you can come to me

ally dawson || 8teen || singer, songwriter, 1/4 founder of A&A Music Factory I wanna hear you play my song I wanna hear it all night long and if it ever ends we’ll hit it up again I’ll tell you what I want I-I-I wanna hear you play my song

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4ustinmooon:

“Soulmates,” he confirmed, pressing his lips sweetly to hers. “It’s always been you and me.” He rubbed her back comfortingly, shifting her so that she was hidden from the view of iPhone cameras and gawking stares. “Alls…” He murmured, cradling her to his chest before finally reaching his car. He stood outside as he helped her in, leaning down to strap her in, before he sighed and brushed his thumb against her cheekbone. “I don’t think we should tell him. He’s… too young to understand,” he murmured decisively, before moving to climb into the driver’s side.

“I love you.” she says softly, feeling his lips pressed against hers caused a light smile to form upon her face as she nods her head. “Just you and me.. also Alex though.” she mumbles a bit to him as he rubs her back causing her to feel comfort around him as her face was still buried in his neck not really wanting to make eye contact with anyone except Austin. When he got to the car and set her in, she looks at him as he brushed his thumb against her cheekbone causing her to nibble on her bottom lip. “I -- yeah.. maybe so..” she mutters as she rubs her stomach a bit, feeling sad once again. 

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4ustinmooon:

“Nah. We’re soulmates. My heart would know even if my brain didn’t.” He laughed a little, the sound feeling foreign and perhaps a little too loud after the news they’d just received and the grief they still felt, but being with her made it hurt less. Austin gave her a quick peck before leaning down to lift her into his arms. He didn’t care that they would get weird looks and that this intimate moment would probably be in magazines within days, but he was thankful she was still warm to him. He was worried that she wouldn’t want him to touch her at all, too scarred from the experience to want to be near him. “Dez said he’d take Alex until we were ready. …Is it kinda bad that I don’t want him to see us like this? He’s… he’s gonna have lots of questions and I don’t know what we’re gonna say…”

“Soulmates, huh?” she questions, rising a slight eyebrow at him as a laughter escaped his lips which caused her to smile lightly at him. Ally felt his lips  touch hers for a split second before he pulled away and lifted her which caused her arms to wrap around his neck, leaning against him slightly. She closed her eyes and inhale sharply, her face buried in the crook of his neck, not able to make contact with anyone else in the hospital. “No.. I don’t want him to see us like this either.. I c-can’t tell him that he also l-lost a b-brother or s-sister.” she stutters out as new fresh tears rolled down her face. 

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4ustinmooon:

“I’d be a bad husband to anyone who isn’t you,” he declared confidently. “Because I’d be too busy thinking about you to be any kind of husband to anyone else.” Austin grinned and kissed her on the forehead before moving off the bed, setting her down gently on her feet. He grabbed her handbag and handed it to her to hold before lacing their fingers together. He pulled her close to him by her hand and then settled his other hand against her back to hold her to him. “Want me to carry you?” He offered, pressing his forehead to hers and knowing that she was physically and emotionally exhausted. “Bridal style or piggyback…” he added temptingly.

“I don’t think that’s possible,” she tells him while shaking her head at him giving him a weak smile. “But what if you never met me and feel head over heels for someone else?” Ally question looking up at him as he kissed her forehead causing her to sigh softly as she got on her two feet once again. When he grabbed her handbag and gave it to her, she placed it on her side as he laced their fingers together. “No.. it’s fine,” she mutters softly, but even though she said that she let go of his hand and did little grabby hands like a child who wants to be carried knowing that he knew she preferred bridal style more. 

