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Hi, i'm Darwin. I suffer from short-term memory loss.

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YOU DON'T NEED ALL THESE PAPER PEOPLE AND THEIR PAPER BULLCRAP.

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"I'm a loner but of course I'm still longing for a company. I just wish they'd know."

thoughts while having a breakdown

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I decided to create a masterpost that would help you with what you are struggling with. Hopefully any of the links below will help you! Reminder; You’re going to be okay. What you are going through will pass, just remember to breathe. 

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Distractions;

Here are some distractions to help keep your mind occupied so you aren’t too focused on your thoughts. 

-Draw something

-This website translates the time into colours.

-Create your own galaxy.

-Play flowing.

-Make a 3D line travel where ever you like. 

-Listen to music.

-Calm.

-Ocean mood, do nothing for two minutes.

Sleep issues; 

- 8 hour sleep music.

-Rainy mood. 

-Meditation.

-Coping with nightmares.

-How to cope with nightmares, 11 steps.

-Calm

-Foods that can affect your sleeping, both positive and negatively. 

 Uncomfortable with silence; 

-Rainy mood.

-10 hours of rain and thunder.

-3 hours of rain and thunder.

-Human heartbeat.

-Rainforest.

-Sound of rain on a tin roof.

-Autumn wind.

-Rain on a tent

-Traffic in the rain.

-Soft traffic. 

-Fan.

-Train.

-Simply noise.

-My noise.

-Rainy cafe.

Anxiety; 

-How to stop worrying. 

-Tips to manage anxiety and stress.

-The 10 best ever anxiety management techniques. 

-Self-help strategies for anxiety. 

-Helping a friend with anxiety. 

-All about worrying.

-8 myths about anxiety. 

Sad, angry and depressed/depression; 

-“I’m always sad”

-Feeling sad.

-Going through trauma.

-“I’m always angry”.

-Anger management. 

-All about anger.

-National helplines and websites.

-Self-help strategies for depression.

-Dealing with depression at work.

-Dealing with depression at school.

Isolation and loneliness; 

-Pets and mental health.

-All about loneliness. 

-“I feel so alone”

-10 more ideas to help with loneliness. 

-How to deal with loneliness.

 Self-harm;

-Alternatives to self-harm and distraction techniques.

-146 things to do besides self-harm.

-More alternatives to self-harm.

-Self-harm alternatives.

-How to take care of self-harm wounds/injuries.

-Getting rid of scars.  

Addiction; 

-How to help a friend with a drug addiction.

-What is addiction?

-All about alcohol and addiction.

-The facts about drug addiction.

 Eating disorders; 

-Helping a friend with an eating disorder.

-Eating disorder treatments. 

-Support services for eating disorders. 

-Self-help tips with eating disorders.

-Eating disorder recovery. 

-Recovering from an eating disorder. 

-100+ reasons to recover. 

-Understanding and managing eating disorders. 

 Dealing with self-hatred;  

-3 ways to ease self-loathing. 

-How to turn self-hatred into self-compassion.

-Self-hatred resources.

-10 step plan to deal with self-hate. 

 Suicidal; 

-International suicide hotlines (1)  (2)

-Preventing suicide. 

-Reasons to stay alive.

-Dealing with suicidal thoughts and feelings.

-Coping with suicidal ideation.  

 Schizophrenia;

-All about schizophrenia.  

-Helping a person with schizophrenia.  

-Understanding and dealing with schizophrenia.  

-Delusions and hallucinations.  

OCD;

-Managing your OCD at home. 

-Overcoming OCD.

-How to cope with OCD. 

-Strategies for dealing with the anxious moments. 

Borderline personality disorder; 

-Helping someone with BPD. 

-All about personality disorders.

-Treatment for BPD.

Abuse; 

-Healthy relationships VS abusive relationships. 

-Emotional abuse

-Overcoming sexual abuse. 

-Hotlines services. 

-5 ways to escape an abusive relationship. 

-Domestic violence support. 

-Signs of an abusive relationship. 

-What do to if you’re in an abusive relationship. 

-Surviving abuse. 

-What you can do if you’re sexual harassed. 

-Sexual assault support.

-What to do if you’ve been sexually assaulted or abused. 

 Bullying;

-How to stand up against bullying.

