the begging bowl of a San Francisco night May 15, 2017
Lear like, i reject the old man's begging bowl.
no - inside myself the howling monk, with eyes that seek
the darkened ellis streets of my soul.
where jazz talking con girls, old and beautiful, run candy stores of sleight of hand
bearing behind guarded eyes lives measured in pain
and dead babes not known by the men, the dead babies.
i stop my eyes and ears - one of those men.
i race it back to safety to my hotel room,
my hands, bringing blast off blasts - explore as they probe my skin my flesh still smooth and responsive as palms run along my thighs and some and i draw breath - the breath of life unwilling to slow and merge.
i sing the life connected!
learnt from the words of savio, my 60s mind seeks now to connect to black braided queer girls,
singing poems of the heart, slammed to the loving eyes of berkeley boys.
and i sing out my lonely words to an island girl
who once caught me, tractor beam of eyes and face
and calmed my racing mind.
yes i beg - but not for less or void or only notness
i beg to lie against the skin and snore of life,
that sounding board of musky sweet
and by connecting so i water life surrounding
and make all ripe to eat.