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4ustinmooon:

He rubbed her back soothingly. “I love you…” He reminded her quietly. Austin rubbed his cheek against hers before moving his hands and scratching his fingers softly against her scalp. He stared back at her as she zoned out, his own eyes watering and expression distraught as he forced himself to be put together for the sake of his wife. “…C’mon,” he sighed after a moment, before helping her into a sitting position. Luckily, they had already disconnected her from the IV and said she could leave when she felt ready. Austin pulled her sideways into his lap, her legs handing over the edge of the bed and head head pressed to his heartbeat. He smiled a little - even after so many years, having her this close still made his heart race. “Hey - I can get your heart beat-beatin’ like that,” he sang quietly to her, rubbing her all over in a soothing motion and cocooning her to his chest. Austin brushed his nose against hers. “It’s going to take time. But we can do it, Ally. We can do anything together…” He said quietly. Austin met her gaze once more, knowing she could see how much he was hurting too, before he descended his lips onto hers and kissed her softly. He moved his lips chastely, gently against hers, a quiet reminder that he would always be by her side. After a few moments, he pulled back and offered her a weak smile.

She was thankful for his actions, after all she did know that he was hurting as well and she felt selfish that she’s basically moping about it and he was trying to be strong for the both of them. Glancing up at him, she sees his own eyes watering causing her to place a hand upon his cheek and wipe it away. When he helped her up into a sitting passion, all she did was lean up against him and when he pulled her onto his lap, she wrapped her arms around his neck before sighing softly, leaning her head against his chest as she listens to his heartbeat, her eyes shut for a split second as he sang to her. Ally opens her eyes back up giving him another small smile as she lets out a sigh. “You’re the best husband anyone could ask for.” she tells him in a soft voice as she makes eye contact with him, seeing that he was hurting a well. Feeling his lips meet hers caused her to kiss him back softly, their kiss always meant something and she was glad to have him in her life. When he pulled back, she glances up at him and sees the weak smile on his face causing her to lean up and kiss his cheek softly. “Can we go.. I don’t want to stay here any longer..” she admits.  

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4ustinmooon:  

“Hey, c'mon… I should have been more careful too. We’ve been trying and I haven’t been doing anything for you…” Austin stroked her hair. “Ally, it isn’t anybody’s fault. Please… please, let’s not blame ourselves. Let’s… let’s just grieve together,” he whispered, probably holding her too tightly but he didn’t care. “Sometimes these things… the-they happen an-and there isn’t anything we c-can do to ch-change it…” He cleared his throat, swallowing hard before holding her face with one hand and making her look at him. “Hey, don’t diss my wife. She’s amazing,” he teased softly through the tears. “Alls… I want you to be happy. That’s what I want. I would love to have another child with you, but you are so much more important to me than any of that…”

“It’s not your fault, you had other things to do.” Ally replies while shaking her head knowing that she can’t have Austin blame himself for her own body. Her heart stung and she felt numb and hurt. She stares into space for a split second before Austin held her face causing her to glance at him. “Austin... our baby is gone,” she repeats as if he didn’t get the news and she knew he felt bad about it. “I don’t think she’s all too great,” her insecurities shined through and she shakes her head a bit. “Honestly, how am I suppose to be happy after this..? Austin, I don’t know what to do, I can’t-- I can’t cope knowing that I lost our child.” The cheerful Ally that was once there had been drained all out and she sat there looking completely lost and miserable. 

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4ustinmooon:

“We didn’t know,” he said, throat tight. He squeezed her tightly. “We didn’t lose this child because of you. We didn’t know we were pregnant,” he repeated, his eyes closed and jaw clenched. Austin slowly pulled his face back to meet hers, his heart slamming to a stop inside his chest at just how broken she looked. He pressed his forehead to hers. “I - I can’t handle it if you blame yourself, Ally,” he whimpered, his lips brushing hers. “I can’t handle it. You can’t blame yourself. I love you too much for you to blame yourself like this. It… it hurts me when you do.”

“I should of known something was up... I didn’t get my period for weeks and when I did check it said negative.” she mumbles softly. “I was careless and thought nothing of it and because of that I’m the reason why our unborn child is never going to be born.” she says her heart breaking with each words escaping her mouth. How could she not blame herself? She should of taken better care of herself. Feeling him press his forehead against hers, she wipes her eyes away as she lets out a tiny sigh. “Austin, this is my fault though. I-I s-should have..” she started off, but cuts herself short as she just begins to weep in him. “I’m such a horrible wife, you wanted nothing, but to have another child and were were going to, but because of me we’re not.. I-I’m so s-sorry, Austin.”  