-How to protect yourself when it comes to cyber bullying.

-How to help stop people bullying you. 

 Loss and grief; 

-How to cope with a suicide of a loved one.

-Grieving for a stranger. 

-Common reactions to death. 

-Working through grief.

(Other loss and grief)

-Moving away from friends and family. 

-Coping with a breakup.

 Getting help; 

-Seeking help early. 

-All about psychological treatments. 

-Types of help.

-All about age and confidentiality. 

Things you need to remember; 

- Don’t stress about being fixed because you’re not broken.

-Remember to remind yourself of your accomplishments. Tell yourself that you’re proud of yourself, even if you’re not. 

- This is temporary. You won’t always feel like this. 

-You are not alone. 

-You are enough. 

-You are important. 

-You are worth it. 

-You are strong. 

-You are not a failure, 

-Good people exist. 

-Reaching out shows strength. 

-Breathe. 

-Don’t listen to the thoughts that are not helping you. 

-Give yourself credit. 

-Don’t be ashamed of your emotions, for the good or bad ones. 

-Treat yourself the same way as you would treat a good friend. 

-Focus on the things you can change. 

-Let go of toxic people. 

-You don’t need to hide, you’re allowed to feel the way you do. 

-Try not to beat yourself up. 

-Something is always happening, you don’t want to miss out on what’s going to happen next. 

-You are not a bother.

-Your existence is more than your appearance. 

-You are smart. 

-You are loved. 

-You are wanted. 

-You are needed. 

-Better days are coming. 

-Just because your past is dark, doesn’t mean your future isn’t bright. 

-You have more potential than you think. 

- Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.

Please remember to look after yourself and know that you are more than worth it and you deserve to be happy. Keep smiling butterflies x

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"Sometimes all you need is a company. No talks, no bullroars, just appreciating silence with someone."

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”is you okay, is you good, cause i really want to know.” - Glozell, idk.

Hi! I finally had a free time for this blog. I’ve been so busy lately. Midterms, paper works, trainings, and stuff. These are like, the major happenings in my life this 2016. Please be interested with my life kbye.

Trainings. Firefighting, Abandon ship survivals. 3 days and 3 nights starting from thursday night to sunday night. Spent most of the time riding a bus so i had a really bad time having a flat butt after a 4 hour trip from pampanga to laguna. *sigh*. Pero enjoy naman. Day 1 nagdrive kami ng recue boat that we will be riding once na lumubog yung barkong sakay namin. An hour sailing around manila bay in a sunny day? What more could I ask for?? Hahaha. Second day balik sa training site sa Laguna and experienced to jump again to the water from a high leveled stairs. Fun! Third day nag firefighting na kami. Killed two burning containers not to brag, but it was really scary. Not kidding. Lalo na kung ilang beses mo nang ini-sweep yung apoy pero di namamatay. Tip: Sigaw ng malakas habang pinapatay ang apoy because based on animes, it helps a lot. Gumana naman in my case. Lol.

Foundation days. Y’all guess what?! I married Kathryn Bernardo! Well, kinda. Our school had a Foundation day celebration for 3 days at may business yung mga BA students na Marriage Booth. At sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon, pinosas ako ng isang lalaking di ko kilala kahit ilang beses nakong umayaw. Dinala ako sa booth at pagkatapos pinosas yung tourism student na kahawig ni KB. Kilig naman tong mga nagmamanage ng booth pati mga kabarkada ko -.-. Pero inenjoy ko naman dahil wala nakong magagawa nakaposas ako eh. Ended the rest of the day planning stuff for our other friends to get married to random girls at school. Dalawa pa sa amin yung kinasal. Hahaha. At pagkagabi tinapos pa namin yung lecheng korni na stage play na gawa ng hs dept. 12 na ata ako nakauwi non.

Baguio with my Mom. Last year nagbaguio na kami at bumalik kami ulit dito this 2016. Sumama nako dahil pagdating ng May aalis na rin ako. And besides, it’s my last out of town trip with my mom. Pretty sure i’m gonna miss this lady. Medyo umaambon sa araw na to pero inenjoy pa naman namin Hahaha. Went to Camp John Hay, Minesview Park, Philippine Military Academy, and nakalimutan ko na yung iba. Dito ko nalaman na banang bana si Mama sa mga tangke na panggera. Hahaha. Akala ko nga kasama ko si Dora sa kakalakad niya. She bought me a woven sweatshirt because she knows I love sweatshirts even if it’s hot outside.

