☆ m a d s ☆ @its-just-mads-inactive - Tumblr Blog

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i shitpost mostly abt bpd | 19 trying to cope in the best way i can if you follow me, you def got daddy and/or mommy issues

a quiet borderline on her healing journey | 𝟏𝟗 my safe space .𖥔 ݁ ˖ self-devotion, growth & manifestation blog .𖥔 ݁ ˖ 𝟑:𝟑𝟑

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ੈ✩˚Welcome To My Page

here’s a little bit of info about me :

non-binary | all pronouns

nicknames: mads, maddie, or krys

infp

sagittarius 🌞 gemini 🌙 ⬆️

major depressive disorder, general anxiety, borderline personality disorder, derealization & dissociation, hallucinations, anorexia — (all diagnosed).

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here’s a few things about my page:

i write/post about my intrusive thoughts and such

A LOT OF MY CONTENT CAN BE CONSIDERED TRIGGERING, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE READ WITH VIEWER DISCRETION

i use tumblr as a way to get things off my mind (basically a vent blog)

⚠︎homophobia, transphobia, sexism, and racism to any degree are not welcomed here at all (especially MAGAts, fuck ya’ll to the highest degree), so take your leave⚠︎

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anyways, thank you for taking the time to read this <3

i appreciate and love you all

please take care of yourselves lovelies

“See You Space Cowboy…”

sorry, little cowboy bebop reference there lol

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I hate that I’m in control and responsible for my own life.

It’s too much pressure, it’s terrifying and I hate it. I wish with my whole entire being that someone could just live it for me or, at the very least, just direct me towards the right path and tell me what decisions to make — but even then, that’s too much for me. I don’t like the fact that at the end of the day, I have to take care of myself; I have to live and support my own life, career, relationships and responsibilities and just all of it. I hate it. It’s terrifying and nearly crippling whenever I think about it. It’s all just too much and I want it to stop. I never asked to be born, so why the fuck do I have to do all of this and put up with it, all because of my own unsolicited existence.

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me trying to remind myself my fp is human too and isn’t some all perfect angelic being that makes no mistakes and has their own completely normal flaws

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i don’t fear death, simply because i don’t believe that there will be an eternity of damnation nor just a pitch black void of nothingness waiting for me.

but i do fear the process of dying, it’s a major part as to why i’m still here.

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so glad that i would be completely exempt from a draft if it were to ever happen. never trust me with a military grade weapon when off my meds i’m not joking at all. deadass one of the only good things that come out of being mentally fucked up.