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4ustinmooon:

Austin froze, pain immediately filling his body as he registered what had just happened. He stared at the doctor in shock and then slowly turned to Ally, before realising that she would be in a much worse state than he would be, considering the physical ordeal she had just gone through as well. He would have to push his grief aside momentarily for her sake, but he squeezed his eyes shut tight for a moment to blink back the tears that threatened to overwhelm him. After a moment to mourn their unborn child, Austin forced himself to compose himself and help Ally. He squeezed her hand tightly. “Thank you, Doctor,” he rasped weakly, before turning to the brunette. “Alls…” he murmured, not sure what to say. He met her gaze, giving her a little nod to let her know she could cry if she needed to. The doctor left to give them privacy and Austin immediately climbed into the tiny hospital bed with her and pulled her into his chest. “It’s not your fault,” he whispered to her, burying his face in her hair and clutching her to him. “It’s not your fault, Alls,” he repeated, because he knew her better than he knew himself and knew that she would be blaming herself.

Ally was sure that her face was full of shock, hurt, and a bunch of other things mixed in one. She had just lost an unborn child and even though she didn’t know that she was pregnant, a part of her just ripped into half as she sat on the hospital bed thinking what she had done to lose her child. It was her fault, she put too much stress of herself and she knew it. It was nobody’s fault, except for herself. When the doctor left, Ally shifted her attention towards Austin letting out a small weep as he climbed onto the bed alongside with her. Instead she collapsed into his arm and let out her tears that just fell. “Austin, it is my fault.. if I knew I had a child I could of taken better of myself.. not put too much stress on myself. Austin, we lost a child because of me, I’m so so sorry.” she cried out as she shakes her head taking in a deep breath.  

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4ustinmooon:

Austin swallowed hard and brushed his lips against her forehead. He sighed and used his free hand to cup her face gently, resting his face against hers. “I love you so much, Ally Moon,” he whispered to her, a small smile etching across his face. “You know that I’ll be by your side no matter what,” he promised, capturing her lips sweetly for a moment before giving her a small, reassuring smile. He was thankful that the bleeding had seemed to stop - but it was worrying that a large clump followed by mucous had come out - and that her cramps had gone away too. The doctor returned, flipping through his clipboard before he sighed and looked at the couple sympathetically. “None of the tests indicate any poor health, Mrs Moon,” he said, before he shifted uncomfortably. “Unfortunately, it seems that the bleeding and the cramping were due to a miscarriage.”

Just hearing him tell her that he loved her and that he would stay by her side no matter what made her feel happy, even if she was laying in the hospital bed unsure of what could happen for her future. “I love you just as much, Austin Monica Moon.” she says, feeling the need to say his full name. She felt a while lot better than before, all her cramps were gone and she felt relaxed. When the doctor had came back, her eyes followed towards his gaze, hearing what he said about not having poor health caused her to smile brightly, however the words that came out next caused her smile to instantly vanish. Her eyes began to get watery. “M-miscarriage?” she repeated back to the doctor. “L-like I had a b-baby in me and n-now it’s g-gone?” she stutters feeling completely numb.  

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4ustinmooon:

Austin gave her a small smile. “Of course I will,” he promised softly. He looked at Alex sleeping on her leg and brushed his unruly blonde locks out of his face - whilst he’d inherited Austin’s fabulous colour, he seemed to have inherited Ally’s curls. He moved to sit beside Ally, wrapping his arm around her and letting her lean on his shoulder. The doctor came and called Ally’s name just as Dez came to pick Alex up, and Austin grabbed her hand, rubbing it soothingly as they followed the doctor into the examination room. He waited patiently with her as they ran the necessary procedures and asked her questions, simply being there for her without moving his hand away from hers.

