With claustrophobia, anxiety, anger issues, and depression, already well under her belt at just the age of seventeen, Raven finds that she is every bit of how a Scorpio is described and made out to be. People look at the ‘descriptions’ and ‘common traits’ of Scorpios, and see that they are made out to be manipulative, stubborn, negative, and resentful people. While some would be bothered by how they are described, or others would entirely disagree because of the Scorpios they know and that are quite different, Raven finds that everything fits, and she can identify with it one-hundred percent on most days.
At the end of the day, even if she identifies and feels understood—– she can’t help but be bothered by it. Scorpios, most of the time, are portrayed in such a negative light that it does call for some self-hatred, especially when she sees how some of the other signs are made out to be, and hers is one of the worst. After all, it was just a coincidence that she was born in November, two months before she was do, and just happened to be everything a Scorpio is portrayed to be. None of this would bother her, not one bit, if it wasn’t for the fact that her mother is obsessed and entirely dedicated to everything that has to do with astrology. She has to live with her mother calling her out of her room just to show her a post she saw on Tumblr or on another website. Raven has to live with her mother telling her she couldn’t have been born at a better time, because there was a post that said Scorpios “look like they’re ready to murder everyone”, and they’re in the “has a list of people they would murder squad”, and that is “just so her”.
Raven doesn’t think it’s her fault that she has so many things to deal with, and that most of the time, she indeed wants to snap at everyone for being the way they are, or saying things that are triggering to her. It’s also not her fault that most of the time she’s into “dark things”, and has a tolerance and like for things and films that others find strange and gruesome. It’s not something she chose to be, she didn’t chose to be as cold, tough, and detached, on most days, as Scorpios are made out to be. And it only makes it worse when she’s started to only identify with the most negative descriptions, and traits, she sees on those sign posts. She’s very emotional, protective, and loyal—– there’s many depths to her, but with everything that she sees, and everything her mother shows her, she’s so eager to just fit in somewhere, and bathe in the feeling of acceptance and understanding.
So as lovable and friendly as she can be, on most days, with her traits and disorders, she’s just begun to go with the flow ——- if Scorpios are meant to be cynical, unemotional, and a force to be reckoned with, then so be it. In the long run, as hard as it makes it for her to make actual friends and have a circle of acquaintances, it does seem to help that she’s a bit of a loner; that way, there’s less people to bring out the ugly side of her, and she can just live in peace…even if that means being in an isolation that makes everything worse for her.
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