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@itchose
#ITCHOSE ━ a yellowjackets multimuse, exploring various time periods from wilderness through present day. triggering themes present.
RULES. ROSTER. PROMPTS.
rescued by cj (she/her, 25+). currently very sporadic activity / mostly hiatus, mainly on @clownfields / @ladyintree / @doomdays.
resurrected dead wife watching her own montage: wow I looked so hot in that
"my friends died, and you are just so starved for attention that you had to make that about you" everything is coming up allie
ㅤ" a blog, huh? " well, that's not good. not for them, anyway. for allie, perhaps, to find a way to settle back into herself after the despondent state she'd been in since the team ( or, what was left of it ) had returned home. chris could sympathize ; for a while, she simply hadn't left her room, barely ate. even now, the sight of meat sometimes turns her stomach. but she's worked hard to recover the pieces of herself she'd thought she'd lost forever, and if that's something allie needs, then who is she to stop her?
ㅤ" i'm usually more inclined to visual outlets, but... hey, if you need help, i'm here. " play the part. help where she can, hinder where she can't. they'd all agreed that what happened in that forest needed to stay there — even if chris can't help but feel like they'd brought something back.
it’s something she’d thought about in the team’s absence, desperate to find a way to be heard, for anyone to listen to her. there was a time when it felt like all the attention was on her; the only freshman who had managed to make the varsity soccer team with her impressive skills, far beyond her age… yet those skills were quickly minimized when she couldn’t ever get her head in the game, the pressure always too much for her, leaving her to make stupid mistakes that should only be made by lesser players. and what did all her glory leave her with in the end, anyway? no one even remembered how good she was once the varsity team left without her. she’d gone from being a weak player on a good team to being the best player on a bad team, and soccer no longer meant anything to her, not when it had led her to a place like this — where she was nothing, the girl left behind.
but she wouldn’t let herself be forgotten. which is why, despite her voice not really being necessary, allie thought people could benefit from her blog, riding on hope that anyone might pay attention. because the survivors don’t seem willing to talk, but she is, even if she doesn’t really know anything.
allie scoffs; she doesn’t have anything to present visually, other than the team photos that have been plastered all over every news article since the disappearance and the rescue, photos she’s in but wasn’t a part of, technically… all she’s got is her words.
“i don’t really need help,” she claims, a little selfishly, and a little too proud, despite not really having anything to be proud of. “well— actually,” she says with a sigh, as if she’s the one helping chris. “it might help if you cared to share your story.” she immediately brings a hand up, as if to stop chris from saying the inevitable. allie’s heard it, too. “not that story. obviously,” she grumbles, even though she too is curious what really happened. “but, like, what’s next for you.”
this being my loudest hint that i may get season 4 allie for real is so funny
the final season + a post-rescue arc is upon us and i've spent 2 seasons developing a character i didn't expect to ever get any real background so it could all fall apart on me with 10 new episodes but. since season 2 i have really built so much of my characterization around the fact that melissa 1) is the youngest sister of a bunch of older brothers + 2) has a complicated relationship with her mother that mostly stems from uncomfortable gender norms. and i don't know how much of her family life we'll really be getting but i am sticking to what i know 🙂↕️
and i think she has so many siblings because her mother really wanted a girl and didn't feel like her family was "complete" until she got one, and then she did, and melissa turned out to be the opposite of everything her mother wanted in a daughter which led to a lot of resentment from her. her mother wanted a daughter for herself and never really considered who that daughter wanted to be once she started growing up. melissa's always been uncomfortable with stereotypically feminine clothing + toys + decor unless she can twist it into her own style for her own comfortability. growing up melissa is so influenced by her brothers and by the idea of being One Of Them, yet forced to be Separated, to be something else. she's not supposed to be like them because she's a girl, she's their sole daughter, she's supposed to be like her mother, meaning melissa and her mother were constantly at odds, pushing and pulling, never finding a compromise, because the things melissa's mother bought her were an attempt to mold her into the perfect daughter for her own needs and not considering any of melissa's own desires. she'd hoped that melissa would just eventually grow out of her "tomboy phase" as she grows up to become a woman. melissa was never going to be what her mother thought she could be.