Recognition Pictorials. After this semester, this will be it. There’ll be a one-year internship sa barkong maaassign kami. It’s so sad but this moment made us all proud. For surviving this degree, for laughing at all the hard times we don’t understand the topics, for having our thesis done, for experiencing the life of a deck cadet in an academy, for improving our navigating skills together, and for being able to stand at this point without buying yellow pad papers. Seeing my squad graduating the acads make me cry. But this is reality approaching. I’m so excited to see my squad become successful together someday.

Drama no? Kaya siguro hanggang dito na muna tayo. Captain Darwin, I’m so excited to see you sailing the seas and having a world-travel.

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prolly my last Christmas vacation. this sucks.

should’ve done this yesterday, but I was tired. Pero muli akong nagbabalik. Tayo na’t magdiwang.

Monday. Samgy party dapat ng barkada, pero tatlo lang kaming pumunta. Nung morning nagstarbucks kami, then nag-grocery. Ang dami naming pagkain, may dala pa kami nung pauwi Hahaha. And kinuha ko na yung inorder kong bagong phone, pero maybe after months mawawala din to Hahaha. Debut rin pala ng pinsan ko so ayun dumeretso na ako sakanila nung pauwi. Nagkasama nanaman kaming magpipinsan kaya tawa nanaman kami ng tawa, ang saya! 

Tuesday.  Nagstay lang ako sa bahay maghapon at nagkakagulo ng mga pinsan ko kung matutuloy yung lakad namin o hindi. Pero bandang huli tuloy din kami Hahaha. Samg nanaman kaya feeling ko may dugong koreano talaga ako.Papasok palang kami sa resto pinainom kami agad ng tubig! Akala siguro ng mga staff di namin susulitin yung unlimited food na binayad namin. Hahaha. bandang huli ako nalang yung natirang kumakain kahit ako lang yung payat saamin. Di ko nga alam kung bat di ako tumataba.

Wednesday. Youtube whole day zzz. Mas gusto ko yung manood ng youtubers kesa sa netflix, madali akong mabagot sa mga series eh. But I accept anime comedy suggestions hahaha. Yun lang. But I broke a personal record, naligo ako ng 9pm.

Thursday. As usual, stay sa bahay ng maghapon. Bandang 5pm pumunta nako ng church, may simbang gabi ng New Year’s Eve. Nung Dec 24 nakipag Chena Buena lang kami sa mga bahay bahay, pero ngayon umuwi ako agad. Kasi may pagkain na samen. Hahaha. Muntik ko nanamang pinatay yung sarili ko sa pagkain ng madaming taba. Pero buti nalang di sumakit ulo ko. That selfie with my cat is the best selfie I had in 2015. 

Friday. New Year na! Family reunion namin sa Concepcion, Tarlac. Ilang oras palang yung tulog ko agad akong ginising ni mama kase di naman siya excited -_-. Binalak kong matulog habang nagbibiyahe pero di ko nagawa dahil ang ingay nila mama at tita ko. Pagdating namin sa Concepcion madami nanamang pagkain huhu. Nag enjoy lang ako nung pinagwrestling namin nung pinsan ko yung mga maliliit naming pinsan. Yung isa boxer, yung isa wrestler. Hahaha! Tawa pa rin sila ng tawa habang nagbubugbugan Hahahaha. 

Saturday. Pumunta akong church ng umaga for the morning prayers then practice pagkatapos. Pagdating ng 9am joined fasting ng men and women’s net. Tapos nakauwi nako ng mga 1:30 na nun. Dapat aalis agad ako ulit kaso nasa bahay yung mga tita ko kaya di ako nakaalis, di ako pinayagan -_-. Bandang 5:30 nakaalis nako ulit! Nagcellgroup kami, at dumating ako dun na-late ako. 

