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[silly-luv]

[silly-luv]

[irresoluted]

You have been given a direct order to rock the fuck out. Rock out like you were just given the last rock and roll record on earth and the minutes are counting down to flames. Rock out like you just won both showcase showdowns. Rock out like the streets are empty except for you, your bicycle, and your headphones. Rock out like your lips, which are placed on a breakdancing muse, with legs that go all the way up. Rock out like you'll never have to see a textbook again. Rock out like you get paid to disturb the peace. Rock out like music is all that you got. Rock out like you're standing on a rooftop and the city's as loud and glowing as the river flowing below you. Rock out like the plane is going down, there are 120 people on board, and 121 parachutes. Rock out like the streets and the books are all on fire and the only way it can be extinguished is by doing the electric slide. Rock out like it's Saturday afternoon and Monday is a national holiday. Rock out like somebody's got a barrel pointed at your temple saying, "Rock out like your life depended on it, fool" because it does. Rock out like your eyes are fading but you still got your ears but you don't know for how long so Rock out like 5 o'clock time.. make that pop-and-lock time.

Anis Mojgani "Direct Orders"

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All of my feelings for you are so genuine and I care about you like no other but I am so horrified of everything. I don't even know who I am. Trying to juggle my confusion and emotion at the same time is fucking me up. But don't take this as an invitation to walk out of my life because I won't allow it. I still expect your daily visits and you better hug me every damn time you see me. But fuck, I'm sorry. I'm slowly deteriorating and I don't want you to get caught up in my mess. Hopefully you will be around once I figure everything out and get my mind on the right track. But as of now, all I can do is apologize. This is the hardest letter I've ever had to write and it breaks my heart. But don't ever think that I don't like you because I do. You're on my mind all day long. You're what my day consists of, and then some. But for a little while I'm taking a break from everything. Friends, family.. everything. I need time to reflect on myself and think. I'm having terrible anxiety lately and I need to focus on that. But you're the cooliest person I've ever met. You're beautiful in every aspect. I heart you, never forget.

my words • sunday // november 16, 2014 (the day I shattered to pieces)

[silly-luv]

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[thegoodvybe]

[caughtinyourhipster]

[silly-luv]

[dominiksalmic]

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IMSORRY

I'm in terrible position right now and I've never felt this sorry in my life. // All I want is for you to be happy but I don't think I can provide that. Not now. // It's been so long since I've fallen for anyone, especially a girl, and I'm not prepared for this. For anything. // You're too important to me and I'm not ready to ruin what we have. // Fuck, I'm sorry.