It'llBeOkay

Can I tell you the truth? I believe it'll be okay, but I'm still trying to figure it out

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I needed this so badly. I always wonder if it will end because I want it to get better. So desperately. But I’m going to hold on.

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It has been years since I posted this. And let me tell you, waking up next to my amazing husband, happy and safe, is incredible. He yawns and snuggles up to me, he brings me coffee in the mornings, he loves me always.

I am married, we have a doggo (cutest doggo ever), and I hope that some day, we have kiddos as well.

This post is what kept me going for a while and eventually, I didn't need Tumblr anymore because I became mentally stronger and healthier.

I thought I was disgusting, undeserving of love, and worthless. I thought that it wouldn't get better, I deserved unhappiness and bad things, and that I would never escape the headspace that held me for years. But I was wrong.

Coming from someone who has gone through that hell that is depression and self harm, starving, self loathing, and making it through to the other side of it, please don't give up.

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It's so hard to make decisions for yourself when you are so used to trying to please everyone else. Try to make a decision, even if it is a little one to start, that is for you every day. Eat that extra bite, stand up for yourself, make a choice that betters your life. It's okay to make a decision for you.

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10 things you need to remember

1. you are a person and people need to eat.

2. “i was not born to be a skeleton” is the most beautiful sentence you will ever hear.

3. growling stomachs and rotten teeth are not beautiful.

4. water is not a meal.

5. healthy snacks are always an option.

6. plants need food and water and sun to grow up strong and beautiful. so do you.

7. fat is something you have, not something you are.

8. long walks are magical.

9. naps really do fix everything.

10. you are important.

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*Naps don’t always fix everything but they can improve things quite often if you nap responsibly. 

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This makes me happy

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Honestly a huge shoutout to everyone who had to stop doing what they love.

Shoutout to people who had to stop playing music and drawing because of arthritis.

Shoutout to people who loved to go hiking but can’t because of chronic fatigue.

Shoutout to everybody who’s ever had their health steal something they loved from them. Yall are so beautiful and worthwhile and I love you.

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You are in charge of your own happiness; you don’t need to wait for other people’s permission to be happy.

The Light in the Heart (via quotewithasource)

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Run

The kind of night where time doesn’t exist. It’s like you’re in a bubble, where suddenly the problems don’t seem fully real. Pain is dulled and wonder is vibrant. Because the creature that pumps your blood, perpetuates your life, is running. Running. Running nowhere. Running everywhere. Steps in beat with a heart that is held back by nothing. Chest that’s so full of life that you suddenly realize why it’s called a ribcage. Without the skeleton for the sinewy tendon and smooth flesh to wrap so tightly around, we could never hope to keep our hearts within our bodies. They would tear us apart in reaching for flight. But it’s the nights when it bangs so hard against the bars that hold it captive that we feel that we should soar. A heart beat that takes over the tick of a clock and, rather than counting down to the dark abyss, rings strong and true and endless. So in these moments, don’t confine the wild inside, take to the streets and run. Feel your heart beat in line with feet pounding on pavement and don’t stop. We don’t have wings to fly but we have legs to run, and let me tell you, that’s just as good. So don’t stop. Don’t ever stop listening. Don’t ever stop running.

[itsanoddsortofworld]

I wrote this a while ago and I reread it and honestly I miss these nights.

Live in the moment, sometimes I forget that. I am so busy waiting for the future that I am missing the present and that feeling is so scary.

I know it can be scary to live in the now, but don’t be scared friends. Live your life the way it is meant, you are worth it.

Lots of love,

MB

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Love

“How could anyone ever love me with my scars?”

I used to believe they made me unlovable, that I would never find someone who understands them. Friends, this is a lie your depression tells you, your anxiety tells you, you mental illness whispers in your heart.

I have been dating my best friend, and love of my life now for two years and have hundreds of scars. Yes, they make him sad for the times when I felt that was my only option. But he loves me. He understands they are a part of my past and therefore who I am.

Sometimes I see them in a certain light and they make me sad, even though it’s been months since my last slip, and when he sees me looking at them or trying to hide them, he kisses them and tells me I am beautiful.

He is not ashamed of them. He doesn’t make me hide them. He encourages me to wear what I want, supporting me during the day if I suddenly panic about the short sleeves. He does not love me less over them.

You are deserving of love. Your scars do not affect your capacity for receiving love. Please, don’t give up.

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permission

Hey friends, Eat today. Why? Well, you’ve got billions of little cells fighting for you. They fight to keep your body healthy. They fight to keep oxygen flowing. They fight to keep your beautiful heart pumping. They fight to heal yours scars. Feed them! They’re hungry. Love your body like it loves you. Be kind to your body because it’s yours and you deserve love and kindness. You are an amazing creation, whether by God or by universe or maybe even a mix of both, you are a miracle and you are here on this planet. You are alive. You are breathing. You are beautiful. Be kind to yourself. ❤

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Love yourself

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I dont remember where i found this but i really like it ❤

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pictures of this little puffball make me so happy