Everything isn't wonderful

Just kind of a side blog of feelings because there are things I want said, but don't want people to see the face behind whats said.

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Are you fucking kidding me

[papertownsy]

[kissurai]

Lilligant variations! These took me longer than expected  ✿

[thebestoftumbling]

Animals of Tumblr #1

[cherivinca]

I wanted to try out the Pokemon variation thing! I chose one of my fave Pokemon

also oops I didn’t notice the Pokemon outside of the “field only” egg group so I missed some cool ones I could’ve used! Oh well!

[darksilenceinsuburbia]

Hans Withoos

My Name is Blessing - for Orange Babies

2013

[leavingfruitprints]

THIS IS THE TYPE OF PHOTOGRAPHY I LIVE FOR.

[thatsthat24]

Excuse me while I cry over the beauty.

[isnteverythingwonderful]

I had an anxiety dream last night and everything was so heavy and I was screaming. And I was breaking stuff because I wanted someone to help me and to notice me. But my dad just left me there and I was screaming and I ran I to traffic to kill myself but the cars weren't moving fast enough so I started just whimpering on the road. And suddenly I was upstairs in a chair just staring at a dresser. And my sister (I think) came in and tried to talk to me but all I could do was whimper because I was so anxious and scared and had screamed myself mute

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Help?

Grant asked me to move in with him, take penny, take clothes. And I said no. but I think I might wanna leave. and honestly. it’s all because of fjora and i guess partially jordan. theyre always together and partying and with people i don’t like. one i really don’t like. hes here all the time. and i don’t even feel comfortable leaving my room when hes here. and fjoras just a terrible person. and terrible to me. but at grants house. theres no internet. no cell phone service. and the house is practically empty because its trying to be sold. I don’t know. Maybe i don’t need help. I just need to figure out what the hell i’m doing and talk to myself through tumblr. . 

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Srsly fuck this.

I could seriously rant about my shitty sisters friends and my roommates for a whole day and still feel aggravated. Jordan doesn’t know about this blog (hopefully) and i could deal with just her (usually). then she has fuckin Zoe move in, who i dont’ like. who SAYS shes going to only be here a month but good fucking luck with that. but fjora is by far my worst roommate. she has legit drug dealers in this house and shitty people I DO NOT LIKE.  fjoras become nothing but a massive liar and mean. and i have a chance to move away. but i dont’ know if i can handle being away from my dad and moving penny. 

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Every part of me wants to end my life. 

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Hi i'm an idiot!

I'm an idiot who thinks its a great idea to talk to my one ex who doesn't piss me off and we haven't talked in like 6 months becuase EVERYONE IN MY LIFE FUCKIGN DISAPPEARS ON ME. even though i dont' even like him like that and i have grant whose the best damn thing i'll ever get. the hate is strong of me. 

[isnteverythingwonderful]

A quick reminder im suppose to go to college and pick my life career this year

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Went to a small drinking get together with 2 friends, met up with 2 really hot guys. While talking to one of them about superheroes after to many drinks I told him "Finally a guy that  knows superheroes that i want to..." before jordan tackled me for almost telling him I wanted to sleep with him.whoops!

[isnteverythingwonderful]

If I became goth. Beautiful.

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Why do kitty cats like laying on their heads?

[isnteverythingwonderful]

Isn’t sure if my two good friends are hanging out for the first time EVER to spite me or to make me happy?

[isnteverythingwonderful]

I just wanted a damn picture with him