Podrías ponerlo así, manteniendo el tono de fan ansiosa pero respetuoso:
This is going to be long, and English isn’t my first language, so sorry if this sounds a little awkward. 🥺
It’s 2 AM in my country and I’m overthinking Caprice EreMika again, and there’s one thing I’ve been wondering about in particular: at this point in the story, does Eren still believe he won’t be able to stay with Mikasa in the future once his mission is over?
What makes me wonder is that, despite imagining a future with her—even picturing her pregnant at one point—and seemingly changing his mind about having children, I don’t really see him doing much to actually make that future happen. He doesn’t seem to have a real plan.
I don’t want spoilers, and I trust that you’re developing something with this. My question is more about Eren’s current mindset. Right now, does he basically believe that he can’t end up with Mikasa? That their relationship has an expiration date? 😶🌫️
The fact that he still refuses to tell her he loves her (which I understand is partly because he feels guilty about not being honest with her) makes me think that he still isn’t allowing himself to imagine a long-term future with her.
And I don’t mean this as criticism of the character at all. Actually, I remember you once said that the horrible thing Eren did when they first met—leaving Mikasa alone in the bathroom and running away—was because he was about to begin his FBI mission and couldn’t afford to develop feelings for anyone at that point in his life. But Mikasa made him feel things anyway.
So part of me wonders if my poor Eren still doesn’t feel like he deserves to love Mikasa freely or have a future with her. 💔
On the other hand, I have absolutely no idea how Eren is supposed to tell Mikasa that he’s actually an FBI agent without losing her immediately, and that thought alone is making me anxious. 😭
sorry for taking forever to respond to this! i wanted to respond when i had the time to give it my full attention 🥹🩷
I think it is more so a case of Eren doesn’t believe there’s a way to repair everything after the truth comes out, he thinks he’s lied too much and too deeply to fix things, which is part of the reason he’s so afraid and hesitant to 1) tell her the truth and 2) confess that he’s in love with her
its sad because he feels so deeply for her but he’s so full of self blame that he’s unable to think past his fear of losing her. He thinks he deserves it, and he knows he’s gonna be miserable!
in current timeline, it’s becoming clearer and clearer that he’s just biding his time and enjoying what he has with Mikasa while it lasts, things are closing in on him and he knows that he can’t keep up the lie for any longer, he’s just waiting for the other shoe to drop 🫠