Ally sent him another small smile of hers, already knowing the answer to it. “I’m glad that you will.” she says softly as she glances down at their son who seems to be sleeping peacefully and she was glad that he was. As Austin move to sit besides her and wrap his arm around her, she leans against his shoulder as she lets out a tired yawn. Soon, the doctor had called out her name causing a few heads to turn towards the couple, but Ally ignored them and kissed her son goodbye as Dez took him back to his place. Following the doctor in the office, she lays down on the little bed as they did some procedures, she held onto Austin’s hand a little too tight, but he never seem to mind it. When the doctor went out of the room to check up on something, her eyes fell on Austin. “What if something is seriously wrong with me?” 

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4ustinmooon:

Austin let out a little whimper of concern, guiding his wife and his son to sit before he went to the counter to fill out her details. He gave a tight-lipped smile at the receptionist who clearly recognised him but at least had enough common sense not to ask for an autograph at this point. He also called Dez to ask him to come get Alex before returning to Ally and Alex. “How are you now?” He asked anxiously, kneeling in front of her and placing his hands on his thighs. Alex had fallen asleep again, so he wasn’t afraid to show Ally how scared he was anymore. He reached forward and gently rubbed her stomach before rubbing his nose against hers and resting his forehead to hers. “I love you,” he murmured in a reminder, before kissing her softly. He offered her a small smile. “It’s okay for once to be, the damsel in distress,” he sang quietly to her, reminiscent of their old song.

Ally knew that she was freaking Austin out, but she couldn’t help it, she was just in so much pain and had to release it somehow. As they got inside, he guided them towards opening seating. Ally let Alex get comfortable on her leg, using it as a pillow and brushed his hair ever so slightly so he could fall back asleep. When Austin returned to her, her attention left her son to look at him as she sends him a tiny smile. “I’m okay, the cramping stopped right now..” she trails off as she felt him rub her stomach before he rubbed his nose against hers. “And I love you.” she tells him in a soft quiet voice as she kissed him back. “If I do, will you be there to catch me when I fall?” 

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4ustinmooon:

“He thinks we’re on an adventure,” he murmured, not wanting to risk waking him up and having him hear what they were saying. “Once we’re there and after we check you into the ER, we’ll call Dez. You know there’s always a bit of a wait, even with the ER,” he pointed out, squeezing her hand tightly. He gulped and glanced quickly at her. “It’s going to be okay,” he whispered. “We’re going to be okay,” he repeated, hoping that if he said it enough it would be true. He let go of her hand to park, and then helped her out of the car before easily lifting their sleeping son in one arm. He held Alex in one arm while the little boy nuzzled his face into his neck and clung to him like a koala, and held Ally’s hand tightly with the other as they walked into the ER. “Just a bit longer, baby,” he murmured, kissing the side of her head.

Ally couldn’t help, but give him a tiny smile. He was such an amazing dad, an amazing husband, an amazing person, really. Not feeling up the arguing she nodded her head at him and stayed silent trying to figure out if she had done something wrong or to hurt herself in anyway. As she was thinking, they soon arrived to the hospital. The tiny brunette getting out of the car and began to walk over towards her son and husband. “It hurts, I’m cramping again..” she groans as she clutches her stomach feeling him kiss the side of her head, which calmed her down a bit, but the cramping continued causing her to let out another loud groan of pain. 

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4ustinmooon:

He looked confused, urgently pulling her face into his chest and cradling her shivering body against hers. He would have suggested it were her period, but she looked too panicked for that to be the case - after all, only the week before had she’d been having spotting, as they’d believed, but the negative pregnancy test only confirmed it was her period; so there was no way that this spurt of blood could be her period. Austin swallowed hard, terrified of all the possibilities of what this could mean, ranging anywhere from ovarian cancer to some kind of growth in her womb, and pulled back, wiping the frightened tears from her face. “I’m taking you to the hospital right now,” he said, already standing and grabbing her pads and a new pair of underwear. “Here you go. Meet me at the front door,” he ordered, with a tone that didn’t leave room for agreement - and Austin rarely got commanding like this, so he knew she would listen. He stood and moved to Alex’s room, waking his son up, and he felt terrible scaring him like this but they couldn’t leave him at home. “Mommy and Daddy have a late night adventure to do, okay?” He said, trying not to sound terrified as he grabbed Alex’s little preschool backpack filled with his toys and DS games. "You can sleep in the car, alright, Alex?” He said, lifting his son into his arms and carrying him to the front door where Ally was waiting. The poor boy was still sleepily blinking in confusion, not really sure what was happening as Austin led them outside to his car and got everybody in before starting the drive to the hospital. His knuckles turned white on the steering wheel, before he swallowed hard and reached for Ally’s hand, the other hand still gripping the wheel tightly.