Sunday. Sunday Service ng morning! Tapos kumain kami sa malapit na jollibee, birthday nung cell member ko. Nawala pako sa sarili ko nung mga oras na yun. Dahil una, kahit gusto kong magtreat wala akong panghuhugutan ng kayamanan. At pangalawa, di namin alam kung saan kami kakain. Kung itutuloy ko to magiging rant post ang blog na to hahaha kaya wag nalang -_- Bumalik kami sa church at nagstay ng mga ilang minutes tapos umuwi na kami. Then ininvite ako ng mga kaibigan kong power puff girls (dahil tatlo sila) na manood ng movie. Insidious 3 yung pinanood namin at dahil di pako nanood ng kahit anong insidious movie, di ko gets. Buti nalang may nagku-kuwento kung ano na ang nangyayari. Di man nakakatakot, nakakabigla lang na nakakadiri (Blehk). Tapos nanood pa kami ng San Andreas, di ko rin gets kaya nanonood lang ako pag may building nang gumuguho. 

May mga araw na sobrang busy, meron naman na sa bahay lang maghapon. Anubayan. Pero nakakaenjoy naman. Inenjoy ko na dahil sa susunod baka nakasakay nako sa barko. Grabe grabe grabe. 

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Social Anxiety, dang it.

I don’t think that this is the right term for this but I am tragically suffering from it. It’s freaking kicking in and I am not comfortable with it. Whenever I am at a public place I always hope that it won’t bother me as how it does to me some of the time. I’m scared of people, i’m scared of judgement that’s uttered by anybody’s eyes. One time I was in the mall to meet someone for my buy and sell business, then my client said he’ll be late for like half an hour so I left the spot where i’m sitting and tried to hide in a better place. I literally looked for a place inside the mall where no many people go, inside an American Home Depot. Hahaha. Tried to combat it, but failed. That’s why I hate walking around in a mall. It makes me feel, dominated. Even though sometimes I speak in front of the public, but that made me prepare for a very long time. It took me my whole guts to fight this disorder. But thankfully, it gradually disappear while I try not to care about the world.

P.S. The best hiding spots are in the corners of coffee shops.

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6th of December, 2015 

Hills of Glory Water Baptism/Christmas Party/Family Day. Yas

A day full of joy, laughter, and pure happiness.

So yung church namin eh bumalik ng Bagac, Bataan for our 3-in-1 event na sobrang excited ang lahat. 

Gumising ng napaka-aga, nagprepare ng damit at pagkain, naligo, naghintay ng jeep na napakatagal, pumunta sa meeting place, naghintay, naghakot ng paninda ni lolo habang umuulan, nabasa, naghintay ullit, na-stress sa umaga, at bumiyahe. Alam mo yung ang aga mong sabog-sabog? Hahaha. Ako alam ko yun. Mukhang basag yung mukha ko paggising mula sa napaka-habang biyahe. Pero nung nakita ko yung binalikan naming beach na puno ng pine-trees, na-sulit agad yung pagod ko. It’s like staring at a peaceful greenery and you can feel them sucking the stress out of you. Sweet.

So ayun nagbaba kami ng mga gamit tapos sinimulan na yung very-short service and games aferwards. Nagkatipon-tipon ang lahat ng mga church members sa harap ng ginawang stage ng mga tech-team tapos ang dami na pala namin. Di ko yun napansin. Anyways, eto yung mga bagay na tumatak sa isip ko sa araw na ‘to.

Salimpusa

The first game is called “The boat is sinking” pero pinasosyal lang siya na “Group yourselves”. Nagstart yung game at nagsurvive lang kami ng isang round! wahahahah. Nakakahiya. So ayun yung network namin umupo nalang at tinatawanan yung mga nagsurvive sa game. Naisipan namin ng ka-cellgroup ko na makikigulo habang naguguluhan ang lahat kapag nagsigaw na sila ng number dahil madami pa naman ang naglalaro at di naman nila mapapansin. Ayun nagsigaw na sila ng number at biglang tumakbo at tumawa ng sabay habang naguguluhan ang lahat. Sa susunod na round, ginawa namin ulit dahil nag-enjoy kami. Umulit ang eksena na takbuhan tapos bigla akong hinila ng mga grupo ng kabataan na di ko kilala! Hahaha. Habang nagbibilang kami kung tama ba yung number of people natataranta yung isa kung masosobrahan ba kami o magkukulang. Sa bandang huli nagkulangan kami at na-out yung grupo na hinila ako. Pagkatapos nung hindi na ako sumali sa kahit-anong laro dahil tinamaan na ako ng spirito ng KJ.

