bedroom door, he rose to his feet and opened it, smiling when he saw Hiccup.“Hey man! You now you don’t have to knock, you’re welcome in here…”He trailed off when he saw the look on his friend’s face, concern replacing the cheer in his amber eyes. He motioned for Hiccup to come in then, placing a hand on the other’s shoulder.“What’s the matter Hiccup? I’m here for you, it’s alright.”
He refused to cry.
Heavens, he really wanted to cry, but that had been all it seemed he could do for the past chunk of time. The slot of time from him leaving the hospital to now just seemed like a blur of tears, and people telling him it would be okay. Which all seemed, to him, like complete bull crap. How could things ever be okay again? Perhaps something next to okay was achievable, but actually being okay was unreachable.
Hiccup carefully handed the blades to his friend, with only a moment of hesitation. Once he was sure that Tadashi had not been cut mistakenly, he let his hands fall limp in his lap.
He mumbled an almost thank you through partially closed lips.
Thank you for taking away the option and not thinking this is weird or I’m weird or I’m any crazier than you Tadashi I’m still so sorry for all of this but thank you so much.
-Is what he wanted to say. All he could force out was the mumble. He was sure Tadashi understood. Somehow, his dear friend had a way of reading his thoughts. Or, at least, that’s what it seemed.
“Um…”
The freckle covered boy pushed up the sleeves of his oversized green hoodie, revealing the now almost patched completely back together battle ground that was his fore-arms. He hated looking at them.
Showing these past wounds was, of course, not the intention.
It was merely an old habit of his to push his sleeves up before digging something out of a pocket, which is exactly what he did. Within seconds, he pulled his cell-phone out from the depths of his pocket, and was searching through his messages. It didn’t take long to find what he had been looking for, and once he did, he held the phone out for Tadashi to read.
…you are an absolute shame to this family… your mother would never forgive you for this…she would be ashamed to call you a son… too chicken to come back home… not welcome back… you’re not my son…
Relief flooded through Tadashi like cool water across a desert when the remaining pieces of sharp-edged silver dropped into his palm, this time managing to squash down the bad memories before they even arrived. He didn’t care how disturbingly familiar it felt to hold the blades, he didn’t care about the scars that tingled slightly, as if they hoped he’d make more to go with them. He didn’t care about anything aside from the fact that Hiccup was safe from harm, and that he knew his friend wouldn’t be gaining any fresh marks tonight.
Smiling in his gratefulness for that, he dropped the little demons into the pile behind him and carefully nudged them away to the far side of the comforter, not hesitating for even a second. Once they were away, he moved slightly closer to Hiccup so he could relax his arm and let it drape over the other’s shoulders. He recalled well that contact made a huge difference in his own worst days, and so he hoped that this half-embrace might aid in reinforcing his words to Hiccup.
You are loved. You are worthwhile. You are needed. You are amazing.
He wanted to tell Hiccup these things an a thousand more over and over again, so many times that he would have to believe it. He was cut short from saying anything however, when the other pulled his sleeves up. A pang of pain speared through Tadashi’s heart at the sight of the lines crosshatching his best friend’s arm, accompanied by the now-familiar twist of guilt. He still thought that he should have seen the signs, should have tried to help long before things got that far... These thoughts went silent as he was handed the phone, and he took it, amber eyes darting to scan the messages with growing anger. By the time he had finished, his disgust and rage were almost palpable, and he exited out of the texting page and dropped the phone before turning his attention back to his friend. His eyes blazed with intensity, and his voice was too grave to be considered anything less than genuine.
“Listen to me, okay? Your father is wrong about you. Dead wrong. He doesn’t deserve a kid as good as you, hell he doesn’t deserve to call himself a dad. He’s a pathetic excuse for one at best, and in my opinion you’re the only good thing he’s ever done in his miserable life. He is wrong, he is garbage, and I’ll tell you what right now. If he won’t welcome you back that’s all fine and good, it’s his loss. I had already talked with Aunt Cass about if something like this happened, and she agreed with me that you will have a place here with us for as long as you want it. We love you, Hiccup. You’re smart and brave and talented and kind and one of the most amazing people I’ve ever known, and if your dad can’t see it then he’s some kind of blind man. You can stay here with us, and if I were you I’d delete those messages. They’ll only give him a chance to keep hurting you, and he doesn’t eserve any more opportunities for that.”
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Tadashi nodded thoughtfully, committing this knowledge to memory. He’d hate to accidentally use the wrong pronouns for his new friend, it seemed like such a sweetheart, the last thing he wanted to do was upset it. “Alright, no problem! I’ll do my best to not mess up and if I ever do feel free to spray me with water and swat me with a newspaper, alright?” He smiled in jest, chuckling lightly. “Oh, well I’m glad! It just seemed like the right thing to do is all… I’m content with he and himself, if it’s cool by you. ” His smile faltered slightly then, a bubble of worry rising in his chest. Not everyone had always responded kindly to him being trans.. Especially those who didn’t know him.
Lapis nodded. It hadn’t been entirely sure by looks alone. Humans had such odd concepts of gender, so it always had a hard time telling the gender of a person. Gems it was easy. Humans, not so much.
“Good thing I asked,” Lapis smiled, “I often have a hard time telling humans apart. And you appeared female, at first glance.” It mentally told itself to always ask beings about pronouns, to avoid complications.
Tadashi was cheery, happy that his new friend seemed to accept his gender. Humans weren't always kind about him wanting to transition, so it was refreshing to meet someone who adopted his pronouns so readily. At least, until Lapis said the last part. That one sentence felt like a blow, and Tadashi visibly flinched, his amber eyes darting away and his arms curling around his torso. He told himself that the comment hadn't been mean spirited, that maybe Lapis just didn't understand, but it wasn't enough to ease the sting. He tried so hard to appear masculine, keeping his hair short and his chest bound, packing and keeping his clothes as boyish as possible. It hurt to be so bluntly reminded that he didn't quite pass yet, that he still looked too feminine. He managed to keep the tears that stung his eyes from escaping, though he couldn't keep the tremor out of his voice. "Uh, yeah... Well, I'm trans, and I haven't gotten to work towards passing yet, so..." He hated how his voice shook, sniffling aggressively in an attempt to quell his sadness.
