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[ishisgettingtired]

As soon as we hugged, time stopped.

The beating of the heart, the blowing of the winds, the engine of a moving car, the blabber of a city, the chaos in their minds, our leaders and their politics, the ever-increasing probabilities of death.

In noiseless we hugged. And time gave us our space. For it respected you and i.

[ishisgettingtired]

My run is tough and my legs are sore

My being is torn apart, my thoughts thrown as stones

I look upwards into the sky to watch the stars

Looking forward to the day when i can rest with nature among trees and their barks

[ishisgettingtired]

I look at the stars as I run away

I take one too many steps as i fall apart

My hand in yours, your finger is mine

As i hold your thoughts, the world steals mine

[ishisgettingtired]

It is amazing that

I can wonder at the moon

feel sad about an unseen message

and plan to save the world

in almost the same instant.

[ishisgettingtired]

Another note in my journal of sadness,

Crinkled paper, rulers, erasers,

Bundled up in a cloth-like material,

My heart aches for some comfort, a touch, a calm primordial…

[ishisgettingtired]

Every breath becomes tougher to take

As I smoke the last of my cig

As I drink the last of my triple sec

I feel sad today

Justified or not...I do feel sad. And this is me expressing it.

Tomorrow will be fine. It always is.

But if the dissolution of potential connections could feel so much

I wonder what real life feels like. I wonder what death of a closed one feels like. I wonder what real tragic loss feels like.

[ishisgettingtired]

The cigs I have smoked

The drinks I drank

to get over this temporary defeat.

I am not sure how I will feel tomorrow, but today...

I feel shit

[ishisgettingtired]

A skipped friendship

A romance in alternate universe

Those are all the things I have to hold on for now...

Though the dissolution of my current firm didn't affect me too much

How do I justify what I am feeling?

A strong need for reciprocation.

[ishisgettingtired]

Things I thought I was done with dog me like a high speed theft chase.

The feelings that I had left behind have found me again and caught up.

They shackle me, turning me morbid.

Slowly, I give in to the cancer that spreads. Hoping that my jab is right around the corner.

[ishisgettingtired]

Felling a little dizzy , I try to wind up

Wind up my time here, Cause I am done tidying stuff

My heads in a mess, so is my room

my thoughts follow suit, Not knowing my demon is in pursuit

I look above me, look around me, eye my surroundings, as I escape drowning

holding onto something, turned out to be nothing, I barely held your hand, felt like we were a special something

fell in love way back when I first met you, staring at the sky as i solemnly miss you, could I have kissed you

holding onto memories as I fight my way, out of this maze that turned into a bunch of phrases spelling i am self obsessed

[ishisgettingtired]

Hey there

Hey,

I am dying.

Save from the breath of desire.

Cause I feel so dismal. And so small. That i can't compete.

I feel so insignificant. That I can't possibly believe.

That all I wanted was you. And right now, I am so away.

All I needed was a hug. But I am painfully stray...

[ishisgettingtired]

You

As I see the green and the yellows fade away,

all that lurks in the corner is an empty shade of blue.

My insecurities have scared away what used to be happiness,

and turned it into a complex unnecessarily distorted image of you.

[ishisgettingtired]

Finally, she strikes!

I wanna wake up, and see you lying by my side

Put on some make up, but I will still look into your eyes.

Can we try to, meet in the middle of a jungle

And talk about everything under the sun.

Cause when I wake up, I feel the distance in my bones

I might try to have fun, but fun has lost it's touch.

Its all a distraction, from what we were heading to be

an unlikely phenomenon, fighting against destiny.

So can we just stay in and hope for a while

Let the horizon meet us with you at my side

ho ho ho hold on to the speed that we take

ho ho ho Hold onto my hand as we escape....reality chases us now!

[ishisgettingtired]

The photos of us kept on the shelf are now covered with cobwebs.

As my memory fades, its even tougher to remember what you and I were.

Were we more than what others have been or were we just the same?

Because I know that we weren't lesser. That much I will always know.

[ishisgettingtired]

A coin toss. Two sides of the same coin.

Yet the struggle is to ensure that the coin doesnt land on either one of them, but on neither of them.

[ishisgettingtired]

I am broken so bad that I am tape thats been blasted...away.

Into the dark i have been thrown and I am just finding my zone...so give me way.

As I push through the crowd, I try to look at you now, but it's tough.

Cause you are no longer there, in the arms of somewhere else, and I am stuck.

The crowd forces me to let go of all my energy.

My passion has been taken away, with time stealing away me from me.

But as I sit and wait for the next moon to shine, I wonder if I could have just done with the sun.

[ishisgettingtired]

Where will I find you again? :/