Beach Touching Ball

Alam niyo yung touching ball? Kung hindi eh ito yung larong “Dodge Ball” ng mga kano na minodify ng mga pinoy. Kung hindi mo ito linaro nung bata ka eh kawawa ka nalang. Naglaro kami ng Beach Touching Ball ng mga ka-network ko at gamit naming bola ay pang-volleyball. Buti nalang medyo malambot yung bola at di masyadong masakit kapag tinamaan ka. Mas gusto ko pa yung taya kase nakakapaglabas ako ng sama ng loob at ang sarap kapag may natamaan ka. HAHAHAHA. At nakakapagod yung takbo ng takbo.

Sandman Torture

Nakatambay lang kami ng dalawa sa mga ka-cg ko sa dalampasigan tapos nagpalibing ako sakanila ng basang buhangin. Yung tuyo sana eh kaso mainit na. Tapos tumulong yung mga kaibigan naming babae at yung tulong nila naging torture. Dumating na sila nung upper part nalang yung di pa naka-libing. Eto yung nangyare, nakahiga na ako tapos di ko napansin ang dami na palang buhangin ang nakapatong sa patpatin kong katawan. Yung feeling? Nakakatawa na nakakatakot na nakaka-iyak. Eto pa, napatakan yung mata ko ng saltwater pero wala akong magawa dahil ulo ko lang yung nagagalaw ko. Nagpakuha ng tubig at dinalhan nila ako ng malamig, napakalamig. Pinapabuhos ko lang sa mata ko at successful naman. Pero pambihira pati sa bibig tsaka ilong! Hindi ko ba alam kung tulong ba talaga o ano. Tapos bumangon na ako ng parang zombie mula sa puntod. After-all, nakaka-enjoy naman kahit nakakatakot. Shout-out nga pala sa mga Grande! hahaha.

Forgotten Gears

This is a tribute to my forgotten swimming gears. To my sleeves, trunks, and shorts, it has been a good year to swim with you. I want to go back to you but I can’t. You’ll always be in my heart and I know you will never forget me. Good bye my great bros.

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Bring back to January 2013 please, where everything was new. Where everything is happy. When I still feel the thrill of a new beginning.

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"All it takes for you to move on is the right set of people for you to forget what your heart is going through."

hugot from the bottom of my heart

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Talk about Dreams, and other trips.

Friday, 30th of October 2015

Tumayo ng maaga. Nag-almusal. Naligo. Nagbihis. Nagtext ng papunta na. Umalis. Original Plan sa araw na to eh magpapamedical ako, then magswimming “daw” sabi nung kasama namin. At dahil don, hindi natuloy ang swimming. Nagsamgy yung mga naiwan, sinamahan ko nalang yung kuya ko.

First stop, Clinic. Eto nanaman kami sa annual turukan ng pulso para magpamedical check-up. Kailangan kasi sa course namin para malaman kung may dala dalang sakit ba o ano. Hindi kasi pwede sa seaman yung may hepa or complications sa stool or urine. Stool? Stool. Pesteng stool na yan! Barado yung cr ng clinic eh kailangan naming magpasa ng sample. Di ko naisip na pwede naman pala gawin yung proseso sa bahay at dalhin nalang sa clinic. Kaya pumunta kami sa katapat na McDo, yung kaibigan namin na nakapagpass na ng stool sample umorder sila, para di halatang nakipag-banyo lang kami dun. Yung kasama kong nag-cr eh loko yun, kinuha yung isang dangkal ng tissue sa may dispenser at linagay sa bag ko yung tissue at yung kadiri niyang sample. (Pasintabi wahahahahaha). Pagkatapos ako naman, wala na akong pake pagkatapos ko basta linagay ko yung akin at sa kasama ko sa loob ng bag ko kahit mabahuan pa yan. Pero pagkatapos umorder din kami. Kumuha ako ng coffee float na paghalo mo lang yung sundae at coffee eh frappe na. Kasing lasa lang ng java-chip frappe sa starbucks! Pero mas mura ng sobra yung coffee float ng mcdo. Hahaha.

