Hush

I embrace messy hair, morning face, nail biting and sushi. Currently at The Netherlands, Europe.

[itsjazzymae-blog]

What is like to have a panic attack syndrome? It feels like, everything you do is wrong. Everything you do is shit. And worse, you will feel that you are so stupid and helpless.

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"Just stop. There's no way and it's so impossible to bring back the good old days. You hurt me too much."

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I thought I made a good decision.

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Late night thoughts

It’s been awhile since I did this. Being alone, radio on, just feeling the night.

For the past two years, normally, after I put my little one to sleep, I will just drink water, brush my teeth and lay to bed. It’s been like that for the past two years, and suddenly I realized that I need some timeout. Timeout from my reality. Not that I’m not loving the motherhood but I felt like I need this. It’s pretty calming actually.

I remembered one person who said this in the past, that one point at a time, I need my “Me” time. Away from everything and just relax. He is right. I just realized, this is what I need. I would love to do this often. That I need to take care of myself as well. That I need to see things when I’m alone. Those things that I was doing before. My life had change, a complete 360 degs.

It’s pretty comforting. Just laying, listening to music, sipping wine.

I have to do this often.

Or maybe I’m just sad…

[thesecretletter]

I see the way you look at me now, you don’t love me the same anymore, I can tell. I don’t get my good morning texts, I have to ask for hugs or to hold hands, the spark in your eye is fading out, you look at me and all you see are my flaws. It breaks me, I love you more than I have ever loved anything before.

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[thelovewhisperer]

She’s hurt; mentally and emotionally. But everyday, she walks outside with a smile on her face, because that’s just who she is; the girl who never stopped smiling.

Quotes about her (via thelovewhisperer)

[thesecretletter]

You are hurting me, and I know you’re not good for me. I know I deserve better. But I can´t. I want you.

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[thesecretletter]

I’m a sad piece of shit with a big heart and a kind soul; don’t ruin me please.

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[thesecretletter]

Is there a limit to how much I’m willing to do? How far I’m willing to go? I don’t think so. But you don’t want me. Not like that.

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[thelovewhisperer]

My feelings just changed. I had been waiting for you to realize you couldn’t go another day without me. I had played out every excuse you could of had for putting all that time between us. Missing you had become second nature to me. And somewhere in the last year, when I never got that phone call, and you never showed up at my window, and we never ran into each other, I just stopped feeling like I needed you so much.

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Saw my drafts and all of those posts are for you.

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Remembrance 😛

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I missed it

It's been awhile (again) since I opened my tumblr. And it's been awhile too that I will post (express) something in here. I remember I told to myself that I will be active in here but oh well. I'm sorry my tumblr. Anyways.. A lot had happened. Like a lot has changed. And one of those is that I have a baby already. Wow damn so fast. Everything happened so fast that even universe can't control it. I remember my last posts here is about the guy I met and eventually became the love of my life. It's so fast. But no regrets. I have a wonderful blessing and that's my favorite girl. My little doll, Melisa Francheska. I will post a different one for how I gave birth to her. Not like literally but the moments happened before the big day came. It was exhausting I tell you, but worth it. It was worth the wait. Actually I should be sleeping because in two hours she will wake up to feed. I missed this. I really missed it! So long tumblr. Till my next post. I wonder when but I'll try to catch up! Goodnight!

[itsjazzymae-blog]

I can hate someone but I cannot wish them to be sad.

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Being happy and Being inlove are two different things.

[c0ntemplations]

Become friends with people who aren’t your age. Hang out with people whose first language isn’t the same as yours. Get to know someone who doesn’t come from your social class. This is how you see the world. This is how you grow.

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[blossomfully]

You are so beautiful,” he whispers in her ear. "And maybe it’s the night talking or maybe I’ve lost my mind, but I have never found anything quite as striking as loving someone who loves you back.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #98 (via buhaybabae)