funnyanna

f22 MDNI | TW €d acc | relapse diary

[itsnotannough]

so i decided to update my pinned post.

i’m f22, suffering from eating disorder for the past 8-9 years. my account was created only as my diary/blog.

I DO NOT promote £d and will always be pro recovery. i will never romanticise this life stile and i will not give you any tips on how to ⭐️ better, lose weight in unhealthy ways and etc.

another important thing is i’m begging minors to not interact or follow me because i will just block you. i don’t want any minors to get tips, inspiration or motivation out of my posts. if your age is not on your profile i will probably block you too (i really don’t want any kids to fall into that hole).

i also decided to put additional description in the end of my every post with consequences of having a lifestyle like that.

i know that it won’t stop minors from finding information on this topic but i don’t want to be a part of it.

but ofc if you’re over 18 and want to talk/be moots/support each other feel free to dm me or comment 🫶

[itsnotannough]

update on day 10??

everything was going well and my day started great until everyone came back home. today was my gf father’s birthday and it was A COMPLETE MESS.

she bought me a small cake, ofc they brought big cake for birthday and almost made me eat chicken fried in pure oil oml 😭

i was about to avoid chicken and my cake but had to eat cake with everyone or they would get suspicious and think i’m ignorant 🫠 it wasn’t THAT high on calories tho thank god. but i finish the day with 420€🥹

(it was a sweet gesture from my gf to buy me a cake and she wanted to make something nice for me but my sick head can’t take it)

a lifestyle like that will make your hair fall out, teeth break, heart problems and big risks of d£@th. your 0rgans will be damaged. this is not “aesthetic” or cool. lose weight in healthy ways!!

[itsnotannough]

for lunch i had some cut frozen bananas in plain yogurt which turned out to be pretty high in € 😩 but that’s fine.

did my pilates (almost passed out) and this 166€ lunch!

a lifestyle like that will make your hair fall out, teeth break, heart problems and big risks of d£@th. your 0rgans will be damaged. this is not “aesthetic” or cool. lose weight in healthy ways!!

[itsnotannough]

girl math is you don’t have to avoid going out with your friends/partner/ family if you’re being left out anyway 😝

[itsnotannough]

lord give me some fucking strength to survive this summer on my low c@l d!£t 🥀

[itsnotannough]

what if i rel@psed because i moved in with my gf to her country and they don’t have a piano here?? and it’s the first time in my life i don’t have a piano near??🤨

[itsnotannough]

another update on my d!£ttt!! it’s day 9 now!

since i ⭐️ yesterday and did my pilates this morning i had to have something after to not pass out 😭

well cz of that, it was harder to stay on my deficit but i still managed it! and finish my day at 286€. as i promised yesterday i did my measurements and so far got -1cm in all of them in a week.

C 76->75

W 60->59

H 92->91

(yes my hips measurements are lame af but i have thunder thighs with full hips and that’s basically the reason why i do what i do🫩)

a lifestyle like that will make your hair fall out, teeth break, heart problems and big risks of d£@th. your 0rgans will be damaged. this is not “aesthetic” or cool. lose weight in healthy ways!!

[itsnotannough]

so i decided to stick to my d!£t until august 1st (pool party), and then i’ll allow myself some treat. like food i really want but not too much yk

[itsnotannough]

aghh i had two boiled eggs as my lunch and now i feel like i ate too much 🫠

[itsnotannough]

tell me why do i feel f@at if i’m barely eating?

[yourgirlinterrupted]

85% of ppl on TikTok that say “I’ve playED these games before” on a skinny girl’s post, have not in fact “played these games”

[itsnotannough]

update for my day 8 i guess?

today i feel a bit more depressed so i skipped dinner as well and basically ⭐️ all day lol. tomorrow will do my measurements and compare from the ones from week ago ✨

will probably just make myself some tea and that’s it. ALSOO gotta keep going cz in august 1st i have pool party scheduled (everything started from it 🫠)

a lifestyle like that will make your hair fall out, teeth break, heart problems and big risks of d£@th. your 0rgans will be damaged. this is not “aesthetic” or cool. lose weight in healthy ways!!

[itsnotannough]

also talked to my mom today and she started warning me to be careful with being so judgy about my body or i can get a4o🙀 or other problems with food.

and i’ll forever wonder what part of me breaking down from food/people commenting on my eating/crashing out from number on my scales AT THE RIPE AGE OF 13 didn’t scream i already MIGHT have some problems..?

[itsnotannough]

mind you at 13 i signed up for walking pilgrimage from our church cz my parents wouldn’t be there to control if i’m eating and i would be walking for 3 days straight. i spent 3 days only on water and walked like 20-30km per day and when i was back home and saw no difference on scale numbers i had the roughest crash out that they literally had to give me some valeriana lol.

and it was just the beginning mind you

[itsnotannough]

also talked to my mom today and she started warning me to be careful with being so judgy about my body or i can get a4o🙀 or other problems with food.

and i’ll forever wonder what part of me breaking down from food/people commenting on my eating/crashing out from number on my scales AT THE RIPE AGE OF 13 didn’t scream i already MIGHT have some problems..?

[itsnotannough]

so today i decided to do omad since yesterday i ate more. i planned to go to the psychiatric hospital (just to accompany my gf for her therapy lol) but we didn’t set it as plan for sure so i didn’t go hahah. for some reason doing omad today feels nice and not hard at allll. so so happy cz of that 😝

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i forgot to do the sum up of the day 7 of my diet 🤧

yesterday i 472€ 🫠 but it was planned so it’s fine. i didn’t do any physical activity since i felt pretty weak. but i’m planning to finish my day with lower € since i ate more yesterday.

i think tomorrow i’ll take my measurements to have at least some way of monitoring my progress yk.

a lifestyle like that will make your hair fall out, teeth break, heart problems and big risks of d£@th. your 0rgans will be damaged. this is not “aesthetic” or cool. lose weight in healthy ways!!

[itsnotannough]

i need my scales omg i’m gonna rip my hair offfff