Next stop, Wear Kapampangan! Pagkatapos naming magmcdo ng mgbabarkada nagkayayaan silang pumunta ng mall sa Angeles. (Parang Greenhills sa Manila). Ayos lang ako dun para na rin may kasama akong sasakay sa ruta ng jeep papunta sa meeting place namin nung kuya ko. Bumaba na yung dabarkads ko at konting lush nalang bumaba na rin ako. Nagmeet kami ni kuya, at dumeretso na ng Wear Kapampangan. Itong shop na to ay isang t-shirt business na may prints ng usual kapampangan statements na nagbibigay nostalgia or culture embracement sa Pampanga.

Third, Chill! Siyempre lunch na at kailangan ko nang kumain! Dahil hindi ko makakaya ang magutom, mangangayayat ako lalo. Dumeretso na agad kami sa TollHouse Café at umorder ng take-out baked macaroni then punta agad ng Starbucks. Note: First time naming dalawa sa SB kaya tameme kaming dalawa sa may menu. At nakakahiya hahahaha. Una umupo muna kami sa sofa tapos kunwari naguusap kami ni kuya. Sabay search nalang namin sa net kung ano yung mga terms at best selling nila dun. Hahahahaha. Buti nalang may wifi ang mall! Pero hindi lang yon. Ever been in a small chat but you just discuss some important matters in life? Sa discipleship? Sa pag-aayos ng buhay? Sa pagpursue at pagdetermine ng pangarap? Napakasarap isipin na may tao pa na hindi lang kalokohan ang naiisip. At mas masarap yung alam mong loko pero may oras na open na open kayo, brotherhood kumbaga. Nainspire kami sa mga pumapasok na customers, mostly businessmen sila or architect and engineers. Sabi ko sa kuya ko, babalik din kami dun na successful na kaming tao. Mga taong may napatunayan, at mga taong may naisulat nang libro. (We’re both chena-writers, btw)

Last, bisita sa Apt. Sa apartment kung saan nagsamgy yung mga nagsamgy. Pagdating namin don, nalaman namin na nawalan or nanakawan ng cha-ching yung isa namin kasama. Pang enroll niya yun, at sobrang nadurog ang puso ko. Sayang naman kasi talaga yun at masakit magskip ng isang semester. Nanghihinayang ako sa panahon dahil konting kembot nalang CPA na yung kuya kong yon. Gumawa kaming paraan, at hoping na mabubuo niya din yung nawala sakanya. Sa mga sitwasyon na kailangan mo talaga, doon mo malalaman kung sino talaga ang mga nandiyan para sayo. Hugot haha.

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#BadBoy

Tuesday, 29th of September 2015. Maritime days namin sa school from monday to wednesday so kasalukuyan kaming nakakulong sa school at kailangang magstay sa kadahilanang ang mga estudyante ay umuuwi at hindi nanonood ng event, kasama kami sa mga umuuwi. Ganyan ang problema kapag may event na, lalo na sa mga third year maritime students dahil mostly, buong week halfday lang. In my case gusto ko ding manood pero meron pakong kailang puntahan at ayusin, and nakaset na lahat ng schedule ko ng afterschool which I committed ny life in. (—feeling busy professional). Pumasok kami ng morning para sa attendance at pinanood namin ang mga kabarkada namin na magbabasketball and volleyball. Pagdating ng lunch nag-eexpect ako ma pwede nang lumabas ang mga estudyante. Eh hindi pala! Napagsabihan daw sila na hanggang 5 kame! Nakakabeastmode hahaha. Anong gagawin namin dun hanggang 5?! Pwede lang daw lumabas pag may permit galing sa instructor namin dati na head ng event ngayon. Ayoko pamandin makita yon dahil nagtatago ako baka bentahan pako ng apat na bingo cards na tig-25 pesos! Kinausap namin yung iba naming classmate at magoover the bakod daw sila eh delikado dun at visible pa sa mga guard. Nagsuggest nalang yung isa na sa likod nalang, hanggang bewang lang yun at nakatago. At dahil sa pagka-desperado naming umuwi napasama ako. Habang naglalakad kami nakita ako nung mga accountancy students na kilala ako, pero dedma lang ako hahaha. Kinakabahan talaga ako dahil first time kong gawin tong krimen na to, pero kailangan kong gawin. Nakadating na kami sa hidden grotto. Pinauna ko na yung mga expert at sumunod kami ng kasama ko. Ganito yung feeling, parang hunger games. Yung feeling mo may instructor sa fourth floor na nagmamasid sayo at ipatawag ka sa office kinabukasan. So ayun, nakalusot kami sa time space warp at napunta sa memorial park na katabi ng school. Ayun, the feeling is just like a walk in the park, parang walang nangyare. Nakalabas kami ng sementeryo, naglakad papuntang terminal, at nakauwi. End of story.

