Whelp, yesterday and today didn’t go so well, but it’s not surprising. Some of these wounds are still too fresh and hard to resist :/
I think a lot of it is from stress. I’m generally happy, am in a fairly good place mentally, but there have been a lot of outside stressors recently. I had a big project (which I’m ALMOST done with, phew) and I moved. I can feel the anxiety of being in a new place, having to change my routine, try new things, etc.
TBH, Pokemon GO has helped a LOT with that. (Though now I’m stupidly stressed about constantly running out of balls, damn those go quick! Haha.) I’m more willing to go out and explore since I’m motivated by the game. I also have memories of being inside my old apartment for days on end, never going out, and just being unhappy. Here, lots of things are in walking distance, so it feels more...more possibilities? More excuses to leave. Places to actually /go to/ if I leave. I’m not restricted by a car (I hate driving), and I can get a workout. (Plus we have a PokeStop and two gyms about 5-10 minute walk from us, haha.)
We also haven’t unpacked everything or organized everything. I’ve been too busy with my project, my partner has been swamped with work. By evening, we want to get out and walk around just to relax. Little time to clean up. So the clutter is...annoying, to say the least.
There are other small things, they all add up. Like a bug problem, we had ants, though it’s been resolved. (I’m still antsy about it though, no pun intended.) My plants aren’t doing so well, and it’s frustrating to see them wilting. :/
I’m sure once this place starts to feel like home, I’ll start to get back into feeling more normal, which should help sway the picking.
In the meantime, I’m gonna burn me an incense and just chill today.