Facebook rant I decided to post on here instead
TL;DR: If you have something to say to me about an issue you have, say it to my face, and say it in private.
Fuck you. I don't need your shit. I work my ass off every day, just to be able to get through the minefield of anxiety and depression in my own head. Its a daily battle that I don't fucking talk about because I don't need anyone's pity or for them to think something's wrong with me and leave me to suffer alone because that's what my fear is. That's why once a week I see a therapist, I carry Valium in my purse for those times when even brig around my friends makes me choke and seclude myself and I never let anyone see me at my absolute worst.
I hope you've made yourself proud of the way that writing this at first made it hard to breathe and I shed a few tears all because you couldn't bring your coward ass to say your issues in words. But now... Now I'm fucking livid. We could have stayed friends, been partners in this, worked as a team, but your alienation of yourself only proves to me that you were never a team player.
I don't ask from much from the people I consider close to me and when I feel like I've done something wrong I hate myself for it but I refuse to hate myself over this. I refuse to let you bully me, passive aggressively, into a corner where if I started to bleed and couldn't stop I think that might just fucking be okay. I refuse to let you think you have won and that, is what this post is for.
Go fuck yourself, this is what you've won. You don't get your name or gender put out here, you don't get tagged or group messaged or privately messaged or texted or even anything face to face. You get NOTHING. You get the shit in the sandcastle, because my true friends get the castle made of marble and stone that they have earned.
I pity you and the life that you lead you to think that your actions were acceptable and I sincerely hope that you realize that yes, I am talking about you, and I did it giving you complete anonymity except for the ones you made an ass out of yourself in front of. Because I have fucking respect, yes, but not enough to not embarrass you in equal measure if not a little more than how you embarrassed me.
Goodbye, you fuckwit. I salute you.
