[iquincysauce]

Thought when I woke up things would be different. That I wouldn't still be thinking about how I just want to give up.

[iquincysauce]

I'm dying

Suicidal thoughts. No attempts. So tired.

[iquincysauce]

What does it mean

I've always had dreams including my ex. For years now. I don't know why. I have zero feelings for her and I don't miss her or anything. Soooooo weird.

[poems-and-words]

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[poems-and-words]

Book of the week: No Matter the Wreckage by Sarah Kay

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[iquincysauce]

I'm going to say I'm okay and joke about it because really it's not a big deal. But you know what, I would feel a lot better after a couple bottles of wine and maybe a nice cry.

[poems-and-words]

[bobbiemorley]

[draggedqueens-deactivated201504]

THIS IS SO INSPIRATIONAL I HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES

[iquincysauce]

When I get to this point it's like all that being "okay" and "good" never happened.

[iquincysauce]

I hate feeling alone but I also hate meeting new people. Trying to keep a conversation going.

[poems-and-words]

[darklittleimp]

Depersonalization.

depersonalization is the constant questioning of one’s self and the inability to stop. The constant believing that everything you say about yourself, or that everything you feel is a lie. 

you probably experience that feeling sometimes when you lie to someone you care about. Take that feeling and imagine feeling is everyday, and getting it whenever you state anything about yourself.

‘I am unhappy.’ but are you sure?

‘I’m happy for once!’ are you really?

‘I love you.’ no, you’re lying, that’s not the truth and it’s going to hurt that person when they find out. you’re a monster.

It doesn’t matter how much you reconstruct your way of thinking, however much you correct those thoughts. That feeling in your chest doesn’t go away. 

I hope I’ll be able to escape this confusion someday, so I can be free and happy and experience all these things I hear about uninhibited.

but are you sure you’ll ever be free?

[roxyxxvyxprincess-deactivated20]

[fluxephemera]

you ever feel disassociation coming on and you have to fight really hard against it like it becomes a mental battle to stay grounded in reality because you’re doing something important like a job or talking to someone

[poems-and-words]

[thebelchers]

[iquincysauce]

My heart

[marxvx-deactivated20170329]

[iquincysauce]

Ooo yes