Feeling Austin pull her towards his chest and cradled her, she lets out a small breath just glad that she had such an amazing husband by her side. She was beyond scared, not knowing where all this blood had came from. She knew it wasn’t her period considering it never was this much blood, whatever it was, it scared her. She wasn’t sure what was wrong with her, if she could die within the next few days. “I --” Just as she was about to protest about going to the hospital, she knew that she couldn’t, she had to go to see what was wrong with her. Along with the commanding voice of his, she nodded her head taking hold of the items and as Austin left, she changed and met Austin in the front of the house. She felt bad that she and Austin had to wake up their sleepy son. When they got to the car, she opens the passenger seat and pulls the seatbelt over her. Glancing over towards Austin, she sees his grip on the steering wheel, which caused her to frown as he took hold of Ally’s hand. “Hey.. do you think we should leave Alex with Trish or Dez? I mean.. I don’t think he’ll like the hospital very much and I don’t want him to be worried about me..” she replies weakly while glancing over towards him. 

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4ustinmooon:

Austin was jolted from his sleep by the sound of Ally groaning and clutching her stomach. “Baby,” he said, reaching blindly for her but realising she was already rushing to the bathroom. “Baby, is it just a number two?” He asked, getting up more slowly and following her. In her haste she hadn’t closed the door, and… “Is that blood?” Austin exclaimed, rushing to her and crouching in front of her, his fingers clutching at her pale face as he searched her eyes to make sure she hadn’t gone into shock.

Ally has been tossing and turning all night long, not being able to get comfortable. Just as she got comfortable and was just about to fall asleep, her stomach began to cramp up and she began to start groaning from the feeling. Suddenly, she felt a goo causing her eyes to widen as she rushed to the bathroom, not listening to what Austin was saying. As soon as she pulled down her shorts, her underwear and pj pants were in fact covered in blood and she felt sick. This can’t be happening, she panics and glancing up at Austin she felt like she wanted to cry as she slowly nodded her head. “A-Austin..” she started, but couldn’t seem to finish her sentence as tears began to fill her eyes. 

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4ustinmooon:

Austin laughed, twirling the ends of her hair with his fingertips, his face still buried in her neck. He pressed a few kisses there before pulling his face back to smile up at her while she talked. “Duh. I’m also all about you. I like being married to you. I like raising our child with you.” He waggled his eyebrows and winked. “I like having unprotected sex with you. I just like you. You’re the love of my life, and I can’t wait until Alex can have a little sibling that he can love just as much as we love him.” He grinned cheerfully at her, rubbing his nose affectionately against hers. “Of course I think you’re an awesome mother. You give Alex exactly what he needs and usually what he wants.” Austin pecked her on the lips. “Okay, Alls. I’ll call Jimmy later and let him know.”

Ally giggles slightly as she felt him twirl the ends of her hair with his fingertips, something that always seem to calm her. Feeling him press those kisses against her just caused her to grin happily as she glances up at him.  “Are you all about me?” she teases a bit, hearing what he said next caused her to gasp and smack his shoulder. “Hey, unprotected sex is not safe, babe. And you should know that I like you too, you’re the love of my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way. You’re totally so down about having another child, aren’t you?” Ally grins a bit, his love and affectionate for her was nothing that she can’t handle. “Well, I feel bad if he doesn’t get what he wants..” The brunette admits while feeling his lips meet hers for a split second. “Okay, Austin.” 

