[secretlywritingstories]

It sucks not being able to see without aid. I tend to forget that it’s a disability, even though it very much is. Just one that’s normalised and generally have very well-developed tools from glasses to contacts to surgery. Still, I’ll never not get jealous of someone able to just wake up, open their eyes and see unaided. The freedom it must be. 

Though I shouldn’t complain, most of the time I don’t even pay attention to needing my contacts. Only the monthly payments or the check-ups twice a year. The rest is routine, picking up the contacts in the morning, putting them in with practiced ease and removing them again when I lie down to sleep. I used to be bad about that last part but that’s been years ago.

I’ve considered the surgery. I qualify for it to be done for free in my country because my vision is that bad. But surgery, no matter how minor is still a bit of a scary thing. I’m worried about the healing afterwards rather than the actual surgery. Because I can rationalise myself out of that one the same way I go on a scary roller coaster. Millions of people go on them without being hurt, so of course I will be fine too.

But healing in general is a bit scary. It’s messy. It hurts. It burns. Though I suppose healing broken eyes might feel easier than a brain that’s… not great. I’ve been trying to heal that one for a while. And I do, in bits and spurts, but new things also props up. Guess that’s the way of the world.

I’m currently writing without my glasses, just directly on tumblr with the small font. I can’t read the letters, just vaguely see that little blobs of black appear on a white background. It’s disorienting, just a little. I know how to write by touch typing, so mostly I never look at my hands, just my screen as I see the words appear. It is making the voice in my head appear, which it doesn’t normally, at least this strong. I can still see the red underlines and go back and try again if I make a typo. But there’s also some red lines that are there on purpose as I refuse to use American spelling.

Bad mental health, illness and the line almost always means glasses days. Like now. All three are currently happening. ‘cause on days were I function and I’m well, it’s contacts and then I wear them the whole day, until it’s time to sleep. Nightly sleep at the end of the day that is. I don’t take them out for naps. I should that’s the recommended thing, but I guess I never quite shook all of that old habit, as I claimed, huh?

It’s an odd sensation to navigate the keyboard or navigate the house without proper vision. Like, I can still see. Everything is just blurry around the edges. Something has to be very close to me to be able to see it clearly. Like now, I’m zoomed in. Physically, not with the zoom function. I leaned forward. Eyes scanning to see if everything is alright. It is. On the page. I’ll be alright too.

A shower, A hot cup of tea. And most of all my glasses back on my nose where they belong, so I can’t just exist in a blurry world that matches my emotions or my health. I’ll go do that now. 

[paladitos]

who is telling men that having gray in their hair is ugly. why are they fucking lying

[paladitos]

who is telling women that having gray in their hair is ugly!!!!!!! why are they fucking lying!!!!!!!

[paladitos]

[hamletthedane]

Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

[1anonyymous1]

🌹 a flower for everyone not feeling their best today

[bbyannabeth]

Do you know any good Percabeth fic? I just went through the Anti Percabeth tag, and I feel SO depressed...

yes! i recently sent my friend a list of recs so i’ll post those, plus a few more! (if anyone sees their fic/they know an author of a fic, lmk and i’ll tag you/them)

also im putting the list under keep reading bc its long lol

for starters, some of my all-time fave authors: here are my faves by them, but i recommend any of their fics tbh

@couvers apartment 305 one fine holiday

@heronsdaisy  you’re all i want (so much it’s annoying) don’t pretend (you’re just a friend)

@annabethy hand in my hand and you promised to never go gravity in the words we write

@skaterannabeth this fever for you (is just burning me up inside) sunset wife

@forevfangirlwrites​ stolen (he)art how to handle fame (a series)

@bipercabeth and they were roommates i'll go anywhere with you

(and here’s a couple of mine that i’m proud of hehe) 48 hours with annabeth chase hypothetically speaking

some more fics that i just love: just practice (@knuffled) you can't wait for the moment (you have to create it) don't wanna walk alone dressed too nice for a jacket, so i'm freezing little victories (@juulietcap) your hand in mine from him all’s fair in love and laser tag in a storm in my best dress stucco hearts  (@ananbeth) afraid to light the fuse again

plus, in case that wasn’t enough, here’s my fic rec tag<3

[bbyannabeth]

fic masterpost

my ao3 / my writing tag

Percabeth

AUs

thank you, alcohol / 7.23.20 - the one in which percy confesses his feelings. kinda.

apple pie / 8.3.20 - the one on which annabeth is a waitress and percy tips her way too much

sundays / 8.16.20 - the one in which they have a lazy day in bed and they’re very in love

(not) high school sweethearts / 8.24.20 - the one in which a high school reunion brings them together in more ways than they expected, not that they’re complaining

seventeen / 8.25.20 - the one in which neither of them has had their first kiss. so they change that.