and obviously some of the fits in the wilderness in general can be a little ridiculous because they're simply working with what they got, but melissa's style is so noticeably ridiculous and intentionally so. not that she followed her mother's desires but she did at least try not to piss her off entirely — but now she has the freedom to wear whatever she wants and she really does. it very often doesn't look good. it can be truly horrendous. but it doesn't matter because she finally has the chance to just wear what she wants, without societal structures and gender norms and a mother pressuring her to behave a certain way.
based on one blurry bts photo from filming, i wouldn't be surprised if melissa is stuck wearing more feminine clothing again and both feeling uncomfortable by it but also feeling like it's something she has to do, some attempt to revert back to the mundane and accept that this is just part of life and maybe that's okay (but it's not and doesn't have to be). and i still believe that there are enough clues to indicate melissa didn't feel safe with the other survivors and that drove her to fake her own death, but i think she felt trapped in a lot of other ways beyond that too.
every day we get closer to some confirmation that we'll see allie in season 4
possible sighting of pearl today amen!!!!!
every day we get closer to some confirmation that we'll see allie in season 4
i just said yesterday “it’ll be so sad when i have to stop calling her maria” but i guess i just keep winning this week
whatever happens know that akilah also still has gay moms
i love stanning minor characters and accidentally manifesting their recurring roles amen
"good thing," van echoes, walks to the fridge where they crack open the freezer. from its steady mechanical hum, they pull a wheel of a pizza from its unorganized slant. van's groceries are not in excess. they're what's cheap and convenient.
travis shares something about himself, and even if he hasn't expressed the resentment toward van for which they seem to wait like a heavy sky — it feels like an offering. they both might be somewhat fucked up, but they've been living their lives like anyone. sometimes that's the issue, the invisibility of this struggle. sometimes it's forgiving: travis deserves those small joys. van doesn't not relate, with it being built into those very shelves of their store.
so they lean into it, asking, "did you?"
setting the pizza down in its plastic, they open the cabinets for him to review, "well, here's what we're workin' with," the basics, mostly. "what do you suggest, chef trav?" the nickname an involuntary roll, easy, like care, like arms keeping him close.
he’s not expecting the question, but maybe he should have — he’s just not used to people really asking about his life (at least, these seemingly minuscule details of it…) and that’s typically what he prefers, but it’s different with van. there’s always been a unique safety with them, one that travis leans into now, too. even if he’s still a bit shy, despite it all.
he shrugs his shoulders, acting more nonchalant than he really is, because there is a bit of him that’s proud of it, even if it’s not really anything special — but it’s something he needed to do to actually take care of himself, and it does feel good, being able to put a recipe together… maybe, if he’s staying here, the least he could do is make van a real meal (though he won’t complain about a solid, trustworthy frozen pizza). “needed something to do that wasn’t so…” he trails off, thinking it over for a moment then sighing. destructive is the word he’s looking for, but he doesn’t want to say it. “—was just trying to keep myself busy. and, you know, not only eat frozen pizzas,” he says with a small hint of a smile — one that says this is okay with him.
he takes a look through the cabinet, then a glance back to them, then lets out a small laugh. “got a grocery store in town? think i’ll cook tomorrow,” he says, teasing them, even if teasing for travis always comes out at least a little bit awkward, but he’s warming up.
even more so that van hits him with a nickname, one that actually makes him feel a little proud. “these’ll do,” he says, picking out a few, placing them on the counter to give van the final go-ahead.
"—how long have you been in this place?" the question comes out a bit hesitantly, travis not sure if he's even allowed to ask, or if he's overthinking it, but from what he remembers about van, it's got them all over it, in a way that feels homey, unlike anything travis has known for a long time.
AMEN
thank god the yj survivors got back to civilization just in time for the release of donnie darko (2001)
obviously this is about travis in the sense that this movie / donnie himself makes him feel so seen and he relates to him so much to an almost painful level that this becomes both his favorite movie and a movie he never wants to talk about with anyone ever.
“donnie's aggressive behavior... his increased detachment from reality, seem to stem from his inability to cope with the forces in the world that he perceives to be threatening.”
i'd have more thoughts but i was busy having the time of my life rewatching so for now i leave this <3
thank god the yj survivors got back to civilization just in time for the release of donnie darko (2001)
akilah's sister casting next
bet you all thought she was already dead but i know the truth