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4ustinmooon:

Austin grinned and reached for his phone, before holding it at arm’s length and having it on selfie mode. “Okay, tell me you love me,” he grinned, hitting record and staring up at her with adoring eyes. “I love you,” he said, rubbing his nose against hers and grinning, pecking her quickly on the lips. When they finished recording, he sent the video to her too, and set his phone down on the coffee table. Austin cuddled her tightly. “We’re just gonna be a very competitive family,” he laughed, burying his face in her neck. “I can’t believe we’re gonna make another cute little baby. I can’t wait to tell Alex that he’s going to have a little brother or sister soon…” He pulled back and smiled gently at her, touching her face. “Well, we both know you aren’t a bad mom,” he promised. “But okay. I’ll meet with Jimmy in the morning and we can drop Alex off at Dez’s on the way to the doctor.”

Ally wasn’t phase when he took his phone and holding it above them, she acted like she didn’t see it and glances down at her husband with a loving gaze as she smiles happily. “I love you.” she mutters happily as he rubbed his nose against hers as well causing to her giggle as their lips met for a split second. Hearing her phone beep, she assume that he sent it to her, which she didn’t bother looking at until later. Ally smiles happily as he cuddled her tightly, just loving his strong firm arms around her. “We really are.” she nods her head while laughing as well, not minding his face buried in her neck. “You’re all about having a second child, aren’t you? Soon.” she mumbles as she glances down at him. “Are you sure?” she says a bit insecurely. “Alright, sounds good to me!”

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4ustinmooon:

“Hm. I hadn’t thought of that. I should record you saying it and looking cute so that if I’m ever lonely or apart from you I can play it and feel better.” He grinned at her. Austin looked thoughtful. “Moons are very competitive. So are Dawsons. No telling how competitive a Dawson-Moon is going to be.” Austin chuckled, absently running his fingers up and down her back. “Anything Alex does is adorable. I’m certain he’s going to be more talented than me. Our little genius,” he gushed. He raised his eyebrows. “You sure? I know he likes hanging out with Uncle Dez and whatnot. And this way you can relax.”

“You’re adorable,” Ally replies as she lets out a soft giggle snuggling up against his side as he said that. The brunette nodded her head at what he said. “Oh, totally.. I swear you and your brother are always super competitive with one another. And yup, I’d hate to admit it, but I am pretty competitive myself. Poor future Dawson-Moon child.. they’re gonna be stuck with a competitive brother.” Ally added while giggling herself as she calms at his touching. “I know, our baby is so precious.. I still can’t believe we made a son. I can’t wait to see him shine.” she mumbles as she looks up at Austin. “Austin, I promise you it’s okay.. plus I feel like I haven’t been around him lately and it makes me feel like a bad mom.” 

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4ustinmooon:

“I will never get sick of hearing that,” he decided, stealing a kiss from her. “I’m sure he will. Alex gets along with everyone,” he pointed out, before leaning back on the couch and tugging her a bit to lie down with him. He cuddled her closely and nuzzled his nose against her neck. “I was surprised his little chubby legs could get up and down those steps,” Austin admitted. He blushed and nudged his nose against hers. “Guitar from his awesome daddy and piano from his awesome mummy. He’s gonna be a musical genius.” Austin grinned and rolled his eyes. “I can take him with me to Jimmy, if you like. Or I can take him to Dez’s on the way over so that you can sleep in,” he suggested.

“I sure hope that you won’t get sick hearing that because you’re stuck with me telling you it till the day I die.” she replies, grinning as she felt his lips connect with hers. “Alex is just a really friendly person -- yeah, but what if he sees some sort of competition?” she questions glancing up at him while rising an eyebrow as she felt him pull her down with him. Feeling him cuddle her closely caused her to smile softly just enjoying the feeling of it. “You have to admit that it was pure adorable how he would take his time on each step though.” Ally says while smiling. Seeing the blush form upon the boy’s face caused Ally to giggling a bit. “He sure is, might even be better than the Austin Moon.” she teased while poking him slightly. “No, it’s okay. I’ll watch Alex until you come home.”