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A bit of long exposure. Inspired by the movement of hillsong.

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Tiresome, yet super fun.<\b>

Nakikita ko palang tong mga pictures na to, napapagod nako. Hahaha. Ito yung isa sa mga pinakanakakapagod kong linggo, di naman kasi ako sanay sa matinding galaan at makipag-interact sa madaming tao.

So eto pangalawang ulit ng weekly update ko. Alam niyo ba yung ang dami mo nang nasulat tapos dahil sabogsabog ka eh bigla mong na-cancel? Kabanas hahaha.

Monday. So eto weekly cell sa Tinajero. Distributions ng concert tickets and biglaang assigned speaker for the day.

Tuesday. Nung una balak ko lang matulog maghapon pagkauwi sa bahay pero nagtext yung leader ko gusto daw niya magchill sa labas at magbuhos ng pinanghuhugutan at ayun nagjollibee kame with my co-primary. Sabi ni leader treat niya kaya linubos-lubos na namin hahahah. Umorder kami ng Ultimate Burger Steak with Mashed potato tig-iisa. Sana maulit muli. Ngapala, first time kong maglead ng worship dito, eh di pako sanay pero successful naman yung gathering.

Wednesday. Concert! More than a thousand attended our fund-raising concert sa church, it was a freaking blast. First time kong magback-up sa concert kaya medyo ninenerbyos pako wahaha. Eto yung oras na kahit hindi ako magandang panooring sumayaw pero ginawa ko padin hahaha, nakaka-op naman kase kapag hindi ako gumalaw sa stage. Ang saya!

Thursday. Acquaintance party, at last na namin to dail graduating na kami. Huhu. Ang sakit isipin na maglalayag na kami next year, parang kelan lang. Those're my co-freelunch mowdels wahahahha. Umalis kami ng kasama ko ng mga 9pm, at humarot pa yung iba at tinapos ang party kasama ang buong block namen.

Friday. Walang pasok, buong araw na wala sa bahay. Nag-gather kami ng team sa church ng 8am and fasting till 11. Umalis na kami ng mga 11 at dumeretso sa Mang Inasal kasi naman wala kaming choice dahil ang daming tao sa ibang shop at gutom na gutom na kami hahahaha. Para kaming mga vikings kung lumamon pero wala kaming pake dahil di nila kami mapipigilan. Tapos nagkape pa kami ng iba pagkatapos maglunch. Nagchill ng ilang oras, and biglang sumulpot si bestfriend ni leader, kasama niya sa Primary leaders. Naiwan kaming tatlo ng mga ka-cellgroup ko and yung dalawang leaders namen. Nagkayayaan ang magbespren na magsine pero di naman nila kami maiiwan sa ere, kaya ayun nakapagsine din kami ng libre hahaha! Shoutout nga pala kay manager!(bespren ni leader). Siya yung humugot sa atm at hindi nagdalawang isip na mag-invest sa magiging seaman at engineer nila hahaha. Pagkatapos ng movie nilibre pa kaming Kabigting's Halo-Halo. Sulit talaga tong araw na to.

Saturday. Maghapon sa bahay, naulanan nung gabi at nilagnat kinabukasan. Sabogsabog ako pagkagising kaya ayun walang masyado galaw. Napagtripan ko lang mamicture ng lumot hahaha. Ang cute kase eh, parang maliliit na halaman. Feeling ko tuloy ako si Alice kung makagala sa bakuran.

Sunday. SOL3 Graduation at di ako nakapag graduate. Huhu. Pero next wave, babawi ako at gagraduate. Pero pending yung status ko kaya naallocate akong magfacilitate sa Post-encounter classes. OJT feels lang hahaha. First day ko ngayon! Nakakapagod pala parang teacher, pero masaya naman!

So eto kahit walang masyadong maka-relate sa post ko ayos lang. Hahaha. Nakakapagod talagang tignan tong week na to.