My place for honest venting

I calmed down I'm done crashing out now

[iridescenthamster]

Local thrift shop better be ready. I have the most motivation ive had all month, im caffeinated, and im doing spring cleaning ive put off for 4 years.

[iridescenthamster]

In another life I would have loved you.

If id met you sooner in this life even

You are offering everything id ever looked for in past relationships where I settled for crumbs.

If id met you, exactly as you are now, before I was jaded, we would be married by now

But my priorities have changed and I dont know if im even capable of loving another man.

[iridescenthamster]

I have so much anger in me. So much regret and so much resentment.

[iridescenthamster]

A Mennonite child in the gas station looked at me with such disgust, so I guess that must mean the fit goes hard

[iridescenthamster]

Andy Biersack is fucking hot

[iridescenthamster]

Why do men do this? I could tell he was pulling away that last week so I asked for confirmation our plans were still on. Left me on read 15 hours then confirmed. Then poof, went from daily good morning texts and all day communication to not even opening my text.

You could just be honest. Say you met someone else. Say you're not that into me. Shit, just say you dont want to keep the plan anymore. Why lie then ghost?

[iridescenthamster]

My reaction when his opening line is asking me what book I am currently reading

[iridescenthamster]

Scheduled a dick appointment 6 weeks in advance

[iridescenthamster]

I generally enjoy reading Michael Connelly's stories, but I will say he is pretty bad about the men writing women phenomena. What are the odds, our main character has just met a sexy, mani pixi dream girl, who's all alone in the world, but a super talented artist and no one understands her, and she invites him to bed within minutes of meeting him then reveals she doesnt usually open up to men and is inexperienced, but he seems different, and I can already see this character doesnt have a single shred of character development and exists solely for the main character to put on a pedestal and try to win her trust over the rest of the book. Inb4 they aren't going to work out because one of them is just too deep and complicated to get involved with someone. She's a prop

[iridescenthamster]

Fainting spell at the cvs after a tetanus shot? That's hot girl shit.

[iridescenthamster]

My roster is missing someone I can hit up at 2:53am saying "you awake?" and they are actually awake to respond.

[iridescenthamster]

It's so fucked up instagram likes are public now. How am I supposed to be hot and mysterious when everyone can see I've liked every single lizard reel

[iridescenthamster]

What the fuck. I make men plan the first frw dates bc honestly it is a great way to gauge if a man is actually into you or just wants to sleep with you, and why the fuck do all these guys keep suggesting "driving around listening to music." We are not in high school, I don't want to hang out in your car loser. Also, no I dont want to get kidnapped I'm not getting in your car as a first date.

[iridescenthamster]

Even though I know I didnt want to date him anymore, he was my only friend. I know breaking up was the right choice but friends feel extra lonely when you dont even have a friend to make platonic plans with

[iridescenthamster]

Not wanting exclusivity but being the jealous type is a wild new experience. Dude ive been talking to hasn't texted me back in like 5 hours. Usually he always texts me back super fast so he's probably with the other girl he is talking to which is fine. I told him im not looking for commitment or exclusivity, and he told me he is talking to another girl which idc, but like...

... I want him to text me back.

But also i wouldn't let him text her back when he was with me so 🤷‍♀️

I just like talking to him

[iridescenthamster]

I feel like I'm at a place in my life where I could turn down heroin.

[iridescenthamster]

Sis I fucked up. A man told me he would teach me how to weld (um. Yes that pick up line worked on me) and I got ahead of myself snd said we should get food. SMH, it is beneath me to initiate a date.