a game of catch. kinda. / 8.30.20 - the one in which he tosses an apple and she catches it

hypothetically speaking / 8.31.20 - the one in which annabeth skips the cliche and it doesn’t work out for her… at first

surprise / 9.11.20 - the one in which percy surprises annabeth

my baby’s fit like a daydream / 9.12.20 - the one in which percy has a crush and piper really doesn’t help him out there. except she kinda does.

beautiful / 9.16.20 - the one in which annabeth learns sign language just to talk to the cute customer at her cafe

“like that?” / 9.20.20 - the one in which percy teaches annabeth about kissing… kinda

worth the risk / 9.22.20 - the one in which annabeth decides not having percy at all is a lot worse than being scared to have all of him

honeymoon phase / 9.28.20 - the one in which percy complains and annabeth kinda loves it

right now, right now / 9.29.20 - the one in which annabeth isn’t really pregnant. but she wants to be.

just because we can / 10.1.20 -  the one in which they’re too busy for each other. until they’re not.

expectations / 10.2.20 - the one in which percy teases annabeth when he really shouldn’t

the best kind of cliche / 10.6.20 - the one in which annabeth decides some cliches are okay

realities / 10.11.20 - the one in which percy teases annabeth when he really shouldn’t

my (sister’s) babysitter / 10.14.20 - the one in which annabeth babysits estelle because sally doesn’t trust percy to

simp / 10.16.20 - the one in which percy really loves annabeth

completely at home / 10.19.20 - the one in which percy comforts annabeth and it feels better than it should

we have history (class together) / 11.9.20 - the one in which estelle really exposes percy

bubbles / 11.18.20 - the one in which they shower together

blacked out / 11.24.20 - the one in which annabeth doesn’t remember what she said last night

48 hours with annabeth chase / 12.7.20 - the one in which percy and annabeth are internet friends and finally meet

speak now / 1.4.21 - the one in which percy (almost) marries the wrong girl

got it on record / 1.22.21 - the one in which annabeth tells percy she’s pregnant

a little misunderstanding can hurt a lot / 3.4.21 - the one in which annabeth thinks percy may be cheating on her

with you, on new year’s day / 3.9.21 - the one in which they’re cleaning up bottles on new year’s day

got me right where you want me, baby (could i be more obvious?) / 7.13.21 [complete] - the one in which annabeth moves into luke’s apartment while he’s away, and his roommate is really… something else (in a very good way)

tripping, falling (with no safety net) / 8.13.21 - the one in which annabeth has a (very) last minute realization

kiss me twice ‘cause it’s gonna be alright / 8.18.21 - the one in which they (kinda) get married on the first date

coffee at midnight / 9.23.21 - the one in which they go on (another) midnight drive

if we loved again / 10.8.21 [incomplete] - the one where Percy is dared to hook up with a girl, and it doesn’t go exactly as planned

where every wish comes true / 12.1.21 [complete] - 25 christmas prompts, 25 oneshots

i’d write this in the sky / 12.31.21 - the one in which they meet at a wedding, and life takes them from there

Canon

territorial / 7.20.20 - the one in which percy returns from calypso’s island

my achilles spot / 7.20.20 - the one in which annabeth takes the knife for percy and they talk about it

idiot / 7.20.20 - the one in which artemis asks annabeth to join the hunt. and she doesn’t.

i kissed him / 7.20.20 - the one in which annabeth thinks percy dies

she doesn’t compare to you / 7.20.20 - the one in which percy tells annabeth about when aphrodite visited him

anchor / 7.20.20 - the one in which percy tells annabeth about what he saw in the styx

i’m glad you did / 7.24.20 - the one in which annabeth allows herself to be vulnerable

i’m just happy / 7.25.20 - the one in which they wake up together and percy loves it

who do you think, wise girl? / 7.24.20 - the one in which annabeth thinks she’s going lose percy. and then she doesn’t.

i know he’s alive / 7.30.20 - the one in which annabeth tells sally that percy is missing

the jealous type / 8.5.20 - the one in which annabeth is jealous and she really doesn’t need to be

resistible / 8.16.20 - the one in which annabeth isn’t really jealous

lover of mine / 8.18.20 - the one in which they dance around the living room

happy late birthday / 8.27.20 - the one in which percy wishes annabeth happy birthday at a more convenient time

k-i-s-s-i-n-g / 9.3.20 - the one in which piper is annoying but they allow it anyways

irrational / 9.8.20 - the one in which percy is late and it scares the hell out of annabeth

perseus / 9.12.20 - the one in which annabeth gets a new tattoo

“don’t even try it” / 9.25.20 - the one in which annabeth gets hurt and percy helps

no regrets / 10.8.20 - the one in which annabeth just needs some reassurance

light em up / 12.11.20 - the one in which they watch the fireworks together

you were always right beside me / 12.22.20 - the one in which they’re just happy to be alive and together

stay here, honey (i don’t wanna share) / 2.23.21 - the one in which annabeth learns percy and rachel kissed

all’s well that ends well to end up with you / 7.15.21 - the one in which it’s annabeth’s birthday throughout the years

but if, gods forbid, fate should step in / 8.24.21 - the one in which annabeth tries so hard to get percy back

i can see the end as it begins / 10.21.21 [incomplete] - the two rewrite where they get together a little sooner

