Iâm getting more and more ill

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@itiswhatitis002
Iâm getting more and more ill
me trying to find someone on this earth who gives a shit about me
My brain feels like itâs about to explode.
No, you donât understand. People with BPD notice everything. We notice when you donât smile as wide at us one morning. We notice when you donât hug as tight. When you donât sound quite as happy when speaking to us. When you look the slightest bit uninterested in what weâre saying.
And when you talk to someone else. When you talk to someone else and look like youâre enjoying yourself, we assume that youâd rather be with them all of the time. So we leave before you can confirm or deny that.
And if you start telling us about a fun time you had with someone else it will not end well. We might be too shy to speak up about it, but itâll still eat away at us. Weâll feel abandoned.Â
And âYou should have been there!â is the absolute worst thing to say. We know we should have been there. We want to have been there. We know you had fun and weâre happy that you did, but the sadness of feeling abandoned completely obliterates that. So donât rub it in.
Instead, say, âYeah, we had fun, but Iâm glad Iâm here nowâ or, â⌠that youâre here nowâ. It really makes us feel loved and appreciated.Â
I know this barely scratches the surface of what we feel on a daily basis, but I hope this can help those who donât know.
Thank you for coming to my TedTalk.
Constantly put down, looked at like a piece of shit, not noticed missing from bed, not wanted.........
And after everything
You carry on prioritising!
I just feel sad
Empty
Fed up
Scared
Angry
Worried
Anxious
Unloved
And it's usually cause I fuck everything up
Waiting
Always last on the list! Done waiting, done wanting and done needing!
Iâm not scared of death, Iâm scared of time.
(via asblackasmysoull)
Thoughts aren't changing this time
Just when you think youâre fine, when everything is okay, someone says one thing. They say that one word that pushes you into a spiral and your whole world turns upside down. That one word sends you back to your worse moment, your darkest corner. Itâs strange how an innocent comment can make everything youâve tried so hard to build go crumbling down.
KJS // Excerpt from the book Iâll never write #51 (via wyattwesleywriting)
A part of me wants to get better. The other part wants to die.
(via better-off-deadx)