we drove an hour to the city. maybe more. the kind of drive where time stretches and snaps and stretches again. no music. just the low, constant hum of the car filling in the spaces where words should’ve gone.
I kept glancing at her, something didn’t sit right. I couldn't figure it out so it probably isn't important.
i kept my eyes on the window.
we ended up at the lookout.
she fell asleep before me.
her head tilted against the glass, her hair shimmered under the moonlight. It's quite pretty. there’s still body glitter on her collarbones. it never really comes off. it always clings to her skin, catches the moonlight, makes her look like the inside of a gemstone cave. Kind hot ngl.
the air tastes stale. like it’s been breathed too many times.
the night smells new. like something just opened up and left.
i took some of my mom’s oxy before we left. just enough to blur the edges. it’s not really working. or maybe it is. the rest will be saved for a worse time. I'm not sure how long it'll last.
“From a certain point onward there is no longer any turning back. That is the point that must be reached.” — Franz Kafka
she breathes slow beside me.