Solangelo

“I’ll keep that in mind, Death Boy” / 9.21.20 - Nico doesn’t seem to mind it when Will touches him

Nico doesn’t cuddle… usually / 10.1.20 - “Today, for the first time in his life, Nico had an overwhelming urge to cuddle.”

Someone tell Nico he isn’t scary / 10.22.20 - Nico thinks people are scared of him and Will simply disagrees

[faint-glimmers-of-hope]

I love Rose Tyler because every time she encountered a new alien life form or a fellow human that seemed to be mistreated in some way she went “HELLO DO THEY TREAT YOU WELL, HOW MUCH DO THEY PAY YOU, ARE YOUR BASIC RIGHTS BEING VIOLATED, DID YOU KNOW YOU ARE ENTITLED TO AN EIGHT HOUR SHIFT AND THREE WEEKS OF VACATION ALSO YOU COULD JOIN A UNION, MY NAME IS ROSE I’M HERE TO HELP” and that was just so rad of her

[russiawave]

[magistrate-of-mediocrity]

Those am him leafs

[sumetal]

[maydei]

[centipede-damascus]

This… is a Dad Meme.

[sumetal]

This is the only good comment on this entire waste of a post

[bts-fic-collection]

Do you have any single parent with angst please? 🥺

I do! :)

Three Knocks and a Ding of a Bell by Lssimpson999

Rating: G

Pairings: Namjoon/Seokjin

Status: Incomplete

Word count: 84,509

Summary: Kim Seokjin had plans for his life.He had everything all planned out. From Secondary School all the way to when he was supposed to have kids.

But life never goes according to plan. Especially not when all it took to change Jin’s life was three knocks and a ding of a bell.

And just like that, Jin had a baby in his arms that was now his.

Or,

Single parent Jin who is just trying to survive ft single parent Namjoon who is the CEO of the company Jin works in.

caramel macchiatos and bitter americanos (have i lost myself, or have i gained you?) by princesaadriella

Rating: M

Pairings: Taehyung/Yoongi

Status: Incomplete

Word count: 58,291

Summary: Min Yoongi knew that going back to school to get his graduate degree would the death of him, especially for something as unstable as a music career.

Even so, there is never a dull moment. Jeonguk is a whipped idiot, Namjoon is a clumsy fuck, Seokjin is a self-obsessed hypochondriac, Hoseok without a doubt has ADHD, and Jimin is a constant daydream and nightmare, in and of himself.

At least Yoongi’s two-year old son is able to keep him on his toes.

But alas, nothing changes this simple fact.

Min Yoongi knew that going back to school would be the death of him.

But what he didn’t know, was that his professor Kim Taehyung would be the one to bring him back to life.

Rhythm & Blues by theimpossibleimpala

Rating: E

Pairings: Jungkook/Yoongi

Status: Complete

Word count: 40,047

Summary: “I need dad friends, Joon. That’s all.”

“But is he handsome?”

“Well,” Yoongi blushes, “Yes. But that’s not the point.”

“But is he cute?”

“Well, yes.”

“Double threat,” Namjoon smirks. “Is he hot?”

“You know not every new relationship I have has to be for the purpose of romance right?” Yoongi argues.

Namjoon ignores him, “So he is hot. A triple threat. You don’t stand a chance, hyung.”

“Shut up, Joon.”

Fate Led Me To You (Now Let Me Love You) by MinMinnieMin

Rating: M

Pairings: Namjoon/Seokjin

Status: Complete

Word count: 58,382

Summary: Seokjin did not believe he’d ever have a happy ending. How many happy endings did you ever hear an unmated Omega with a child have?

But fate is a funny thing. What’s meant to be will always find it’s way. And Kim Namjoon tries his best to get Seokjin to see that.

Because of fate, they found each other.

[psychoticful]

“People hate us out there. They hate your brilliance. They hate your beauty. They hate us. But we not gonna hate ourselves.” When They See Us (2019)

[fentyaddicted]

[hilarioushumorfromouterspace]

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[hilarioushumorfromouterspace]

[nochujungkookie]

Still enjoying the meal with eyes half closed.

[gahdamnpunk]

They hate to see a fat Black woman succeed, be free AND enjoy herself