Whatever.

no one notices i am a mess

[invisblemess]

[invisblemess]

Most females are annoyed that they have their period monthly some people are only relieved that they got it. With PCOS in the past almost 2 years I have had my period now 5 times out of the 24. I had one 2 day one in Janurary but I haven't had a real one in a year. When I realized that this one is lasting and I am functioning properly for the first time and maybe I am not infertil and maybe my body will stop failing me, I know it's not consistent but it's something and that's all I need to hope for.

[invisblemess]

Pcos and gallstones what else will go wrong with my body

[kplsstfu-deactivated20160525]

my tattoo means, I wanted it so I got it

[katiebishop]

[invisblemess]

I got put on metformin been on it for 6 weeks and I just had my first period since June, but of course that means I have started my period cravings again so my diet has been sucking and I felt bad about it and gone back to how I used to it which is a small bit of food once a day and I know I should eat more but I just can't, PCOS sucks and I hate being overweight and I hate that I don't have control over my body and it sucks.

[barntothehill-deactivated201812]

#pcossucks #pcosawareness #pcos

[invisblemess]

PCOS

Those seem like 4 meaningless letters to most; but to me it's a giant cloud that is looming over me, pcos is polycystic ovarian syndrome. I have accepted this will be apart of my life now, and when I say accepted I mean ignore every part of it and pretend that's not true and joke about it; but hey at least I know why I can't seem to loose weight it's my body's fault, whenever I was younger and pictured my life I always imagined having at least 2 kids and learning now that I might be infertile is tearing a hole through me, and whenever someone says oh well your lucky you don't get your period, I feel less like a woman each month that goes by, I can't even do the one thing that everyone hates but accepted to be apart of her life.

[invisblemess]

Going on vacation you are supposed to go out everyday and enjoy it and relish in the travel; but I just couldn't I didn't even want to leave my hotel; where I slept on a lumpy and stained pulled out bed, I was in Honolulu for fuck sakes and I couldn't even move; and because I went with my family they wouldn't understand I kept having to lie with what I was doing with my time; I had no right to feel depressed and I did and it was unfair and I tried to go out but I was exhausted to do anything after leaving and having to talk to others, that I just slept even more.

[mitten]

[officialfashionistaswonderland]

[theoraelken]

the american public education everybody

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[polyglotplatypus]

I’ve been acting like an extrovert since I can’t even remember, and it’s become a part of my personality I can’t give up. Still, I remain introverted, so always I end up completely devouring my own energy to a point where I’m just simply not able to talk to anyone.

I kinda feel like Schrödinger‘s introvert or something.

[jesusanddick]

Omg, something that I actually relate to.

[kinky-little-witch-deactivated2]

Yes this I feel 😔

[amadeus-amadeo-deactivated20170]

This is called being an ambivert! You’re able to socialize and ‘get hype’ with people but you ALSO need to recharge by having alone time!

[cashmere-cat-attacks]

yes. me. very. thank.

[wolfknightofthekingdom]

WHAT IT ME

[spiritualinspiration2]

[simple-n-plain-deactivated20160]

No wonder the world hates us. Most of the time we’re persecuted not because we love Jesus, but because we’re prideful, arrogant jerks who don’t love the real Jesus. We’re often judgmental, hypocritical, and legalistic while claiming to follow a Jesus who is forgiving, authentic, and loving.

Jefferson Bethke, Jesus>Religion (via simple-n-plain)

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